ChaiTea

ChaiTea

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Apr 17, 2023
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tw i think??? not sure

am i still beautiful if im dead? if i killed myself, would you still think im pretty? would you still want to fuck me? would you never see me past my body?

my god i'm tired of people. did i imagine it all? please don't touch me. sometimes i wish i could be loved for more than my body. i'm not even sure HOW to be loved for any more. is there even any part of me that's whole? that's lovable? that's even remotely human?

i'm nothing more than a parasitic maggot and yet you claim to like me. love me even.

do you really believe in love at first sight? or maybe i'm just easy. maybe there's no part of me capable of being loved.

for the love of god, can you tell me anything other than i'm pretty? than "i could pull"? than im hot?

can you fucking acknowledge my existence? my insatiable, sinful, and so eternally dissatisfied existence?
 
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M1sT

M1sT

Life Is War & Wars Are Pointless!
Sep 30, 2023
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Really one of the worst feeling when you realise people see you as a material to use and throw rather than a person! I am sorry that you had to go through some unwanted experiences but the past stays in mind to sting. I hope you find comfort!
 
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Sutter

Sutter

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Oct 21, 2024
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Hoping you one day experience, a loving smile, interest in your day, someone who wants your opinion, a pillow you need but didnt ask for, a genuine laugh to a good joke, and well made bowl of chicken soup on a cold day.

Im a man, some men are stupid, some are loving and can be loved, hoping you find at least one.

Disclaimer I honestly mean the above but to be clear I am an old broken down fox and not that man.
 
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