Do you ever feel like you will need to die to protect others?

[Deleted member 4418]

I feel myself getting angrier and more upset everyday. I bring bad energy wherever I go. I was once a keeper of the light, and now I want to set fire to everything.

Do you ever feel like your death would be of great benefit, at this point? LIke I am definitely not feeling better. I feel worse every day. And my pain is turning into anger.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

In some sense, yes. But in another sense, I'd be depriving people of the chance to see the continued decline of a freak of nature.

Who am I kidding? I'm just a selfish bastard who thinks I'm better than a hell of a lot of people and want to show it off a little longer.

 

[Deleted member 4418]

In some sense, yes. But in another sense, I'd be depriving people of the chance to see the continued decline of a freak of nature.

Who am I kidding? I'm just a selfish bastard who thinks I'm better than a hell of a lot of people and want to show it off a little longer.

Feels.

 

[Livinginhell]

Yes, in a way. If I'm dead I can't upset or hurt anyone anymore. I want to protect the people I care for from me.

 

[Nitromask]

I'm the opposite - I feel like my suicide will only harm others

 

[Deleted member 4418]

Yes, in a way. If I'm dead I can't upset or hurt anyone anymore. I want to protect the people I care for from me.

This is exactly how I feel. My existence has become burdensome to family and friends alike. I'm also genuinely afraid of how bad it's going to get going into the future.

I'm the opposite - I feel like my suicide will only harm others

That's a reasonable stance.

 

[Quinlor]

I feel the same... even knowing that I hurt people around me emotionally because of my depression problems, for me this isn't excuse.
Beside that, all the people that I cared about in my life stopped talking to me, and never want to see me...
so, I don't want hurt anyone anymore, because is a great pain for me bear.

 

[Robbyna]

I know I bring the people around me down because they can't cheer me up and just watch as my life falls apart. I think they could romantcize and spiritualize my experience when I'm gone. When I'm no longer here and a burden I know everyone will be more than fine and can compartmentalize my death easily. I used to be a motivator and now I don't see the point in anything.

 

[dmoroden]

I'm the opposite - I feel like my suicide will only harm others

same here... its the only thing stopping me from ctb for now...

 

[wanttodie]

Feel Like i need to die to protect me

 

[Sixfeetunder]

I do often think about how my family will be better off after I ctb.

 

[Deleted member 4418]

Exactly...

 

[Freyja13]

Ehhh I feel like I do a fairly good job of "protecting" other people by isolating myself. I don't feel like removing myself from the equation would necessarily protect them but in the long run they at least wouldn't have to deal with my sorry ass anymore and could stop worrying about me lmao