Do you have anyone in your life you can talk to about suicide?

[dogemn]

Like close friends or family?

 

[user933957]

not really, I have this one friend I talk to sometimes about our problems, but when I try to talk about suicide, she seems quite uncomfortable with the topic. So I don't talk to anyone about how I feel

 

[day]

I trauma dump and express my will to CTB often to peers when I'm under the influence of alcohol or drugs. As for expressing my fantasies of CTB I don't get to do that sadly.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I think, in general, it's a terrible idea to even talk about it with people because so very few of them even know how to approach the topic even if they are trying to be open minded.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I have talked to people when I was younger- when I found out they felt the same. Now though- no. It wouldn't exactly be a surprise for some- considering how depressing our conversations get. But no- I save that all for here now!

It was nice at the time though- like a burden had lifted somewhat. Of course- then you realise you're equally screwed! I even made a half joking pact with someone when I was a child. Our methods were laughable- good job we didn't try any of them!

 

[feder]

not really, I have this one friend I talk to sometimes about our problems, but when I try to talk about suicide, she seems quite uncomfortable with the topic. So I don't talk to anyone about how I feel

Litteraly in the same situation.

 

[StolenLife]

Nope. If I ever tried to talk about suicide I'd be sent straight to the mental hospital.

 

[user933957]

Litteraly in the same situation.

yea, I'm sure me and her have the same diagnosis. She's been a little more distant recently and she's the only friend I have so it's kind of awkward now lmao

 

[byebyeblondie]

No, I was honest about my feelings and plans to ctb with professionals and they went to section me. I since decided against being honest with my feelings. Family don't understand, they see it as selfish and I don't have friends to discuss it with either. I was grateful to find this website though :)

 

[enough of this]

Not any longer. She died more than 20 years ago.

 

[dogemn]

Not any longer. She died more than 20 years ago.

I'm so sorry to hear that.

 

[UKscotty]

Talking to people about CTB is a very bad idea, unless you want to be locked up or people to think you are a fruitcake.

People pretend to be nice, but I've seen how people really are.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just the reality that suicide cannot really be discussed openly as most people refuse to accept suicide as a valid option. Opening up about suicide will likely lead to the person ending up in the psych ward or other people will try to interfere in suicide plans, so to me it's a terrible idea opening up about wanting to die.

 

[jays]

Like close friends or family?

No, not really. I have talked about it with people but its mostly uncomfortable and people don't understand. I told a psychologist once and got sent to the hospital. It was awful.

 

[mlcs]

No. I don't trust anyone and wouldn't risk to ruin my plans cause I need to be dead soon. I used to mention it sometimes when I was okay, I'd deliver it as a joke or as a scenario that wouldn't likely happen soon so the other person wasn't worried.

 

[ihatethisplanet]

I felt like I could tell my husband anything. I told him I think of suicide very often and he accused me of using it for manipulation. Never again. Now I just keep it to myself.

All of these places are always babbling about reaching out and telling someone, and when you do, you're thrown into a nuthouse or accused of manipulation.

 

[nyee]

no. In my experience people tend to distance themselves away from you if you dare speak about your problems, even after listening to theirs and offering sincere advice.

 

[Scythe]

Not nessecarily, I do have one singular friend that understands and won't try to stop me. But I don't want to keep reminding her that I'm going to be gone soon. She talked to me about not constantly talking about my problems and death with her before as it would stress her out. My family would not understand my reasoning and my guess is that they will either tell me to just get over it or to stop being a bitch.

 

[flightlessbutterfly]

There are incredibly few people in my life I would talk to about my mental health, even fewer to talk to about my feelings on the topic. If I were to bring up suicide itself, I'd most likely be taken as a joke by my 'friends' and scolded harshly by relatives. Therefore, no. There is no safe place I can ever talk about suicide or death in a genuine manner.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Yeah but they don't think I'm serious. But when I do it, the tears and "if only we had known!!"

 

[isthisit?]

Like close friends or family?

Nope

 

[Jolene79]

Yes. But I'm in the UK. I think it's worse in America. They don't have the resources here to deal with people talking about suicide. I think it would take alot to get anyone knocking at your door.
I'm quite open with a few people and as my situation is more ' obvious ' due to never ending health struggles, close friends say they actually understand. I think there is a limit tho and I don't fully trust anyone to go into too much detail.

I also have a private therapist who I can talk with openly about my thoughts on looking into this now. I always have when I've been in this situation. I wouldn't dare with a therapist I hadn't known long tho. They all seem desperate to ' save'.

I honestly don't know the point of these therapists you see if you can't tell them the truth and have to fear being sectioned.

 

[my_sundown]

Anyone know if those text lines or phone numbers are anonymous? I've never approached anyone about it because we are socially trained to not support this. It's sad. I could use someone.

 

[vitbar]

Sort of.

One friend I told a month ago. He has tried a few times over many years. He objects and encourages me to seek help. I am still guarded with him.

My therapist and some medical people also know. I have been less guarded. Soon my therapy will end.

 

[enough of this]

I'm so sorry to hear that.

Thank you. She was a true friend. They're not that easy to find. I fully expect to see her again when I make my transition into the other side. It's going to be awesome.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Yeh I have told my mother, a lot! I used to think why on earth would you tell someone that but I guess after a while it just becomes normal and you can't keep it in anymore. She wouldn't get me help so I know I don't have to worry about that, plus I'd probably be able to convince anyone I'm perfectly fine anyway. Am also in the UK and they don't do anything these days, even the really psychotic people are still walking around not getting the help they need.

I've also threatened it to another family member, which I know a lot of people view as manipulative-which I don't think was my goal, I'm not even sure I know what my goal was. I think he was saying some really horrible stuff and I got oversensitive and that was my response. I'm probably quite a manipulative toxic person, so who knows, maybe all my talking about it is a manipulation tactic. I really hope not, but will I ever actually be able to go through it? I just don't know myself well enough to even say for sure if I'll ever be able to do it.

 

[Bagel Lover]

They said I'm too scared to do it. I want to prove them wrong.

 

[Anonymoususer1234]

I suppose I could talk to my counselor about it but I don't really see the point. For me suicide is a backup plan, and thoughts about suicide don't disrupt my life enough to for that kind of clinical conversation to be necessary. (I basically don't think about suicide unless I'm in a very emotional state.)

As for friends and family, I have none. They like to say they're there for me but when push comes to shove they all leave in the end.

It's not their fault of course, I have so much baggage that nobody should have to put up with. Plus I am not a very pleasant person to be around in general. It's not their fault for abandoning me, it's my fault for for feeling abandoned.

TLDR: nope, not really.

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

Literally no one whatsoever. Other than this site I'm completely alone. And it's all my fault.

 

[phantomime]

My boyfriend is open enough that I feel comfortable talking to him about it. But I try not to because even though he listens and in a way, gets it, he's a "it'll get better" kind of guy...