Do you ever feel exhausted?

[leavingsoon99]

Not from work or anything. Just the thought of giving life one more chance. How the thought of trying one more time is just draining. The idea of starting over. Especially from the perspective I have of life now. Where I've seen too much truth to unsee it. The fakeness of relationships. Human politics. The whole way society is and where it's headed. Even on a personal level. Having to build social and professional networks all over again. And over the age of 40 at that. Has anyone else felt that it's just not worth it? No matter what, life is just not worth the trouble? Does anyone else struggle to psych themselves up for life again? Am I only one who feels that I don't have the energy to go out and try to establish relationships with people anymore?

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm always tired of existing, in my case I've never really wanted to exist. Overall, I just don't see a point to existing and I believe that no matter what it's preferable to not exist, I see no value in meaningless and pointless suffering all while risking experiencing worse torment at any moment. To me wanting to permanently not exist is all that feels rational, it's comforting to think of no longer being burdened with the ability to suffer.

 

[R_N]

I can relate. But I also think that feeling good is overrated when you realise how human body works.

Everything we do feels dumb to me sometimes. I can observe myself in any situation and feel like a dumb robot.

 

[Old Friend]

I suffer badly from fatigue. Got some sort of cold/flu-type thing when I was 17 and have been tired ever since. Severely compromised my school and working life, as well as social life.

Everything's a slog. Some people just think it's being lazy but I struggle to do things I enjoy. I've got video games from two birthdays ago I haven't gotten round to playing yet.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I used to try and be optimistic about the future, yet nowadays this is impossible.
I have tried far too many times in the past to give life another chance, yet every attempt to do so has ended in failure.
I don't think about any kind of future anymore because I'm too far gone now to ever want to try again.
I'm constantly exhausted these days and am repulsed by society and want nothing more to do with it.
It's not worth the effort anymore, it really isn't.

 

[ChantDuCygne]

Sometimes breathing feels physically difficult. I'm so tired of feeling lonely and ignored. I'm tired of lying to everyone around me, but when I stop, they inevitably hurt me in some way. I can't bring myself to do anything on my own. So I cling onto people and drag them down with me, leading to more guilt.

 

[voyager]

Thankfully, not anymore in this regard. Really don't think recovery is possible at this point, but even the things I could improve seem overwhelming and pointless, therefore don't even bother. Just hoping for the situation stays the same until it's time to move. A little more energy would be great, but alas, it's fine.

 

[Ernest1964]

My exhaustion feels like a numbing agent on everything I do. There are moments when I am doing work or eating breakfast or driving to see a movie and I think... WHY? Life seems meaningless most of the time. I think, I've done some good and have had a more positive than negative impact on the people's lives I've come in contact with. As a high school teacher I am sure that I have earned the admiration and respect of many, if not most, of my students and have added to their lives in a positive manner... but I'm so tired mentally, emotionally, and some times physically. I am 59 and have set an age of 65 when I feel like I will be ready to CTB, not sure that I'll make it that long though.

 

[Lost Magic]

Yes, I frequently feel exhausted and as mother time marches on, I feel even more tired of it all. Life is just one big distraction and then you die. At least that's the way I see it.

 

[sash]

Yes mentally emotionally and physically exhausted. Its time to go.
I only joined this site when I knew I was truly ready. Its funny cos I'd always thought about ctb, 2 failed impulses, but when I knew for sure it will happen, a lot of future stress has gone, a weight lifted in a way.
A little bit of peace.
Having walked away from everything I couldnt start again. Good grief no. All the hope and let downs. No thanks.