Help Do I owe it to myself to get better with my mental health than to Ctb right away?

[dyingalone123]

I posted a similar post in a thread but I just need y'all opinion. I'm like stuck in purgatory.

My mental health deteriorated 6 months ago with severe anxiety, insomnia, and depression. It's gotten better due to Lexapro but I still have chronic pain. My anxiety really stemmed from having health anxiety and hand pain that's gotten better. I am better despite my father being an asshole. My dads temper has gotten better.

My biggest reason to Ctb is due to my the uncertainty of my future. I'm afraid of the future - I know it's so silly, I'm afraid of not being able to do things on my own due to depression. My ex also left me a few months ago due to my depression.

I feel like I'm in purgatory. I can't ask my therapist this question because of course she'll say I owe it to myself to try to live before giving up.

I see many people hanging onto their lives despite having serious mental disorders or bad chronic conditions and I'm just so impressed. I want to throw in the towel after 6 months.

CTB is so hard. I'm existing and surviving right now.

What do you guys think and why do you think the way you do?

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

If you think there is a path forward to a better life I would definitely hold off CTB. If there's something that interests you, if you have a goal, if you have some unfinished business, if you have a shred of hope.

 

[Sittichmutter]

I posted a similar post in a thread but I just need y'all opinion. I'm like stuck in purgatory.

My mental health deteriorated 6 months ago with severe anxiety, insomnia, and depression. It's gotten better due to Lexapro but I still have chronic pain. My anxiety really stemmed from having health anxiety and hand pain that's gotten better. I am better despite my father being an asshole. My dads temper has gotten better.

My biggest reason to Ctb is due to my the uncertainty of my future. I'm afraid of the future - I know it's so silly, I'm afraid of not being able to do things on my own due to depression. My ex also left me a few months ago due to my depression.

I feel like I'm in purgatory. I can't ask my therapist this question because of course she'll say I owe it to myself to try to live before giving up.

I see many people hanging onto their lives despite having serious mental disorders or bad chronic conditions and I'm just so impressed. I want to throw in the towel after 6 months.

CTB is so hard. I'm existing and surviving right now.

What do you guys think and why do you think the way you do?

I am sorry for your depression. It really feels like Hell. It feels like It wil never go away and there is no Future...
I have been there, more than once.
But, It can go away. And you can get better.
If Lexapro is not helping you after 6 months, It is time to change meds.
If I were you, I would give life a chance before CTB. Try to help other people, do a voluntary work at animal shelters. All this helps to decrease the pain. And you may discover a New You that you did not know the existence. And hanging around people who volunteer too, will open your heart for all the love some people can give, just so, without asking anything in return. It is such a warm feeling that you may see beauty again and start believing in a better life.
I Hope you feel better.

 

[Pcgamer1]

What does the term CTB mean?

 

[motel rooms]

CTB is so hard. I'm existing and surviving right now.

What do you guys think and why do you think the way you do?

Yeah, it's hard to ctb, so you may as well try & find a way to reduce your suffering... I think you need to show your teeth to your abusive parents, but I know that's much easier said than done...

 

[CFLoser]

yea why not. Once its over its over so its like why not before you go. Even if you get sick or bored along the way onthing changes.

 

[bed]

I'd exhaust all options before CTB or at least as many as you can.

 

[dyingalone123]

Thank you all for your posts. Y'all are such strong people - fighting so hard.

Guys please feel free to keep commenting. All opinions welcome.

 

[Dreamlike Reality]

What does the term CTB mean?

"Catch the Bus"-- Meaning to commit suicide.

As for the OP, if you still have aspirations, do what you're capable of right now and see where it goes from there. Like Bed said, exhaust your options. You're just as strong as everyone else here for existing until now- Best wishes, wherever life leads you.

 

[FuneralCry]

It is your life and your decision. Only you know what the best thing is for yourself. Of course we have the right to exit at a time of our own choosing after all. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.