Venting Do you 100% wish to cease existing?

[FuneralCry]

I always have done, in my case eternal nothingness is all I wish for, it's all I see as desirable. I only wish for death as it's objectively better to cease existing, one cannot suffer from the absence of everything yet there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented as long as they exist.
And it only feels rational wanting death to escape from all future unnecessary suffering, once one dies all is forgotten about for them. It's such a terrible burden to be conscious and aware of this existence, all that existence does is create problems and pain there was never a need for, I don't understand why anyone would wish to be enslaved in this existence.
And I'd rather die on my own terms, it's just so cruel how existence doesn't come with an permanent offswitch with it being so difficult for us to cease existing when we want to.
To me it only makes sense wishing for nothingness, I don't see any value to having the ability to suffer, just waiting to decay and die anyway in this objectivley hellish and cruel existence, I only envy those who no longer exist.

 

[Anon1337]

No. I want to live a good, satisfying life but I can't. I would prefer to cease to exist than live the life I envision if I don't.

 

[dangero]

I would like to believe that there is life without suffering, which is even better than nothingness, cutting off suffering and leaving pleasure. It's naive, but it's pleasant to think so. Unfortunately, I can't believe in it because it's too detached from reality; we don't have any mission to fulfill here; it's all purposeless. Belief in eternal nothingness after death, though more grounded in reality, also seems naive to me. Matter will never disappear; new conscious organisms continue to arise and will keep arising. If I am never to exist after death, then why did I come into being? With eternal nothingness, I couldn't have come into existence, yet here I am.

 

[tinyghost]

if someone does not exist, they cant feel any pain, suffering, or anything bad. that seems optimal to me. it's practically the same as being always happy in a way, because youre never sad. i personally believe in reincarnation but i hope that the more logical conclusion of nothingness is the truth. either way i dont see death as such a tragedy. the suffering that we have to go through during our lives is so much worse.

 

[Abyssal]

No, I don't. There are times where I do, but not always. I just hate pain and life without pain doesn't exist

 

[R_N]

Yes and no. But I can't live this life on my own terms as a human. I feel enslaved by my body and want to escape but at the same time I would probably live longer if I could tweak my life like game settings.

But does it matter when I die. I don't think so. Nothing really matters unless we give it meaning. So when I die I die but I will prolly off myself one day when I don't feel like going anymore. Not sure when. I am not gonna force it like before until I am really ready for it.

 

[Odahviing475]

If I were 100%, I'd be gone already.

I want it to either be 100% or 0% but not there

 

[LeWantsToDie]

I envy a happy life. I see people who have friends, who are succeeding, who have love and all I want to do is be them. But no matter what I do, I can't have that. I don't desire death, it is simply the lesser of two evils.

 

[silentnights56]

I always have done, in my case eternal nothingness is all I wish for, it's all I see as desirable. I only wish for death as it's objectively better to cease existing, one cannot suffer from the absence of everything yet there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented as long as they exist.
And it only feels rational wanting death to escape from all future unnecessary suffering, once one dies all is forgotten about for them. It's such a terrible burden to be conscious and aware of this existence, all that existence does is create problems and pain there was never a need for, I don't understand why anyone would wish to be enslaved in this existence.
And I'd rather die on my own terms, it's just so cruel how existence doesn't come with an permanent offswitch with it being so difficult for us to cease existing when we want to.
To me it only makes sense wishing for nothingness, I don't see any value to having the ability to suffer, just waiting to decay and die anyway in this objectivley hellish and cruel existence, I only envy those who no longer exist.

I wish I was never brought into existence in the first place...

 

[Justnotme]

My answer is: only yes! I want to get out of here. And I really want to take all the suffering animals, birds, fish, children, and people with me so that the suffering stops forever!
But I can't do it and my heart aches incredibly because of it!

 

[Morte]

I would prefer a life where I can have everything I want than simply ceasing to exist. But ceasing to exist and being perfectly happy are practically the same thing, in both cases there is no suffering.

 

[shamblingshaggoth]

Pretty much the way @Anon133 phrased it. The line "I would prefer to cease to exist than live the life I envision if I don't".

I have a way I would love to live if I could, but the cost to get there is insurmountable. I would rather die then continue to live in pain striving for a life I can only dream of.

 

[Darkover]

i've been 100 percent wanting to die for 7 years if only it was a simple as pushing a button

 

[Finalnight]

i've been 100 percent wanting to die for 7 years if only it was a simple as pushing a button

What stops you?

 

[Darkover]

What stops you?

no method that's acceptable to me wouldn't want to hang myself or be burned or drowned or jump, SN is a terrible method plus you can't get it in the uk without having a welfare check, the only method that would be willing to try is overdose with olanzapine or nembutal but i don't have access to them

 

[Kit1]

Right now, I just wish I could die.

 

[Leeroy14R]

Next year seems soo unbearable, I hope my plan works-out before christmas.

 

[Humble]

I always have done, in my case eternal nothingness is all I wish for, it's all I see as desirable. I only wish for death as it's objectively better to cease existing, one cannot suffer from the absence of everything yet there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented as long as they exist.
And it only feels rational wanting death to escape from all future unnecessary suffering, once one dies all is forgotten about for them. It's such a terrible burden to be conscious and aware of this existence, all that existence does is create problems and pain there was never a need for, I don't understand why anyone would wish to be enslaved in this existence.
And I'd rather die on my own terms, it's just so cruel how existence doesn't come with an permanent offswitch with it being so difficult for us to cease existing when we want to.
To me it only makes sense wishing for nothingness, I don't see any value to having the ability to suffer, just waiting to decay and die anyway in this objectivley hellish and cruel existence, I only envy those who no longer exist.

so why dont you ctb already?

 

[ropearoundatree]

Yes, why the heck not?