Venting Do you feel broken on a fundamental level?

[The Disqualified]

I feel I am broken on a fundamental level. My mind is my worst enemy. Why can't I just be happy, just go and put on a smile, drop a cheeky joke, try my hardest to fit in, work hard, gain a future. Why can't I just do that? Why can't my mind stop falling into this deep loop of anxiety and uneasiness. Why?
I feel broken on a fundamental level, beyond repair.

 

[scary]

Yeah I do. I feel like my existence is just broken and an example of natural selection. The constant pit of anxiety I feel deep in my core alongside everything else thats wrong with me makes me feel physically ill, like my stomach is constantly dropping. My mind is a prison and not even of my own making.

 

[Leyna]

Natural selection is a good way to put it. I don't feel fundamentally I was meant to be alive and procreate.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Yeah, I struck out. I would have to conduct myself very differently starting a very long time ago to turn out well.

 

[thelostautistic]

This is exactly how I feel. I'm broken beyond repair. I was never gonna make it in this world

 

[dreaming]

yes, I don't even fully understand entirely what's wrong with myself, only partially.

 

[Give Up The Ghost]

Natural selection is a good way to put it. I don't feel fundamentally I was meant to be alive and procreate.

I get this. I often feel like if I was born at another time in history or another place without modern conveniences, I would've easily died young. The modern world is good at keeping us alive for no reason, unnaturally selecting us