do you have autism?

[NothingElseMatters]

just found out i have asperger, 30 years later

 

[bluville]

I strongly suspect I do but I don't plan on getting evaluated for it. It feels like a waste of time and money knowing how biased doctors are against women and non-white ppl when it comes to autism

 

[MidnightDream]

Yep. Didn't get diagnosed until early 20s

 

[ForsakenDial]

just found out i have asperger, 30 years later

Yes. It makes navigating life impossible.

 

[_Kaira_]

I also suspect that I am on the spectrum. I remember when I was younger, one of my grandparents suggested to my parents that I might be Austistic, but my parents shrugged it off (Think of the kind of situation: No child of OURS can possibly be autistic). A therapist I used to see also suspected that I could be, but I avoided seeking further help due to my avoidant personality.

 

[jodes2]

Yes. I only got diagnosed at 40. It's a shame they can't actually do anything about it. My gf has autism too, she was only diagnosed after stabbing her mum

 

[hungry_ghost]

I took a few assessments online, and I scored pretty high on the likeliness of having it.

I've suspected it for a while, but have never been diagnosed and don't plan on seeking a professional diagnosis.

I don't need a stranger in an office to tell me why I was always a bit strange, aloof, slow to comprehend certain things or socially inept.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I have Aspergers and I was diagnosed when I was very young. I believe that autism is a reason as to why I've always hated existing and never wanted to be here, as I'm simply not meant for this world in any way.

 

[MlKE]

Yes I got diagnosed last summer but there didn't come anything of it aside from the relief of knowing it was over before it began. Got an invitation for a series of digital meetings with information about the condition that I might attend soon. Maybe I'll learn more then.

 

[MentalStefan]

Yup. I self-diagnosed myself on June 2022. I have so much in common with autistic people that it's not possible I am not aspie. Some psychiatrists hypothesized earlier that I was probably autistic but my mother couldn't accept it. She was continuosly persuading me and doctors that I wasn't... And I was too dependent on her and submissive to deny it.

 

[Papilio_polyxenes]

Very likely, and it's an enormous part of the reason I am considering CTB.

Imagine having such a poor innate sense of direction that you can get lost for hours while driving or walking without GPS. Locking yourself out? Forgetting important deadlines or specific information? Just part of the daily routine.

How about having no friends or romantic prospects because you can't read social cues? Everybody at your work or school ostracizes you for being such a weird freak. Don't expect to reach normal milestones of adulthood.

Being in the outside world is overwhelming - your head feels like a pressure cooker. You can't go on autopilot in public because what seems "normal" to you is cringe and offensive to everyone else.

Your mind is only a place of solace if you aren't beset by a flood of awful memories or intrusive thoughts. Getting mindfucked by a bad loop will cripple productivity for hours or days on end.

Obviously, I'm sure my experience is irrelevant for high IQ autists or those who mask well. I'm not a music savant or a STEM genius, and I can't draw complex architecture from memory. My brain is simply defective hardware that I can't replace or repair.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Yes. Autistic people are greatly disproportionately represented in spaces like this board. It's certainly why I'm here.

 

[taq]

Yes but the doctors greatly overestimated to which degree. When I was 14 I was diagnosed with Asperger's and a week later I was in a group of people that they told me
"I would fit in" and that these are all "like-minded people".
I was horrified when I actually got there and it was kids around the same age as me, but all clearly suffering from severe mental issues. It was a group full of people that couldn't actually behave, that had trouble just being silent for 5 seconds and that would just randomly begin to scream and run around in the room.
Needless to say I felt so out of place there, that I left prematurely even tho they tried to stop me.
I never came back to that place even after my parents forced me there, I simply refused to enter the building and walked out if I was dragged in.

 

[NoLightRemains]

I got diagnosed a couple years ago at age 28. I was in denial over having it for many years and tried my best to mask and succeed in life, but I've been burnt out for years and don't really have it in me to mask much these days.

 

[Versailles]

Yeah, is hard for me make friendships, and my disability don`'t help, I feel just like a man punched by the cruel society

Yup. I self-diagnosed myself on June 2022. I have so much in common with autistic people that it's not possible I am not aspie. Some psychiatrists hypothesized earlier that I was probably autistic but my mother couldn't accept it. She was continuosly persuading me and doctors that I wasn't... And I was too dependent on her and submissive to deny it.

My family dont`t wants accept my autism, so I can understand you, I don`t sure is the case of my family is fine o no, but is not a problem for me, even though I don`t have a strong communication with them

 

[allwrong]

Yes lol. Diagnosed officially in mid teens, back when it was still subdivided into categories and I got Asperger's syndrome. Got major depression and 'Threatened personality development' as well. The last thing means I'm at risk of developing personality disorders, I think. No doubt if a trained psychologist could look at footage of me for a week they'd give me some personality disorder, so they got it all right lol.
Anyways, being autistic is definitely one of the reasons why I struggle in life. When you're autistic and self-aware enough to know it makes you stick out, unless you've been raised in a sufficiently loving environment where you learn to not care about your quirks, it's just gonna make your life extremely shitty and alienating.

 

[Sunset Limited]

Asperger here. If your parents are assholes, they never want to believe it and will say what you went through is your personal failure. Children with asperger's and autism should never be educated with others. My school life was hell.

 

[absurd_to_the_end]

Never officially diagnosed, but yes I'm almost certain. The isolation from not being able to maintain friendships is slowly wearing me down. I'm so burnt out.

 

[taq]

Children with asperger's and autism should never be educated with others. My school life was hell.

Strongly disagree.
Asperger's syndrome as a diagnosis gets thrown around way too easily and is basically handed out by some like TicTacs.
This would only isolate those with low levels or none at all even further, potentially making them mentally ill in the first place.

 

[Sunset Limited]

Strongly disagree.
Asperger's syndrome as a diagnosis gets thrown around way too easily and is basically handed out by some like TicTacs.
This would only isolate those with low levels or none at all even further, potentially making them mentally ill in the first place.

Personally, I'd rather be alone in the classroom than study with "normal" kids. My personal opinion based on my experience. I hate every minute of being in the same class with them.

 

[Dark Moon]

Yeah got diagnosed as an teenager.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

Found out I was on the spectrum in my 20s and it was hidden from me my whole life. I never quite got over that.

 

[taq]

Personally, I'd rather be alone in the classroom than study with "normal" kids. My personal opinion based on my experience. I hate every minute of being in the same class with them.

Yes but that really is just a personal thing. Classifying this by diagnosis would be throwing in ALOT of people that wouldn't benefit at best and most likely damage them.
If anything, there should be a better system in place that allows for cases yours to be homeschooled for example.
To each their own

 

[Sunset Limited]

Yes but that really is just a personal thing. Classifying this by diagnosis would be throwing in ALOT of people that wouldn't benefit at best and most likely damage them.
If anything, there should be a better system in place that allows for cases yours to be homeschooled for example.
To each their own

Sure I am not an expert. I shared my personal opinion. I shouldn't be in the same class with "normal" kids. Bad experience. I met people with Asperger's and felt close to them. There are a lot of people with aspergers on this forum. I'd love to be in the same class with them, but with "normal" kids? No way!

 

[sorrowed_ender]

yeah I was diagnosed when I was 17. but since I was born female at birth they denied alot of it. Statistically, it's more easier for boys to be diagnosed than girls since for those who grew up as girls they have different traits than boys do. it was hard getting a diagnosis. It was the most reliving thing of my life when I got diagnosed cus I knew for a LONG time and started advocating for myself as young as 14/15. I knew something was up, and my medical history as a kid and the way my parents talked to me about my childhood experiences all lined up.

 

[Ocean_01]

Very much so. Diagnosed as 11. Glad you were able to figure it out, autism in adults is really hard to deal with, let alone diagnose. Welcome to the club buddy!

 

[Toy]

Yep, diagnosed in early teens but my parents chose to actively ignore it growing up

 

[Archness]

Yes, Since I was born (toddler?) they knew I was autist. Mother HATED me, always angry and sht, very bad relationship, hating & fighting each other, farther essentially just ATM. Tried rly hard to be accepted in school, kinda worked... I mean, I was "friends with everyone" but it was always one way. When I wasn't hogging the spotlight I basically stopped existing.

I can't even fucking mask properly in any way (pretend, low-key, etc) without being a weird autist. Honestly it's over.

 

[doneWithThisSh1t]

There were plenty of signs growing up but because I did well in school and tried to hide is out of fear of sticking out no one really noticed, as an adult though it is painfully obvious.

 

[blankfairy]

Diagnosed since middle school with Asperger's and ADD and later with depression