Do you have any plans for the future?

[SipSop]

I'm off my meds, the sedative effect on me is wearing off and I can think and feel properly now. I am affraid to do something to myself for 2 reasons: I begin to have hope again and fear of being locked up again in a institution like psych ward.
The trouble is that I am on a rollercoaster, now I'm high, now I'm low. My motivation might betray me the next moment.
But I really want make my mom proud as she was the only one to be by my side honestly. Even if I do not understand why, I will call it mathernal insinct.
So I want to build a business to make some money and hopefully to share it with her. Maybe have my own family.

 

[Iamnotperminant92]

Hoping to move out of Michigan, somewhere without much snow/ice in winter and better public transport (SAD, unable to drive due to vision issues.)

Move out of my mothers home and start my MTF transition, open a business. Find a good partner and start a family.

I'm not particularly hopeful really. I'll probably CTB before any of it.

 

[SipSop]

Hoping to move out of Michigan, somewhere without much snow/ice in winter and better public transport (SAD, unable to drive due to vision issues.)

Move out of my mothers home and start my MTF transition, open a business. Find a good partner and start a family.

I'm not particularly hopeful really. I'll probably CTB before any of it.

Thank you for sharing. I hope you get to see at least some of it. Good luck!

 

[Pallf]

Get a degree, hopefully go to law school and get a J.D., start my own firm, make bank, take pro bono cases whenever I can, get married, start a family.

 

[Squiddy]

If I don't ctb, then I want to get my degree in either computer science or video game design and create a successful video game.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Actually i have a fantastic idea. Just need to work out the details. Ill get back to this

 

[oneess]

To get a degree and fly to Japan, probably the only dream I have honestly. I just hope I reach a day it will happen, but I'm really afraid of the "what comes next" phase that will probably kick my ass.

 

[BPD Barbie]

To get a degree and fly to Japan, probably the only dream I have honestly. I just hope I reach a day it will happen, but I'm really afraid of the "what comes next" phase that will probably kick my ass.

I was supposed to have gone to Japan april 21st but corona saw that that dream died. Kinda sums up everything. I used to have dreams and ambitions. To go back to school, have a family, a home.

 

[oneess]

was supposed to have gone to Japan april 21st but corona saw that that dream died. Kinda sums up everything

I feel you, I was supposed to fly to Japan in December 2018, had my ticket and everything planned, got to the airport and when they checked my passport there was a problem, two days before the country opened a case against me because of a debt I owed my previous bank(little sum of money honestly) and I had a warrant that forbid me from exiting my country. I was so damn close.

 

[Golden-Ivory]

Learn Spanish, Move to argentina, Make tons of new friends i hope and continue working on digital art.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

No ... Which has been my problem for the last twenty-five years.

 

[Pallf]

Learn Spanish, Move to argentina, Make tons of new friends i hope and continue working on digital art.

Why Argentina?

 

[SipSop]

I was supposed to have gone to Japan april 21st but corona saw that that dream died. Kinda sums up everything. I used to have dreams and ambitions. To go back to school, have a family, a home.

Why Japan? Did you planned? Can you tell me something about it?
I was interested too in my past.

 

[attell2]

I'm off my meds, the sedative effect on me is wearing off and I can think and feel properly now. I am affraid to do something to myself for 2 reasons: I begin to have hope again and fear of being locked up again in a institution like psych ward.
The trouble is that I am on a rollercoaster, now I'm high, now I'm low. My motivation might betray me the next moment.
But I really want make my mom proud as she was the only one to be by my side honestly. Even if I do not understand why, I will call it mathernal insinct.
So I want to build a business to make some money and hopefully to share it with her. Maybe have my own family.

I totally relate. I'm tending toward "nothing to lose" and just pushing forward to see what happens. I don't get why we're here, but for some reason it seems like an opportunity. I imagine that many people don't see it that way for good reason

 

[Mr2005]

I had big plans for the future but that was in the past and it never came to be. There's nothing left

 

[SipSop]

I had big plans for the future but that was in the past and it never came to be. There's nothing left

Do you want to talk about it?

 

[Mr2005]

Not much to talk about. I either live with it or I don't. My failure to act has cost me fifteen years.

 

[SipSop]

Not much to talk about. I either live with it or I don't. My failure to act has cost me fifteen years.

Thank you for sharing. I appreciate it.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

@attell2 I imagine that many people don't see it that way for good reason

what do you mean? for what good reason?

 

[miguel6565]

ctb

 

[strand]

Get through college, move to another country (one that's got a lot of snow), find a job that fulfills me, bring my mother there. I just want a solitary life, but even that's getting harder and harder.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Why Japan? Did you planned? Can you tell me something about it?
I was interested too in my past.

I love the history and architecture in Asia. Also a huge anime fan.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

My only plan is take some diagnostic tests. I can't picture anything else right now. :/

 

[SipSop]

My only plan is take some diagnostic tests. I can't picture anything else right now. :/

What you want to find out with the test?

 

[BitterlyAlive]

What you want to find out with the test?

If what I've been dealing with is more than simple anxiety and depression. Not that they're not complex issues... But I worry that I have something "more" like a personality disorder. It could be the trauma that psychologists have said I have...but I don't think I'm that traumatized. I dunno.

I don't know what I'll do after the tests. I really don't.

 

[SipSop]

If what I've been dealing with is more than simple anxiety and depression. Not that they're not complex issues... But I worry that I have something "more" like a personality disorder. It could be the trauma that psychologists have said I have...but I don't think I'm that traumatized. I dunno.

I don't know what I'll do after the tests. I really don't.

I see, thank you for sharing.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I see, thank you for sharing.

No problem. I hope it was an alright answer. :/

 

[SipSop]

No problem. I hope it was an alright answer. :/

It was alright. From my point of view we should be able to express ourselves and to attempt to connect with others. If we said what we wanted to say then that is is just fine.
I think this is the purpose and benefits of this website.