Do you care about how you'll leave this world behind?

[butterfly000]

For example, do you worry about what happens to your friends and family after you CTB? Do you care about what they will think about you? Do you care if they are upset with your death? Does part of you not want to CTB because you would miss the people you know? Do you find it wasteful to throw away anything you have achieved? Anything else?

Personally, I don't think I care about any such things. If I don't exist anymore I wouldn't have to face any consequences of my death and I wouldn't have the ability to miss anyone or to worry about anything anyway. Perhaps I care a little bit, but I try to not let it get to me.

 

[Unattainable666]

This is a fucked world I'm just glad I'm leaving not fast enough

 

[Dingusguy]

Personally the biggest reason I have not CTB is because I worry about my friends, family and pets. I don't want my family to grieve over me or cause them more trouble than I already have, likewise for my friends, but the urge to CTB kept growing so I decided to get some pets too, that way there are some things in this world that cannot live without me. Which I know it isn't the greatest reason to get pets, but it gave me another reason to stay. Because I don't know who would care for them otherwise.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I'd be relieved if I had a reliable way to cease existing on my own terms, I only see ceasing to exist as something positive as nobody can suffer from the absence of everything. I find it comforting how everything is forgotten about in death, I'd always prefer to not exist.

 

[MeaningDork]

For example, do you worry about what happens to your friends and family after you CTB? Do you care about what they will think about you? Do you care if they are upset with your death? Does part of you not want to CTB because you would miss the people you know? Do you find it wasteful to throw away anything you have achieved? Anything else?

Personally, I don't think I care about any such things. If I don't exist anymore I wouldn't have to face any consequences of my death and I wouldn't have the ability to miss anyone or to worry about anything anyway. Perhaps I care a little bit, but I try to not let it get to me.

I only care about my death being clean so I don't cause unnecessary trauma to others. I've seen how a gruesome suicide affects people who've witnessed it.

 

[Slow_Farewell]

Yes, but i've accepted that they're going to hurt no matter what. That's something out of my control. My take is that I can somehow affect the recovery process by not being present in their lives a lot. Less memories, less things to remember. So i've distanced myself entirely from them. I get a text message like once or twice a year, but that's about it. This has been going on for 15 plus years so I'm pretty confident I've done my part in the mitigation and helping with recovery.
Having said that, I've also factored in that with the increase in improvement of technology, they'll probably be bombarded with a lot of distractions anyway, so it's not something I worry about as much as before.

 

[Aim]

I would definitely wish it didn't effect anyone in a bad way, but the reality is that it will no mather how and what. Things that i would like it to not, but that is hard to control

 

[Princess_Kitty]

I do think about that often but, I know that eventually my family and whoever else misses me will eventually move on with their lives and forget about me. That's just how life is. This world is cruel and ugly, and I'll be happy when I'm no longer a part of it. Whatever happens to this world is up to society but, from the looks of things it's already going to hell.

 

[autistocracy]

Not at all.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Nope

 

[divinemistress36]

As selfish as it sounds I don't give a damn

 

[Neverfeltdeader]

What's left of my family is so fragile that they'll most likely all follow in my footsteps. I'm sure my friends will cry, but they'll get over it. I just worry about what will happen to our pets.

 

[Lost Magic]

Nope, the ones I really cared about have already passed on, it's just me now, biding my time for when it is my time go to.

 

[qifreys]

i'm worried about one of my younger siblings being the person to find my body which is why i won't ctb at home