LifeSucks39

LifeSucks39

Student
Feb 14, 2020
182
Do you?
 
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W3akCr3atur3

W3akCr3atur3

Empty and hollow
Aug 3, 2020
357
Not really. I used as a child, but then I refused to go anywhere and just stayed home. My room is and always was the best place for me to relax.
 
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XYZ

XYZ

I just can’t get these damn wrists to bleed
Jul 22, 2020
800
Do you?
 
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Ready2GoNow

Member
Sep 10, 2020
74
Yes travelling is literally the only thing that brings me joy anymore. It was always my coping mechanism. Whenever life got too tough I'd get a last minute flight somewhere. Sadly I have no money now, and even if I did- corona.
 
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KleinerWolf

KleinerWolf

Account Wipe.
Apr 30, 2020
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I like travelling and doing things in general but not when I have something important on my mind. Things become dull and less enjoyable.

I would certainly be travelling a lot and spending time in exotic places though if I ever tackle my major life problems.
 
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dundyfundy

Member
Aug 4, 2019
34
No in a normal sense of it. I hate taking 1,2 or 4 weeks to travel somewhere or even couple months. Because I can't immerse, live and experience the local culture in such short time and I am not interested in the tourist attractions. Nor do I want to force myself to rush through the experience.

Not to mention the feeling of having to "get back to reality", going back to work. Just so you can save and go on holiday again. I earn very well, could go on abroad 1w holiday every 1-1.5 months (if I was given that much time off, more likely every 2months a week off). But even that's not enjoyable.

I would enjoy it if I didn't have to work. If I could just buy a one way ticket and explore the country as much as I wanted, or at least until visa expires - then go somewhere else and maybe come back. That's the only kind of vacation I can enjoy.
 
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Vault of Memories

Vault of Memories

A temporary being in a temporary world
Mar 24, 2020
255
If I'm being honest I've never been on a vacation before where I felt completely relaxed. Maybe in my real younger years, but no matter where I go I'm exhausted, anxious, and miserable.
 
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OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
I hate going on vacation. As much as it was my dream to live in Japan or South Korea, I find travel extremely depressing. All those people at airports make me feel awful, especially happy-looking couples. I've pretty much lost all hope of ever going anywhere. Last stop will most likely be a lonely tree down by the creek.
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,361
I used to love travelling and have lived abroad for a number of years also. But now I hate even leaving the house let alone going to another country. I last went abroad in December last year, it was only somewhere in Europe so it wasn't far, I thought it would be my last trip, still think it will be.
 
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almost_dead

almost_dead

Arcanist
Aug 7, 2020
465
Alone ? Yes .
With other people or to a crowded place ? Fuck no .
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
I enjoy about 60% of the vacation. About 40% of the rest I'm spent thinking about ctb
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,017
No, the activity is draining for me. I have so little energy all the time.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
1,622
It Really depends on where I'd be going and who with. Every day is different... Some where I don't want to do a Damn thing, and others where I'd love to go on a trip.
 
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SadJessu

SadJessu

Just tired.
Aug 17, 2020
168
Honestly? It's one of the few times I don't think about CTB as much as 'usual', but travel is one of the few things I still get really into. That being said a lot of factors have to be in play for me to feel peaceful, and if I'm with someone who stresses me then I think about how much of a waste of space I am because I'm usually the one doing the planning. I regret that I'll never be able to go everywhere I'd like to in this life.
 
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RandomDude1234

Member
Sep 19, 2018
59
I love travelling. It's one of the few things that still keep me sane.
 
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Deafsn0w

Deafsn0w

I will buy you a dog if you like my posts
Sep 4, 2018
2,488
I really want to travel outside the US again, but unfortunately, my family has financial problems :( The last time I went outside the US was over 13 years ago. I was six.
 
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nitroautnz

nitroautnz

Specialist
Sep 11, 2020
361
I did with some friends, and the person i was in a couple with. Even if i didn't constantly enjoy it or being happy I still appreciate most of it. Never done it alone.
 
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ItsOverIsntIt

ItsOverIsntIt

Experienced
Sep 9, 2020
234
I do enjoy traveling but only if Im not going with my family. They are so annoying and I hate traveling with multiple people it makes me feel like people are staring at us for being so slow
 
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voyager

voyager

Don't you dare go hollow...
Nov 25, 2019
965
Yeah, I do. Both my parents work for an airline so it was basically laid into the crib. One my first memories as a kid was watching 'Around the World in 80 Days' on beta and repeat, heh, and of course making my first travels. Remember flying a jumbo jet for a few seconds while my mum was doing the service on a flight to San Francisco, coconuts falling from palm trees in Tanzania, the lovely beach of Mauritius and my first girlfriend there aged around three, heh. Palm trees lining the ocean drives in Florida at night. The desert breeze in Cairo and hearing the city commotion from the hotel balcony.

I loved it. My entire personality revolves around ambience. The sounds, the smells, the feels. Every place had its own charm and identity, and I'd save it in memory and could still recall and feel it vivdily for decades. Sometime in the mid 2000s though I began going numb and my memory deteriorating. So it's not quite there anymore. At the end of August I met up with someone from the forum here. Hadn't been to the airport in fourteen years. Love this specific one, basically growing up there and connecting it with so many good memories, and it did feel good seeing it again. Corona though made it a little depressing. I couldn't smell the airport because of the silly mask. There were so few people around, likewise with masks. The counters were unattended due to lack of activity and the switch to electronic check-in. The departure board usually teeming with life and dreamy connections all over the world only had destinations within Europe, apart from a few special flights.

Nevertheless, it was nice and brought back some good memories. So much so that I've been travelling the past three weeks just for the sake of it. Have seen nice things but also been confronted with a lot of my limitations and reasons why I want to ctb. In a way it's like time stopped between then and now, the good is still there, but I'm not, just a different person with bad baggage.

But it was good and offered some reprieve, thus recommend it to those who love(d) travelling as well. Especially if you can make it post Corona and move without limitations again, but that's really a metaphor for our problems.
 
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Wisdom3_1-9

he/him/his
Jul 19, 2020
1,954
Traveling is one of my absolute favorite activities. Not being able to do anything this year because of COVID has been extremely disappointing. My family had to skip out on our biennial road trip. And my new job doesn't come with travel perks. In my old job, I got to go to 7 different countries for sightseeing and experiencing the arts!
 
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Cherrypea

Cherrypea

I remember when all this will be again
May 3, 2020
414
Hell no I hate it. Anxiety kicks in about a month before and I have to do my lists and start packing.
The week before I obsess about it and check my packing every day. I worry about all the things that could go wrong.
I feel so much pressure for everything to be perfect, I feel responsible for literally everything, if it rains its my fault, if someone gets bitten by angry ants it's my fault (this happened to my daughters last year and I blamed myself for letting them sit on a bench with shorts on) I constantly try to ensure everyone is happy and enjoying the holiday. I never relax. If the food isn't nice it's my fault for choosing the wrong place to eat.
I get home sick being away from my safe place and I get so excited to come home.
I wasn't upset our holiday was cancelled this year.
We've been to amazing places, Barbados last year and I know I'm stupidly ungrateful and shoud consider myself lucky but my stupid head fucks it up.
 
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