Painless_end
Life is too difficult for me
- Oct 11, 2019
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I feel very helpless and frustrated all the time. In strictly objective terms, I should have been long gone.
But I'm still alive because I have both my parents still alive and barring the occasional heated argument, they still provide me a place to live and two cooked meals a day.
Left on my own, I would probably be long gone. My mind is just not capable enough to handle life and all its complexities. It has literally been proven in a very scientific and accurate career aptitude test I have taken that showed I was not suited for any career whatsover.
I have enough wits left to keep myself alive by consuming food and staying out of unhandleable responsibilities but that is it. I am not able to pull any motivation out of my brain at all.
No I am not depressed, I am just this way since I was a kid. The touch of "real world" bullshit on my mind daily renders me almost catatonic. The strange part is that you would never guess I was like this by looking at me. I look like a very normal person on the outside.
Continued attempts by people around me to force me to engage in "productive" behavior triggers my fight/flight response.
I am just helpless that I can't kill myself. It's just too much.
But I'm still alive because I have both my parents still alive and barring the occasional heated argument, they still provide me a place to live and two cooked meals a day.
Left on my own, I would probably be long gone. My mind is just not capable enough to handle life and all its complexities. It has literally been proven in a very scientific and accurate career aptitude test I have taken that showed I was not suited for any career whatsover.
I have enough wits left to keep myself alive by consuming food and staying out of unhandleable responsibilities but that is it. I am not able to pull any motivation out of my brain at all.
No I am not depressed, I am just this way since I was a kid. The touch of "real world" bullshit on my mind daily renders me almost catatonic. The strange part is that you would never guess I was like this by looking at me. I look like a very normal person on the outside.
Continued attempts by people around me to force me to engage in "productive" behavior triggers my fight/flight response.
I am just helpless that I can't kill myself. It's just too much.
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