Discussion Do you also fell Jealous about people Dying with Cancer??

[The Lonely]

It may seem bizarre… but with The years I have learned that people with Cancer get even Recovered or Die.. (And with more dignity)...

Meanwhile Its being 13 years of me declining…
I'm tired ….. :/
Anyone else?

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Yes, but I absolutely don't want to waste away and ultimately perish from cancer, especially with shitty healthcare. Cancer, stroke, heart attack all really shitty ways to decline/go. I've been smoking a long time and am at risk for any/all of those three. I know it's better to exit before this shit hits and I am unable physically to go.

 

[chocolatebar]

I don't feel jealous. It's a great physical suffering that extends for long periods of time. I want to cease my existence, not to experience the process of dying.

 

[The Lonely]

Yes, but I absolutely don't want to waste away and ultimately perish from cancer, especially with shitty healthcare. Cancer, stroke, heart attack all really shitty ways to decline/go. I've been smoking a long time and am at risk for any/all of those three. I know it's better to exit before this shit hits and I am unable physically to go.

ok… I was wondering about really dying fact/act… not the declining …
Maybe I didn't make it clear… it was about dying by a "respectable" disease instead of digging methods on internet by ourselves… sort of…

 

[motel rooms]

I'm only jealous of terminally ill people who live in countries where it's possible to apply for immediate euthanasia

 

[ClownMe]

I'm just jealous of all dead people to be honest, they're free and im still here dealing with this clown world.

 

[The Lonely]

I don't know…. At threads like this I feel that I am not at the same page…

 

[Jblack]

There is nothing to be jealous about a terminally ill person. The disease that is raging through their bodies was not their choice and neither is their death. They would love to be free from their suffering and living. They fight to hang on to life as long as they can.

For folks akin to us, we are suffering in a different way (also not our choice) and choosing death to exit that suffering. For anyone of us we can decide to end it all by looking for a quick and relatively painless death.

For the terminally ill show some care and compassion.

 

[lofticries]

Dying a slow painful death with doctors pumping drugs into me until i'm more ill isn't ideal for me. Reminds me too much of old age.

I only feel jealous of those who die in random quick freak accidents. Like one minute they're doing their norm shit and bam they're dead within a sec.

 

[t0rnbetween]

I feel for what cancer victims have to suffer through but just like you said, it seems there's more dignity to suffering with cancer than there is with suffering from certain other illnesses or conditions. I personally deal with quite a bit of discrimination because of something genetic I don't have much control of and I am limited in how much I can hide it. If I stick around any place long enough I become a target of a lot of peoples' scrutiny and discrimination. I don't like the idea that one person's blameless suffering is dignified while another's is met with a lack of empathy and public disgrace. So yeah I'm a bit jealous, but only of that one aspect of it. I would never want to be in that position unless either death or recovery was certain and swift.

 

[The Lonely]

I feel for what cancer victims have to suffer through but just like you said, it seems there's more dignity to suffering with cancer than there is with suffering from certain other illnesses or conditions. I personally deal with quite a bit of discrimination because of something genetic I don't have much control of and I am limited in how much I can hide it. If I stick around any place long enough I become a target of a lot of peoples' scrutiny and discrimination. I don't like the idea that one person's blameless suffering is dignified while another's is met with a lack of empathy and public disgrace. So yeah I'm a bit jealous, but only of that one aspect of it. I would never want to be in that position unless either death or recovery was certain and swift.

This!! You got it!
I need to rush things here… can't stand anymore

(Not sure if I will wait until the drug to Potentiate my N arrives From Singapore)…

Just a few arrangements and study and maybe I can CTB by October…

 

[chocolatebar]

This!! You got it!
I need to rush things here… can't stand anymore

(Not sure it I will wait from the drug to Potentiate my N… From Singapore)…

Just a few arrangements and study than maybe I can CTB by October…

Now I understand what you wanted to say. Indeed, even in death, the society will assign us different values and judge us and judge us accordingly...

 

[t0rnbetween]

This!! You got it!
I need to rush things here… can't stand anymore

(Not sure it I will wait from the drug to Potentiate my N… From Singapore)…

Just a few arrangements and study than maybe I can CTB by October…

Well I'm in a relatively stable place right now so I'm speaking from a place of hope, but I know what it's like on the other side of that. Get rest, eat well, take care of yourself as much as you're capable. In my experience, it softens the harsh reality a bit. I just hope you can have some peace in whatever you're going through right now.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

What are you getting to potentiate your n? I had to look up potentiate.

 

[Pen>Sword]

I'm jealous to people who wishes to get cancer and got it while living in a nation with universal healthcare, euthanasia and assisted suicide.

If one of those conditions aren't met, then no. Since I'm in Canada where universal healthcare exist and some forms suicide service is legal, then I wish to get cancer.

I know it's horrible. No words can fully express the nightmare. At least I'll die in a few years while I don't have to worry about hospital bills or prolonging the pain of terminal cancer.

 

[toforigivelife]

Yes.

 

[The Lonely]

What are you getting to potentiate your n? I had to look up potentiate.

Dilantin

 

[FuneralCry]

I do in a way, because even know it is awful to die from cancer, they will not have to ctb, they will not have to do it themselves. Even know they are in a lot of pain, that will only be for a certain amount of time and then they will be at peace. I think really I am jealous of those who have passed away, as they are gone from this world and no longer existing.

 

[Worndown]

Cancer is not a good way to die. It takes a long time and can give you great suffering. It does eliminate SI, but so does vodka.

 

[xrafinha]

A girl where I work died from cancer 3 years after discovering it. Countless hours in the hospital, countless treatments, it spread and she would scream in pain. It gave her and her family great suffering. I don't think anyone in their right mind would want that instead of say, N or SN for exemple.

Edit to add: Also they made her endure the pain to the very last minute, to the point she didn't even know who she was anymore

 

[All Things Must Pass]

*Envious

To answer your question, no.

 

[SelmaJezkova10]

I don't know how to say it, It's like if I only could change places with him/her

 

[Perpetually99]

Just knowing that if I CTB my family will be haunted for their whole lives. That on its own will not let me die in peace. If i die from cancer I can go out with dignity. I won't be seen as someone who gave up, or didn't put up a fight. People only see the end result, not what got you there. I've been fighting an illness for a decade plus. I want it to be terminal, but I can live like this for decades longer.

Sometimes I feel like if I win the lottery I would change place with a terminally ill cancer patient in an instant.