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disabledlife

disabledlife

Arcanist
Jun 5, 2020
436
I am frightened to have been born and to have noticed, over the course of my childhood until adulthood and, by dint of learning more and more about this world, of the functioning of each country, of the history of humanity, of wars, of laws in the world, of prisons, of seeing human stupidity, capitalism, every man for himself, materialism, the destruction of the environment...

I don't understand why we persist in preventing anyone, who rejects his birth, no longer wants to belong to humanity, from CTB, to reject him, to call him a coward...

I can't stand seeing the media, the news, the scientists... to say that the world is getting worse, that life is becoming more and more difficult for young people today (the last generations who are suffering from global warming climate change, overpopulation, lack of resources, general impoverishment...), economic crises, the enslavement of the world by some multinationals, helped by countries which help them to conquer the world through the privatization of resources, seeing some rich people get richer and richer... I'm not going to state everything here because there's so much to say about this world that is getting worse and worse.

Euthanasia and assisted suicide should be legalized everywhere in the world, because it is up to humanity to apologize to people who did not ask to be born and who were never satisfied with their life or simply to belong to this individualistic, selfish, materialistic humanity, which thinks only of pure and hard profit, destroys the whole planet, of which each one thinks only of wanting to be superior to the others...

Every night, I sleep very badly, I have nightmares, I think back to all this human stupidity, to everything that is going wrong... despite the music to relax me, the entertainment...

Every day, I go out, walk around, try to relax, and yet I keep thinking that I don't belong to this world, which imprisons me in this life, I'm tired all the time.

I am handicapped, since my birth, having lived a terrible childhood, one stole my life to me, prevented from being able to study, to have a correct social statute.

Due to abuse, I am marginalized with a disability allowance, just enough to house me in social housing, with dangerous neighbors, and feed me (with poor quality food), and sometimes treat me if it does not. It doesn't cost me too much, but I can't live properly, go on vacation,... I'm condemned to live like this, all my life, and to see this world which is getting worse and worse, without being able to do anything , nor CTB without suffering and risking missing my CTB and ending up in a psychiatric hospital for attempted suicide!

This is what it's like to live in a country that refuses the legalization of euthanasia, to believe that the politicians love to see people suffer, there are the religious lobbies which are retrograde, live in the past, and the lobbies of the industries, in particular pharmaceuticals, which need sick people, disabled people, depressed people, people with psychiatric illnesses, in order to be able to sell, for life, medicines, medical equipment,... in order to make unlimited profit on the backs of these people, who asked nothing to live like this and suffer.

Humanity disgusts me. Every day is the same in my life, and my health is deteriorating more and more, it is evolutionary, without prospect of CTB if I am not rich to get N or to go to countries like Switzerland which have legalized this ultimate freedom.

Switzerland has the disadvantage of asking people who want to die to have another person accompany them, which is stupid! If no relative wants to accompany the person who can die in Switzerland, is the person condemned to live?

Humanity never wants to take responsibility for aiding suicide or euthanasia because it would be for society to recognize that society, through its intolerance, has pushed these people to want to die. So this society prevents anyone from CTB, punishes them, forcibly interns them in psychiatric hospitals. Disabled people are left out, rejected by everyone, out of cowardice, without realizing that society was responsible for their unjust birth.

Life is a prison, no matter what the world says! This forum is an escape to allow escapes from this prison, escapes that would not exist if humanity would not be cowardly to assume to help people who ask to die, to be reimbursed for their life, his birth not asked!
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,398
I do wish that we lived in a world where our right to die is respected, it is cruel to expect people to suffer for decades against their wishes. In a world with so much suffering suicide should not be so stigmatised. It is such an cruel, unfair life, and I agree that life is a prison. Life does scare me a lot as there is no limit as to how bad things can get. More than anything I wish that I was never born in the first place.
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,591
the only thing to be scared of is reincarnation, if you die and thats the end for all time then so be it, otherwise you'll have to go through all the human suffering again for no good resaon other than the universe can keep doing that to someone death and rebirth pointless meaningless shit.
 
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Judy Garland

Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
826
Today I had to go to Social Services and was quite shocked that I had to remove everything from my pockets and had a guy wave me down with a metal detector wand. This was new, they never used to do this at SS. I was also surrounded by people who were freaking me out by the way they were acting. One woman yelling at her daughter, this one creep asking if anyone wanted to sell their food stamps (which is illegal), they just freaked me out. I didn't feel good and couldn't wait to just go back to my apartment and close the world out. All of this just added to my feelings of not wanting to be part of this world anymore. I'm done. I don't have long left.
 
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leavingsoon99

I'm at peace... Finally.
Mar 16, 2023
721
Life frightens me more than death ever has or will. Earth is hell, and humans are its imps. I really hate the aspect that I had no say in coming to life. Yet, I'm supposed to really treat this like some 'gift' or 'blessing'. This is why human ideology and philosophy mean absolutely nothing to me. Life seems like an evil game that can't be won unless you don't play it. I guess that's why self-termination is seen as a taboo.
 
ShotgunShell

ShotgunShell

go kitty go kitty
Mar 20, 2023
45
All the time- I'm glad I'm not the only one that feels like that. It's strange thinking about how we all exist based on the chance of pure luck, and now we must fight to survive in a world we all never even wanted to be in. I get told all the time that being alive is such a "blessing" and that it's a miracle that we're all here in the first place- but is it really?

Life would be so much better if I just wasn't human.
 

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