Do you also got derealization?

[danzk2005]

Does anyone else have constant derealization? It feels like nothing is real to me

 

[_Maya]

Sometimes, yes.
A lot of the time, i feel like i'm not me, like my body isn't real, and i'm just some consciousness trapped in an unfamiliar body. Its mostly just a constant feel of unease in the back of my head, but sometimes i'll just suddenly "flip," and feel like i don't exist.
My mind/body is really weird, so i can't really explain how/why i feel this way.

 

[whiskeyblanket]

Yes, I am in a constant state of low level depersonalization and derealization, and sometimes experience such intense derealization that I don't know who I am, where I am, what year it is, etc. I don't have much advice for dealing with it or anything; just something I've gotten used to over the years.

Sorry to hear you're experiencing this, too.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I've had some pretty bad episodes. It feels like I'm in a dream but it's highly disturbing.

 

[Fall_Apart]

I had derealization and depersonalization for a few years and it was one of the worst experiences. The feeling of observing life as if I were watching a movie, even hearing my own voice as if it were a stranger. Or in the evening asking yourself "did I really do this thing or did I just dream it?". Only much later, I realized that it is an extreme defense mechanism, to detach yourself from existential pain.

 

[danzk2005]

Yes, I am in a constant state of low level depersonalization and derealization, and sometimes experience such intense derealization that I don't know who I am, where I am, what year it is, etc. I don't have much advice for dealing with it or anything; just something I've gotten used to over the years.

Sorry to hear you're experiencing this, too.

Do you have memory lapses? Damn

I had derealization and depersonalization for a few years and it was one of the worst experiences. The feeling of observing life as if I were watching a movie, even hearing my own voice as if it were a stranger. Or in the evening asking yourself "did I really do this thing or did I just dream it?". Only much later, I realized that it is an extreme defense mechanism, to detach yourself from existential pain.

It's horrible to have, I've been living with this for two years, sometimes everything seems like it's a dream or was a dream, but as you said it's a defense mechanism of our brain, but it sucks

Eu tive alguns episódios bem ruins. Parece que estou em um sonho, mas é altamente perturbador.

Sim, parece muito com um sonho, não é realmente assustador para mim, mas é estranho, mas na verdade me ajuda a lidar com a ansiedade social, porque parece que nada é real.

 

[BRAINWORMS]

When my OCD is at its worst (like it has been for me for the past... few weeks? month? not sure anymore) I get it bad. Like my body has too much anxiety to fully experience reality. Familiar places feel unfamiliar despite me logically knowing I'm somewhere I know well. It makes it almost impossible to be comfortable anywhere.

 

[danzk2005]

When my OCD is at its worst (like it has been for me for the past... few weeks? month? not sure anymore) I get it bad. Like my body has too much anxiety to fully experience reality. Familiar places feel unfamiliar despite me logically knowing I'm somewhere I know well. It makes it almost impossible to be comfortable anywhere.

Can you feel good at home at least?

 

[whiskeyblanket]

Do you have memory lapses? Damn

Some short memory lapses here and there, and then there are entire years where I don't feel attached to the few memories I have, if that makes sense. But like others have said, it's the brain's defense mechanism. It does serve a purpose, as much as it sucks and can make life difficult at times.

 

[divinemistress36]

Yes, its awful! Ptsd sucks . Cant even do basic tasks cause of it and have temper tantrums cause of it. Starting emdr therapy soon

 

[failedmind]

Yes, I have DPDR and PSTD. Nothing ever feels real

 

[LostLily]

feel like I"m not really here that I am living life on auto-pilot

 

[Namelesa]

Yea I have experienced derealization occasionally. It mostly has me feel like I am seeing myself and what I do from outside my body. This often makes me feel uncomfortable and anxious as I feel more like the space I am in is more open which makes me feel more vulnerable. I can also feel like objects, environments or myself and certain body parts are bigger or smaller than what they actually are making me feel even more uncomfortable and scared.

 

[Halfhourdays]

Yes, like everything is an unreal dream or that all reality is a computer simulation.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

What's the difference between derealization and dissociation?

 

[danzk2005]

Does anyone else have constant derealization? It feels like nothing is real to me

yes, right now, all the moments

What's the difference between derealization and dissociation?

derealization nothing seems real, everything seems like a dream, while in depersonalization you feel that you are not yourself, you feel as if your body is not yours and you can even dissociate and think that you are not in your body

 

[Halfhourdays]

And one can be derealization -ing and depersonalization -ing at the same time. They're not mutually exclusive.

 

[danzk2005]

And one can be derealization -ing and depersonalization -ing at the same time. They're not mutually exclusive.

yes, is crazy

 

[Saturn_]

Yeah. A lot of my emotions seem very far away and rarely does anything that happens in my life truly register in my mind as "serious" or "real." I feel hardwired to be calm and detached even when I probably shouldn't be. I'm kind of glad I have this as a coping mechanism, because I probably would be dead if I didn't have the ability to just "freeze" and feel hopefully numb. I don't heal from what people have done to me, and it always hurts, but at least it doesn't "feel important" or "real" half the time.

 

[galaxid]

Damn. I'm so glad I found this thread!!

My grandma passed and I was so upset. But even while I was crying it was like I wasn't really sad. I didn't feel sad, in my head. I thought I was putting on a performance for my mom, because I know she was really upset, and that's what people do when someone dies. They cry.
For years I thought it made me a bad person because, who actively cries over a death in the family and yet questions why it matters???

My identity feels like its trapped firmly in my mind, and everything else feels extraneous. Honestly, reading everyone's perspectives has helped me better understand myself.

A lot of the time, I love feeling like this. Most of the time its comforting but not empty, because even if I don't feel like I'm here, my body sure does. I get anxious and I can feel it, so I know I must be attached to the ground. Its just as if the person who 'thinks' is separate from the person who 'feels'. I'm not sure if that makes sense to you guys, though, since I'm really unfamiliar with thinking about it like this.

Does anyone else feel comforted by depersonalization / derealization. I'm out here having an existential awakening lol