Do you ever miss a user who has passed away?

[Lov3]

Did you talk a lot, were you close? I'm asking this because, even though we're online and everything is reduced to letters and images, there's always a real person on the other side of the screen — someone we get to know through the internet or even in real life. I've known someone like that before — a little ache in the heart.
How are you all dealing with this? Feel free to share, I always read. Life is a paradox sometimes, but I truly hope that those who have passed away are completely at peace… I really do.

 

[CatLvr]

There is no one who has gone on that I was that close to. However, there are a few members here now that it would devastate me if they left this world.

They know who they are. I don't have many people IRL who care about me -- maybe two?? Three at the absolute most. So the people here are even more special to me. They make me want to be a better person -- because they are ALL infinitely better people than I am.

 

[darksouls]

in real life I have no one who cares about me,
my followers who were closest to me have said goodbye to me,
but I never found out if they were successful,
I often think about them,
I hope they are in a better place now

 

[Harrier]

They make me want to be a better person -- because they are ALL infinitely better people than I am.

We all feel that way, otherwise we wouldn't be part of this community.

Don't beat yourself up too much - for some, you may the model person they need to just hang on.

 

[CatLvr]

We all feel that way, otherwise we wouldn't be part of this community.

Don't beat yourself up too much - for some, you may the model person they need to just hang on.

Well, I unfortunately stand corrected. We lost a member recently that I had interacted with fairly often and she always struck me as a kind, gentle soul. She was also very young. It guts me when someone with so much promise can't see that they are worthy of one more day. She is definitely someone the world is a lesser place without.

 

[Lov3]

in real life I have no one who cares about me,
my followers who were closest to me have said goodbye to me,
but I never found out if they were successful,
I often think about them,
I hope they are in a better place now

Don't feel that way.
Who is more real — the neighbor who lives at the end of the hallway and whose name I don't even know, or the people here with whom we've shared things we'd probably never say to each other in real life? To me, many of you are just as real as the keyboard I'm typing on… I think I sounded a bit confusing, sorry.
But I find myself thinking, in my day-to-day life, about some of the people I've met here.

 

[purebliss]

I love every single one here.

We all have suffered through our life and all come together here for the same purpose, for the same goal.

A very intimate one at that.

Things you can't even tell your friends, you can be absolutely open with here.

But still I told myself that having deeper connections here makes no sense.

I do have a deep connection with my CTB Partner that I found here, but ultimately we will exit together so there will be no lasting sadness :>

 

[thelostautistic]

I try not to get attached to people on here because I don't think that's wise. But there is a member that passed recently who I miss. I didn't know them but I always liked seeing their posts on the forum. Hopefully they're at peace now

 

[charlavail]

every time someone on here is confirmed to have ctb or there is a goodbye thread and by last online one can assume they've ctb i always feel sad. life is just suffering, and they are most likely more at peace but still i get sad.