Discussion Do you have any “comfort item” that you will bring to CTB?

[almaPerdida]

I will take SN in the woods near my house, and i wanna have my blanket and my pillow nearby. I've cried so many times in them, i kinda wanna have them near me when i die because i feel comfortable in my bed. I wish i could CTB in my own bed but i'm afraid to be found, so i'm taking my blanket to comfort me. Also my air pods so i can listen to music.

Do you guys have anything personal like that you will have close to bring you comfort?

 

[リンさん]

Since I will most likely use SN too, I wanna have my phone nearby and a plushie to hug. Also my favorite tarot deck :)

 

[Ampsvx123]

I'll repeat my favorite poem from my favorite poet, which is about the briefness of life, and the oblivion of here after, and do so until time comes to a still, to a decisive end.

 

[annointed_towers]

One of my plushies

 

[notahappygirl]

I plan to leave this world peacefully with N with my blanket too

 

[Minu]

I have a plush monkey, i got as a gift from my best friend.

 

[almaPerdida]

Since I will most likely use SN too, I wanna have my phone nearby and a plushie to hug. Also my favorite tarot deck :)

Ohh i didn't think about bringing my tarot too, i might make a last spread under the stars. Good call.

I'll repeat my favorite poem from my favorite poet, which is about the briefness of life, and the oblivion of here after, and do so until time comes to a still, to a decisive end.

Good idea to have something to read lastly, and i liked the theme of the poem.

One of my plushies

I have a plush monkey, i got as a gift from my best friend.

Seems comfy to leave holding a plush.

I plan to leave this world peacefully with N with my blanket too

Ahh you get me then, my blanket is my favorite thing in the world.

 

[Abyssal]

You know imma be scrolling on my phone while I wait for the sn to kick in

 

[Rockman]

My weed and bongo.

 

[F@#$]

A .357

 

[Celerity]

I don't want anything that can keep me here if/when I do the deed. Even the music I want to listen to is probably not a good idea. Who knows how much more attached to it I could get in my last moments? It would absolutely blow to drive for hours, burning $$$ on gas and a gun, only to duck out because I fell down a rabbit hole looking up some band's newest albums or because I decided to blow through my 24+ hour classical music playlist.

Honestly though, now that I think about it, that would make a sick movie opener.

 

[until death]

My reborn doll

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

My shotgun, or my SN, other suicide supplies are the only things that give me comfort.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'd likely take SN at home on my bed. I'd lay down thick plastic first but I want to have a pillow and duvet- like I'm going to sleep. I think hot water bottles would be nice too. I've bought a small can of oxygen with nasal cannula in the hopes that it might help with the breathlessness- although reports from people who have survived suggests it doesn't much. I also want to look at photographs of my family as I go- who will all be dead themselves by that point. One last goodbye really.

 

[Salmon can't swim]

A lot of things, but specifically, there's a cute reindeer plushie my dad gave me a few years ago. Maybe it's childish, but I'd really like to be holding on to it in my final moments. That, and my headphones. Not sure how I'll work around it since I'm jumping, but I'll figure out a way

 

[starrchaoz]

My weighted blanket and some of my favorite music playing would be nice to have with me when I CTB.

 

[tarococo]

Yes c: Definitely my headphones, and I don't care if people think that's childish; I have a specific stuffed animal I've had since I was a baby. It's a plush dog, it has flattened over all these years because I still rest my head on it every night. I've held and hugged it countless times, I actually do so while typing this, cried in it, brought it everywhere, for the last 22 years. It only feels right to hold onto it while falling asleep for the last time.

 

[Alltheywanted]

My favorite book and a stuffed animal that has been with me since kindergarten.

 

[Boardwalk]

My notebook I used to carry with me everywhere, the urn from my cat and my dogs old collar.

 

[LunarLynx]

I would love to have my dog by my side, she's everything I have left... but I can't, so I'll just have My headphones and wait with some music..

 

[bluegodism]

i didn't think about that until now reading this post. i then decided to hug a plush rabbit that my late grandfather gave me.

 

[thinvy]

My favorite childhood stuffed animal. it's all I have left of my dad. I want my phone, and my headphones for music. I'll probably bring a comfy set of clothes, and a soft blanket to wrap myself in, if I don't choose to go in the tub.

 

[SeaBreeze]

Something to write on and with

 

[theragehurts]

I'd die on side of my favorites games in physical media

 

[oneeyed]

Maybe my (now deceased) dogs favorite plushie toy. I miss her so much.

 

[Slow_Farewell]

Interesting question. In my mind i'd only have the things necessary for the job and nothing else. Hmm...
Laptop's gonna go with me because i need to clean send emails and stuff, and maybe scroll the site one last time.
I just realized i don't have anything I'd like to take just because of it's sentimental value.
Probably listen to a couple of songs while I wait but that's about it.

 

[almaPerdida]

My weed and bongo.

Yeah i am gonna smoke my last weed before CTB too. It has helped me stay alive for so long, i will need to smoke one last before going. And i read it helps with SN so it's even better.

A lot of things, but specifically, there's a cute reindeer plushie my dad gave me a few years ago. Maybe it's childish, but I'd really like to be holding on to it in my final moments. That, and my headphones. Not sure how I'll work around it since I'm jumping, but I'll figure out a way

Yes c: Definitely my headphones, and I don't care if people think that's childish; I have a specific stuffed animal I've had since I was a baby. It's a plush dog, it has flattened over all these years because I still rest my head on it every night. I've held and hugged it countless times, I actually do so while typing this, cried in it, brought it everywhere, for the last 22 years. It only feels right to hold onto it while falling asleep for the last time.

My favorite book and a stuffed animal that has been with me since kindergarten.

i didn't think about that until now reading this post. i then decided to hug a plush rabbit that my late grandfather gave me.

My favorite childhood stuffed animal. it's all I have left of my dad. I want my phone, and my headphones for music. I'll probably bring a comfy set of clothes, and a soft blanket to wrap myself in, if I don't choose to go in the tub.

Maybe my (now deceased) dogs favorite plushie toy. I miss her so much.

I love the idea of bringing a plushie. I don't think it's childish, i think it's nostalgic. It's comfy because brings memories of better times and good feelings. It brings safety, it's a very good idea honestly.

My weighted blanket and some of my favorite music playing would be nice to have with me when I CTB.

I'm def bringing my blanket too. It makes me feel safe and it will help make me feel calm. And music too, i have made a playlist solely for CTB.

I would love to have my dog by my side, she's everything I have left... but I can't, so I'll just have My headphones and wait with some music..

Same, i'd do everything to have my dog with me. I've cried hugging her so many thoughts and she made me reconsider CTB so many times. I feel bad leaving her behind and i wish i could hug her as i pass. But i prefer leaving her at home to avoid anything happening to her.

I'd die on side of my favorites games in physical media

That seems good, videogames are the perfect escapism from reality and have helped me through so much. Collecting physical media is amazing too, i love collections.

Interesting question. In my mind i'd only have the things necessary for the job and nothing else. Hmm...
Laptop's gonna go with me because i need to clean send emails and stuff, and maybe scroll the site one last time.
I just realized i don't have anything I'd like to take just because of it's sentimental value.
Probably listen to a couple of songs while I wait but that's about it.

Same, scrolling here and some music. I think listening to something is probably the best way to calm and relax a little. And maybe even revive some memories too.

 

[Necrosis]

My letters from my blood brother, and other friends. I would like to read them one last time and smile. They've sent me so many over the years, so many post cards, so many beautiful pieces of art, as well as just doodles everywhere. I want to wear all my friendship bracelets and necklaces. I plan on backpacking for a long time before the actual day takes me away, I'd like to pack the remains of my dog and his collar/leash. One last walk with my good boy. Also my cat if he has passed by then. I would bring the books gifted to me, and read the annotations my friends had left as gifts. I would bring printed photos of loved ones. I would be leaving without my phone, or it would die after my journey. I want to look back at so much before I go. I will be wearing my favorite collar, with a tag that was engraved for me. It has a number on the back to call if lost, like a dog. They will be the first person to know when my body is found. I will have a lot more on me when I start, some things I may leave behind on my journey. But the previously mentioned items are the most important to me.

 

[Glandular]

A plush rabbit - it has been by my side for a long time and it will be there when I leave this world

 

[omgisthatashley]

if it ever lets me go, i want my stuffed dolphin Dalia to be there. shes been the only one there for me through it all, and shes the only one i have to say goodbye to.