Discussion Do you feel like a burden?

[Lara Francis]

Depresson is so misunderstood by those who are fortunate to have not suffered.
It is not unusual and becoming normality that i want to do less as each and everyday passes and motivation is on a downward spiral and non exsistant.

I have some lovely friends who i do believe understand my stress and anxiety but their lives are fulfilling and enjoyment and happiness is part of their daily lives.
After 3 years of depresson,I am so tired and my friend said "I cant understand why you feel so low !"
I am acustomed to this black cloud that follows me around and has become part of me.I hate it but its just what it is.
I feel less social each day and have got used to my own company and feel that i bring others down (even though i try hard not to.)
Does anyone else feel a burden and if so,does it bother you?
I am fed up with feeling like shit all the time,wanting to go back to sleep as soon as i have woken up just so i can have some peace.
When those around you start to think its time you should feel better but u feel so far from recovery and question if its ever possible - does that mean its time !

 

[Boobles]

Yes, I constantly feel like a burden, and I am right there with you on the sleep issue. If I am not working, I can easily sleep in until 7 or 8pm

 

[Phoenix1990]

Not so much of a burden on family, but on friends and services.
Strangely enough I don't speech openly with friends about how I'm struggling mentally. I actually don't share anything personal and of importance, with them. They know on some level. Mental health services- I feel that I am definitely a burden on them. They have tired their hardest to get me well. The old me would have pretended that I am doing much better, but I know longer have it in me to pretend. It's game over soon anyway so fuck it!

 

[Dawn0071111]

Yes, I constantly feel like a burden, and I am right there with you on the sleep issue. If I am not working, I can easily sleep in until 7 or 8pm

I just wanted to give a shout out to So Cali... Yup... even tho they insist I'm not. . Im convinced that once the grief of my death passes, it will be better for the remaining few

 

[Lara Francis]

Not so much of a burden on family, but on friends and services.
Strangely enough I don't speech openly with friends about how I'm struggling mentally. I actually don't share anything personal and of importance, with them. They know on some level. Mental health services- I feel that I am definitely a burden on them. They have tired their hardest to get me well. The old me would have pretended that I am doing much better, but I know longer have it in me to pretend. It's game over soon anyway so fuck it!

It's so tiring pretending and I just don't want to do it anymore. I have no strength left. Hugs to you x

 

[Phoenix1990]

It's so tiring pretending and I just don't want to do it anymore. I have no strength left. Hugs to you x

It truly is exhausting. I don't want to do it anymore either. How do you manage? X

 

[Lara Francis]

It truly is exhausting. I don't want to do it anymore either. How do you manage? X

I try to remember that I am fighting to live for my son whom I am separated from as he is in care and I desperately want to be returned. He lost his dad to a stroke 3 years ago and I am all he has. He says I am his life but I find it so painful and hard being away from him and not knowing when the judge will decide to send him home where he belongs. X

 

[_Liveslowdiefast_]

Rationally and emotionally I am, there is no way around that

 

[Phoenix1990]

I try to remember that I am fighting to live for my son whom I am separated from as he is in care and I desperately want to be returned. He lost his dad to a stroke 3 years ago and I am all he has. He says I am his life but I find it so painful and hard being away from him and not knowing when the judge will decide to send him home where he belongs. X

I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through so much. I hope you get lil man back soon.
My chest aches just imagining how you must be feeling. x

 

[clownangel]

I honestly become super closes off to my (few) friends fairly often & go under my rock because I don't want to burden them any more than I assume I already do. I've always felt like I burden my family though - mental health aside the whole disability bit makes me feel awful cuz it's like my parents never got a break once I "grew up".

 

[Morphinekiss]

I more so feel like a burden because of my deteriorating physical health. I can't drive, walking long distances is getting harder on my back, certain lights trigger migraines. Never knowing if I'll have a seizure. And then all the anxiety about worrying about all of those situations just keeps me from even trying. I very recently lost my last friend due to all of this. I see my mother aging from stress about all of my shit and I feel gutted.

 

[rossi]

I can totally relate to this,i've felt like a burden most of my life,to my parents & family,girlfriends,friends,even work friends....I always felt like I was holding back someone from being all they could be because they were stuck with me.Even when my therapist tries the guilt trip on me with "how do you think they'll feel if you killed yourself?" I know for sure its bullshit she's just being paid to say....when i'm gone I know it'll be a relief to the few who even notice.

 

[Rachel74]

Services have given up on me but I feel like a burden to my partner x

 

[a_strange_day]

I've felt like a burden to others my whole life but I did my best to minimize the impacts of my mental problems on family and the people around me. Then some years ago I started being totally unable to pretend any longer, unable to even try to smile, so I slowly pushed people away one by one, family, friends, coworkers etc...until there is no one left.

So now I'm a burden only to myself.

 

[Boochky]

My mom makes sure I know I'm a burden.

 

[mynameispaige]

I've always felt like a burden and it's the main reason for why I want to end my life. I feel like the worlds better off without me.

 

[Painpleasure]

No child should have to feel like a burden under any circumstances whatsoever.

Parents foolishly complain about the enormous effort they put into raising their children without realising that such effort would not be needing if the children were NOT CONCEIVED to begin with.

It is a crime and sin of the greatest magnitude to involuntary bring life into this hellish planet and complain about the maintenance of such child.
If you ever feel like a burden to your providers, ask yourself the question of whether you brought yourself into this plant by your own accord?

 

[woxihuanni]

Not at all, I don't feel a burden. I'd be sad if anybody ctb because they feel that way. We deserve to have control over our own life and death, but we cannot have true control if the bullying voices in our heads make us feel worthless and a burden.

 

[SlackJim]

it's like a catch 22 burden: bringing people down with me while I'm alive - that feels like a burden, but if I CTB I'll only make people worse, but will they get over it? I don't know whats better

 

[Final Escape]

Yes feel like a burden on others and myself. I wish there was an option to drop out of society but still lead a decent quality of life lol! I mean where u don't have to use their money system, you aren't expected to spend a fortune just to have a roof over your head with enough privacy so u aren't forced to live with tons of roommates because ure too poor to afford a single occupancy place. But I also don't want to live in undesirable areas because I'm poor lol!

 

[StillWaiting]

Cant help to but feel like a burden to others everywhere I go.
There's nothing much I can offer others. It is demoralising

 

[http-410]

Yes, I feel like a parasite, especially towards society and relatives, because I'm a parasite.

Even if they would say something else, I know for sure that they are not telling the truth.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

All the time. Doesn't matter what I'm doing, who I'm around.

 

[RottenDeer]

Sometimes. I feel like a burden for my mother but that feeling decreased over the years.

 

[Lupgevif]

Yes, I feel like a burden, but only to those who willingly put me in this world, so it doesn't bother me.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Honestly, even when I'm enjoying life I sometimes start to resent that fact that I'm enjoying it in the first place, like I don't deserve to feel happiness because somehow I'm always draining from happiness somewhere else in the world as a result. It can be hard to get over this...

 

[Mr2005]

I destroy peoples lives just by existing

 

[Lilacmoon]

Burden is my middle name, tehe xd.

 

[Rue89]

Yes I'm definitely a burden. I'm 24 and still live at home, and it doesn't look like I'll be living on my own anytime soon. I also don't work, so besides my SSI I'm not contributing to the family. My anxiety is the reason for all this and the many other things I can't do or have trouble doing so my mom has to help me.

 

[Phill]

Yes I'm definitely a burden. I'm 24 and still live at home, and it doesn't look like I'll be living on my own anytime soon. I also don't work, so besides my SSI I'm not contributing to the family. My anxiety is the reason for all this and the many other things I can't do or have trouble doing so my mom has to help me.

I understand you. I'm 30 and I also live with my parents. Can't really imagine myself living on my own. I now have a job, but I don't know how long i'll be working on it. The anxiety makes me wanna quit almost everyday.