Do you feel angry all the time? Are you rejected by others because of this? Did you reject everyone?

[disabledlife]

Hello everybody,

I would just like to be reassured if, in this forum, I am not the only one to be like that, angry, unappeasable anger, rejected or having rejected others.

I allow myself to create this thread because I am almost always angry when I see all the injustices of society, this world going into a spin, the misfortunes, the discriminations, violence, wickedness, etc, etc, ... that I I feel powerless to be able to change things, that I have all the head to realize this? There is also what I have suffered in my life without justice being served, and my life being destroyed.

Are you autistic, spray, or have other problems? Health? Shattered life?...

Do you feel the same as me, recurring anger, permanent anger? Are you rejected by others because you are always angry? And/Or, on the contrary, did you reject others to, for example, avoid aggravating your anger? Sometimes I feel better being alone than in bad company or just seeing others and all these injustices.

I have very few friends, because a lot of people rejected me (I talked about what I went through with my gifted association, elsewhere in SaSu), I rejected everyone, except some people. The few friends I have kept or found are like me and have isolated themselves from society.

 

[unnormal9]

No, no and No.

 

[pharmacoepia]

I'm not so angry, as I am just sad and in acceptance at the same time. I accept that there will be piece of shit people all the time.

Most people that I find are angry with the "world" are really just angry at people and how they have treated. Your not angry at the world itself, you are angry at the people you have met. Once you realize that not all humans are totally trashy, you will learn that the people in your life are just not accustomed to you. They may feel a sense of having to not hang out with the 'loner' to preserve their reputational. They might also be off-put by your anger or sadness that you may have displayed before you made this post.

Whatever the cause is, we are here for you.

 

[disabledlife]

Since what happened to me with the gifted association, I've rejected everyone but a few people and this forum.

I prefer, finally I try, to no longer express my anger in the outside world, except in places like this forum, and not always because it's already been said, to avoid repetition.

From now on, I try to be closed, not to speak, to observe people from afar, without saying anything, especially when I have to go out, to do administrative procedures, health, travel, shopping, like buying food . If I let off steam outside, it will be far from people. I no longer like the human, except for a few people and certain benevolent communities, often outside society.

I prefer to meet animals, because animals have never betrayed me, especially dogs, always listening, like you, the community of this forum, a fortress of kindness, even if, of course, not everything isn't perfect either, but it's a little paradise.

I built myself a bunker around me, just with a door and a few windows to see the world, like a country with its open borders, which isolated itself and closed everything, so as not to suffer the world any longer.

Only airlocks still allow me to communicate with others, certain people, and then I isolate myself. My few friends are like me, in their own bunkers, going out from time to time, getting some fresh air, stretching their muscles, then coming back to shut themselves up afterwards, in a double turn.

 

[TAW122]

I would say that I feel similarly and I think @pharmacoepia made a good point:

Most people that I find are angry with the "world" are really just angry at people and how they have treated. Your not angry at the world itself, you are angry at the people you have met. Once you realize that not all humans are totally trashy, you will learn that the people in your life are just not accustomed to you. They may feel a sense of having to not hang out with the 'loner' to preserve their reputational. They might also be off-put by your anger or sadness that you may have displayed before you made this post.

With that said, I do try to redirect my anger and channel it into more productive areas such as planning my eventual CTB, or finding some smaller pleasures until my time has come.

 

[disabledlife]

I would say that I feel similarly and I think @pharmacoepia made a good point:


With that said, I do try to redirect my anger and channel it into more productive areas such as planning my eventual CTB, or finding some smaller pleasures until my time has come.

It's a good idea, indeed, I'm in the process of moving things from my house, to put things away, with a view to planning a CTB, or even a VAD in Switzerland.

Once tidied up, my belongings moved in safety, I will maybe disappear, and see how to ensure that the few times of life that remain to me, before my chosen death, are as happy as possible.

This possible disappearance would be a first deliverance, far from my life that I am living and no longer seeing the same faces, no longer seeing the people I knew, my enemies, and telling me how they will react. This first deliverance could appease the CTB or VAD that will follow. I would have liked to go around the world before the CTB or the VAD.

But I created this thread to find out if other people were like me, angry, and how they feel about it, rejections, etc.

 

[ringo99]

I was angry about a lot of things but I'm somewhat numb now. The overriding feeling is despair if I'm being honest. Stopped giving a shit about the world outside my little bubble. Wouldn't care even if a nuclear war started. Honestly hope I die in the explosion instead of succumbing slowly to radiation poisoning.

 

[zeldalover]

No. You are not the only one. Most of the last few months for me have me engulfed almost in constant anger, especially when seeing how horrible the world is. Now I am just sad and hopeless about it. It's rough, and weird, and back and forth.

 

[Aisley]

I'm angry, like all the time. Like a fish in water, me in my anger. I love it, wrap myself in it, and literally bark at people sometimes. I'm very picky with people, like they have to put years in to make it through. They have to be some fucking special, man. And because of years doing that, I have a tiny group of the most amazing, intelligent and insightful people in my life. Lol, I really shouldn't be so angry, that's how awesome my people are.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Most of the time, I have this cynical bitterness in the background. I actually hate being angry most of all because I don't know what to do with it. But yeah- I find that it's people that aggravate it.

 

[dumblosergirl]

I'm angry all the time too. Any sign of failure or rejection I have an episode of intense anger followed by an intense episode of depression and finally finished off by an episode of emptiness. No one ever really validates it compared to if you were sad and I feel embarrassed tbh. I have at least one of these cycles every couple of days. It's agonizing. I hate myself.

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

Everyday I deal with the anger I feel from how I felt I was treated. Always being yelled at, mocked, made fun of, no matter how hard I argue no matter how much I stand up for myself it always happens. And it's completely justified. So I sit with my anger knowing there is nothing I can do about it.

 

[sserafim]

Yeah I'm angry at the fact that I have to exist and fight to survive in this world. Even survival is a struggle, it's not easy to live. I don't know why existence is so unnecessarily hard. What I'm the most mad about is the fact that I didn't even ask to be here. I'm just here and I don't even know why