Method Do I need anything but SN and water?

[Fthis]

I read Stan's guide and I know it has a list of things but sre there any substitutes that are in most homes or is not not nessasary to have anything other then SN and water?

 

[sadworld]

You don't need anything other than the SN and water. Everything else just makes the process smoother and possibly more peaceful.
Sometimes it doesn't even make a huge difference if you take all recommeded medications or nothing.

 

[Keto]

You can do it with ONLY SN and water. It is important to fast al least 8 hours, and 2 hour water fast before CTB.

 

[Life_and_Death]

You can do it with ONLY SN and water. It is important to fast al least 8 hours, and 2 hour water fast before CTB.

reading this it occurred to me that if i had some i could take it at anytime. in 3hrs i will have gone without eating for a day. and i was concerned about 8hrs lol

to answer your question its like sadworld said and keto. the mixture itself must be SN and water. you can take medications to help with the process because of some health problems one might even feel its best, me personally at the very least i would like a betablocker but thats because i have health problems. however this does not mean it is needed. like sadworld said

Everything else just makes the process smoother and possibly more peaceful.
Sometimes it doesn't even make a huge difference if you take all recommeded medications or nothing.

you may also have like a mint or small piece of chocolate to help with the taste after taking it

 

[mirko]

Yep, SN and water are enough to ctb. The other medications listed are for reducing any discomfort you may face.

 

[AbsoluteNothingness]

You can do it with ONLY SN and water. It is important to fast al least 8 hours, and 2 hour water fast before CTB.

But what if I cant fast at all? (Unless its "night time"/'while' 'sleeping', but even at that time itd be extremely risky to attempt/"ctb" ["catch" the "bus" to ABSOLUTE TOTAL ETERNAL PLAIN PURE ENDLESS COMPLETE NOTHINGNESS/NONEXISTENCE. NOT TO "SOMETHING"/AN "AFTERLIFE"] i could get 'caught' anytime in the 'middle' of the 'attempt') In my case I just cant do that, it's very risky and suspicious and basically just impossible because I dont live alone and my 'parents' 'would' 'ask' me why i don't 'eat' anything and would suspect a lot and Id be forced to anyway, unless i make some 'excuse' but i dont know if itd work. I know 'fasting' is 'recommended' but i cant do it because it's risky, and at 'night time' while my parents are 'sleeping' is very risky too anyway and to attempt/try to "ctb" is 'extremely' risky and suspicious too so even if id have fasted, actually attempting WITHOUT getting 'caught' at all would be so fucking extremely hard and risky because 'vomiting' happens whether you take the 'antiemetic' or not and theyd 'hear' me immediately because my 'room' is right next to theirs and well, anyways if i 'succeeded' (i FCKING WISH lol or whatever the fuck "wish" means) my 'parents'/'family' would be the first ones who 'see'/'find' the 'dead body'/'remaining' 'flesh' and would get 'extremely' 'traumatized'/'shocked' and theyd be even more 'hurt'/'devastated' and their 'pain' would be mUcH 'wOrSe' and blaaahblaaahblaaaahetcetc all that and well, i 'guess' i dont want that for them/them to 'go through' that [but that doesnt mean ill never ctb/that i dont want to simply just die/not exist at all, someday i definitely will, its just that if i do it 'here' in my 'parents' 'house', theyd be the first ones who 'see'/'find' my 'body'/'dead body'/'carcass' and that would 'traumatize'/'hurt'/'shock' them 'immensely'/'extremely' 'a lot' or whatever tf all those 'words' mean, itd be 'too much' for them to 'see' the 'dead body' and would have at the same time to 'deal' with the 'loss'/the 'fact' that im dead and 'they' wont see "me" never again and blahblahblah all that. BUT I JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO HAVE TO FCKING 'WORK' AND 'WAIT' SO MANY FCKING 'YEARS' 'UNTIL' I FINALLY HAVE A FCKING 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT'/'PLACE' TO FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/FINALLY DIE AND NOT EXIST AT A "WITHOUT" ANY 'RISKS' "SUCCESSFULLY"/"RELIABLY" NO FFS THATD TAKE MANY FCKING YEARS FFS FFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKK BUT ITS EITHER THAT OR 'DO' IT 'HERE' AND 'RISK' IT 'A LOT' AND IF 'I' ATTEMPT "SUCCESSFULLY" {I FCKING WISH LOL, 'sorry' for them but i just dont want to 'exist' at all in general nor 'experience' etcetc in general ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING!!!!!!!! WHATEVER/HOWEVER TF "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC I SIMPLY JUST DONT FFS. i simply just dont give a damn shit about/dont 'want'/dont have any damn 'interest' for etcetc absolutely literally basically totally completely ANYTHING in general at all ffs i simply just fcking dont!!!!!!!!!! fucking sigh... WHAT THE DAMN FUCK I 'DO'!!!!!!!!!!! FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!} ILL 'TRAUMATIZE'/'SHOCK' MY 'PARENTS'/'FAMILY' AND BLAHBLAHETC ALL THAT CRAP. FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. THE FCKING 'INEVITABLE' "gUiLt" IS SO FUCKING DAMN FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!!!! (well its not actually "gUiLt" or whatever tf that means, but well, 'feeling' "bAd"/"sAd" for them because 'they' 'love'/'want' me a lot and blahblah and would be very 'devastated'/'hurt'/'shocked'/'traumatized' if I die and theyd 'cry/'suffer' a lot and blaaahblaaah all that, sigh...) I SHOULD JUST NOT GIVE A DAMN FUCK FOR FUCKS SAKE, AS "cRuEl"/"sElFiSh" or whatever tf that means AS THAT 'SOUNDS'!!!!!!!!!!!! im very 'sorry' for them but "this", 'regardless'/no fcking 'matter' 'what'/'how' etc the fck "it" is/can be, what 'type'/'way'/'kind'/'form' ETCETC and or whatever tf in general is/can be etcetc and a looooong etc in general SHOULDNT be an obligation for fuck's sake!!!!!!!!!!] BUT FOR FUCKS SAKE I JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO HAVE TO FCKING 'WORK' OR WHATEVER TF THAT FUCKING ""pOsItIvE"" GARBAGE BULLSHIT CRAP SHIT or whatever the fck those 'words' mean TO 'eArN'/'sAvE' 'mOnEy' OR WHATEVER TF THAT CRAP IS/MEANS FOR A DAMN FCKING 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' OR WHATEVER TF THAT IS/MEANS SO I COULD FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/"CTB"/'LEAVE' THE 'MEAT CARCASS'/FINALLY DIE/FINALLY NOT EXIST AT ALL "SUCCESSFULLY"/"RELIABLY"/"SAFELY" ""WITHOUT ANY"" 'RISKS' ETC NOR HAVE TO FCKING 'WAIT' FOR 'WHO' THE DAMN FCK 'KNOWS' HOW MANY 'YEARS' UNTIL I FCKING FINALLY HAVE 'eNoUgH' 'eArNeD'/'sAvEd' 'mOnEy' FOR THE FCKING 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' WHERE I COULD FINALLY ATTEMPT WITHOUT ANY 'WORRIES'/'RISKS' OF GETTING 'CAUGHT'/'FAILING'/'TRAUMATIZING'|'SHOCKING' MY 'PARENTS'|'FAMILY'/NOT HAVING 'ENOUGH' 'TIME' TO ATTEMPT 'SUCCESSFULLY' AND FINALLY DIE WITHOUT BEING FCKING 'INTERRUPTED' BY ANYONE NOR ANY OTHER 'RISKS' IN GENERAL AT ALL AND I'D FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO FCKING 'BUY'/'HAVE' A 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' TO FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/DIE/NOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR ENTIRELY COMPLETELY TOTALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR ALL LITERAL ABSOLUTE TOTAL PURE COMPLETE ETERNITY/NOT 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING ANYONE ANY DAMN 'WAY' ETC ANYWHERE ETCETC IN FCKING GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL "WITHOUT ANY" 'RISKS' ETC AND HAVING AS MUCH 'TIME' AS I 'WANT'/'NEED' or whatever tf those 'words'/'verbs' mean lmao TO 'pRoPeRlY' 'pRePaRe' THE ATTEMPT AND THE 'ATTEMPT' 'ITSELF' AND I WOULDNT HAVE TO FCKING 'WORRY' ABOUT BEING 'FOUND'/GETTING 'CAUGHT' BY MY 'PARENTS'/ANY OTHER 'FAMILY MEMBER' or whatever tf that means/'SOMEONE' IN GENERAL BUT JESUS FCKING CHRIST THAT WOULD FCKING TAKE MANY FCKING 'YEARS' OF FCKING 'WAITING' AND SO MUCH FCKING 'eFfOrT'/'mOtIvAtiOn'/'wIlL' AND ALL THAT FCKING """pOsItIvE""" BULLSHIT GARBAGE CRAP SHIT AND I JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO FFS I SIMPLY JUST DONT. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK WHY IS IT SO DAMN FCKING HARD TO FINALLY DIE/NOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR ENTIRELY COMPLETELY TOTALLY BASICALLY LITERALLY ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY WHY IS IT SO FCKING GODDAMN DAMN FCKING HARD WHY IS "THIS" AN OBLIGATION FOR FUCK'S SAKE WHY IS "LIVING"/"EXISTING"/"EXPERIENCING" ETCETC AND OR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL/"CARING ABOUT" IN GENERAL/"HAVING 'INTEREST' FOR"|"WANTING"|"LIKING"|"WISHING"|"DESIRING"/""WANTING TO 'DO' AND OR 'KNOW' AND OR 'ENJOY' AND OR WHATEVER THE FUCKING DAMN FUCK|ANY OTHER 'VERB'|TYPE OF 'VERB'|'ACTION'|TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETC AND OR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL"" or whatever tf all that crap fcking means IN GENERAL ETCETCETC AND OR WHATEVER TF AND WANTING TO YES OR FCKING YES ""uNlEsS i DoNt BeCaUsE oF a 'ReAsOn'/'rEaSoNs'/'cAuSeS'"" A FCKING OBLIGATION FFS WHY???????!!!!!!!!! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY TF DO "I" YES OR YES HAVE TO HAVE A FCKING 'REASON'/'REASON WHY'/'CAUSE'/'EXPLANATION' AND OR WHATEVER OTHER CRAP SHIT LIKE THAT????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ***"I" DIDNT 'ASK' TO 'EXIST'/'BE' 'BORN' OR WHATEVER TF THAT MEANS NOR 'BE' 'BROUGHT' ABSOLUTELY ANYWHERE/TO ANYTHING AT FCKING ALL NOR 'eXpErIeNcE'/'pArTiCiPaTe' iN/'lIvE'/'dO'/'cArE aBoUt'/'eNjOy'/'eXpLoRe"/'kNoW' aBoUt/'lEaRn' aBoUt/'dIsCoVeR'/'bE pArT' oF/'lIkE'/'vAlUe'/'sEe'/'pErCeIvE'/'aPpReCiAtE'/'iNhAbIt' NOR ETCETCBLAHBLAHBLAH ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER FCKING 'VERB'/TYPE OF 'VERB'/'ACTION'/TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETCETC NOR BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN FCKING GENERAL AT DAMN ALL/NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY DEFINITELY ENTIRELY 'UTTERLY' or whatever the fuck that means too lmao 'PRACTICALLY' ANYTHING IN ABSOLUTE FCKING TOTAL LITERAL GENERAL AT DAMN FCKING ALL NO 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW TF "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC, OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM/KIND ETC IN GENERAL AT ALL NOR LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE AT ALL, WHATEVER THE DAMN FCK "ITS"/"IT" CAN BE FCKING 'FROM'/'ABOUT'/'RELATED' TO/'ASSOCIATED' WITH NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENER NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING FCKING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL AND BASICALLY AN 'INFINITE' ETC/A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG ETC, BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING/WHERE FFS ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! **SO IF "I" SIMPLY JUST DONT FCKING 'WANT' NOR FCKING 'NEED' ETCETF [NOR FCKING WANT TO WANT TO!!!!!!!] NOR HAVE ABSOLUTELY ANY "dEsIrE" NOR "iNtErEsT" NOR "nEeD" NOR "cUrIoSiTY" NOR "aTtRaCtIoN" or whatever the fuck all that fucking crap shit means lmfao NOR BASICALLY LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER FCKING CRAP FUCK TRASH SHIT GARBAGE or whatever the fuck all those 'words' mean lmao LIKE THAT IN GENERAL 'FOR'|'ABOUT'|'IN' [NOR FCKING WANT TO 'HAVE' IT NOR WANT TO WANT TO FCKING HAVE IT] AND JUST FCKING SIMPLY DONT FCKING GIVE A GODDAMN FCKING SHIT ABOUT [NOR WANT TO!!!!] ETCETCETC AND SIMPLY FCKING LITERALLY FCKING ABSOLUTELY FCKING BASICALLY FCKING INTENTIONALLY FCKING TRULY FCKING SERIOUSLY or whatever the fcking goddamn damn fcking fck shit all those 'words' mean lmfaooooooo JUST FCKING SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT/NOT FCKING WANT TO 'EXPERIENCE'/'LIVE'/'DO'/'SEE'/'ENJOY'/'EXPLORE'/'DISCOVER'/'KNOW' ABOUT/'PERCEIVE'/'INHABIT'/'"BE" IN/'LIVE' IN/'EXIST' IN/'PARTICIPATE' IN/'BE PART' OF/'BELONG' TO/'BELONG' IN/'TAKE PART' IN or whatever tf all those 'verbs'/'words' fckinf mean lmao ETCETCETCBLAHBLAHBLAH NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL/NOR LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER 'VERB'/'ACTION' ETC OF ANY TYPE NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY COMPLETELY BASICALLY LITERALLY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN FCKING GENERAL AT DAMN ABSOLUTE TOTAL LITERAL ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER THE FCKING FCK "IT" IS/CAN BE NEITHER WHAT TYPE/KIND/FORM ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF 'THERE IS'/'THERE CAN BE' NOR WHATEVER TF 'HAPPENS'/CAN 'HAPPEN' NOR WHATEVER TF "ITS"/CAN BE "ABOUT" NOR HOWEVER TF FCKING "WORKS"/CAN "WORK" NOR BLAHBLAHETCETC A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG ETC AND THAT'S FCKING IT FFS SIMPLY FCKING BASICALLY LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY 'UTTERLY' EXACTLY PRACTICALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING AT DAMN ALL IN FCKING TOTAL ABSOLUTE GENERAL FFS SIMPLY FCKING ANYTHING AT ALL!!!!! I SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT NOR WANR TO WANT TO NEVER HAVE HAD AT ALL NEVER FCKING WILL AND THATS FCKING IT AND ITS ABSOLUTELY NOT BECAUSE OF ANY DAMN REASON AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY TYPE AT ALL NOR RELATED TO/ABOUT ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING FFS!!!!! I SIMPLY BASICALLY LITERALLY SERIOUSLY TRULY ACTUALLY HONESTLY INTENTIONALLY or whatever tf all those 'words' mean i just dont give a damn shit jfc lol, or whatever "lol" means too JUST FCKING DONT FCKINF 'WANT'/GIVE A FUCK SHIT ABOUT NOR FCKING WANT TO FCKING 'WANT'/GIVE A FCK SHIT ABOUT NOR ETCETCETC LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY COMPLETELY BASICALLY LITERALLY ANYTHING AT TOTAL DAMN ABSOLUTE ALL IN FCKING DAMN GENERAL AND THATS FCKING IT **I SIMPLY JUST FUCKING DONT [NOR WANT TO AT FCKING ALL AND NEVER WILL, WHY TF DO "I" FCKING HAVE TO YES OR FCKING YES FFS LET JUST NOT FUCKING WANT/GIVE A GODDAMN
FUCKING SHIT ABOUT ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING AT FCKING DAMN GODDAMN ALL IN FCKING GENERAL NO FUCKING 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW THE FCK "IT" IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/KIND/FORM ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL NOR A LOOOOONG ETC AND THATS FCKING IT WITHOUT ANY GODDAMN DAMN FCKING REASON/REASONS/CAUSES/EXPLANATIONS OR WHATEVER TF THAT CRAP SHIT MEANS NOR ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE BULLSHIT CRAP TRASH SHIT LIKE THAT IN GENERAL AT DAMN FCKING ALL OF ANY FCKING TYPE AT ALL IN GENERAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SHOULDN'T BE FCKING FORCED/OBLIGATED TO JUST BECAUSE OF THE 'FACT' THAT "I" HAD LITERALLY NO 'CHOICE' BUT TO 'EXIST'/'BE' 'BORN'/"BE"|"BECOME" IN GENERAL "sOmEtHiNg"/"sOmEoNe" AND 'WAS' "BROUGHT" "HERE"/TO "THIS" AND 'WAS' FORCED/'PUT' 'INSIDE' S 'HUMAN BODY'/'BODY'/'BRAIN'/'MIND' IN GENERAL OR WHATEVER TF THAT CRAP BULLSHIT FCKING IS /MEANS FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LITERALLY JUST FCKING SIMPLY DONT FCKING WANT ETC ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING AT ALL IN FCKING GENERAL NOR WANT TO AT ALL AND THATS FCKING IT FOR FUCK'S SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!] NEVER AT FCKINF ALL HAVE HAD NEVER AT DAMN ALL EVER FUCKING WILL AND THATS LITERALLY SIMPLY FCKING BASICALLY IT AND I FCKING SHOULDNT BE FCKING 'OBLIGATED'/'FORCED'/'PRESSURED' TO 'AGAINST' MY FUCKING 'WILL'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL ***THAT SHOULD ((MUST!!!!!!!!! AND I FCKING SHOULDNT HAVE TO FCKING 'GIVE' ANY FUCKING 'EXPLANATIONS', THERE ARENT ANY/I DONT FCKING HAVE ANY!!!!!!!! NOR HAVE ANY FCKING GODDAMN DAMN 'rEaSoNs' wHy/'cAuSeS' NOR LITERALLY ANY OTHER FCKING BULLSHIT GARBAGE SHIT CRAP FUCK LIKE THAT IN GENERAL!!!!!!!! THERE FCKING ARENT ANY AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY TYPE NOR 'RELATED TO'/'ABOUT'/'ASSOCIATED' WITH ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING IN FCKING GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL FFS!!!!!!!!!)) BE MORE THAN FUCKING 'ENOUGH' FOR 'ME TO COMPLETELY TOTALLY ENTIRELY LITERALLY HAVE THE ABSOLUTE TOTAL RIGHT TO DIE/NOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR COMPLETELY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY LITERALLY ENTIRELY ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR ALL LITERAL TOTAL ABSOLUTE 'ETERNITY'/FINALLY SIMPLY NOT FUCKING 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING NOR ANYONE ANY DAMN FCKING 'WAY'/'FORM'/'TYPE'/'SHAPE' ETCETC NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL ANYWHERE ETCETC IN ABSOLUTE TOTAL GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL ANYTIME/WHENEVER I WANT TO AND IF I SIMPLY LITERALLY BASICALLY JUST WANT TO AND THAT'S FCKING BASICALLY IT WITHOUT HAVING TO FCKING BE ANY GODDAMN FCKING 'REASON' NOR ANY 'CAUSE' NOR ANY FCKING 'EXPLANATION' NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE BULLSHIT CRAP LIKE THAT IN GENERAL IN GENERAL AT FCKING ALL OF ABSOLUTELY ANY
TYPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


[[[[[[[for fucks sake why is it so fucking hard to finally 'leave'/'get out' of/'ditch' the 'meat sack'/'flesh' and finally die/not exist at all/disappear entirely completely literally totally eternally forever and NOT 'be' absolutely literally basically totally completely ANYTHING nor ANYONE nor ANYWHERE etcetc in general at fcking all for fucks sake why is it so fcking hard????!!!!! Why is "this" a fcking obligation that i yes or yes have to 'want'/'care about'/be 'interested' of/'like' [[I NEITHER "LIKE"/"LOVE" NOR "DISLIKE"/"HATE" ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY BASICALLY ANYTHING/ANYONE ETC IN FCKING GENERAL AT ALL FFS I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A DAMN FUCK SHIT!!!!!!!!! I JUST DONT FUCKING WANT/DONT FCKING HAVE NEVER HAVE HAD NEVER FCKING WILL nor want to want/have it at all lmao why the fuck do i fucking have to jfc ANY FCKING 'DESIRE' NOR 'NEED' NOR 'INTEREST' NOR 'INTENTION' NOR ANY OTHER FCKING CRAP SHIT LIKE THAT TO 'LIKE' OR WHATEVER TF THAT MEANS NOR LITERALLY ANY OTHER 'VERB'|TYPE OF 'VERB'|'ACTION'|TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL. WHY THE FCK DO I HAVE TO/WANT TO WANT TO FFS. AS IVE 'SAID', I NEITHER "LIKE"/"LOVE" NOR "DISLIKE"/"HATE" ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING FOR FUCKS SAKE I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A SHIT FFS I LITERALLY JUST DONT!!!!!!!!! AND THATS BASICALLY SIMPLY FCKING IT AND ITS NOT BECAUSE OF ANY 'REASONS'/'CAUSES' AT ALL FFS]]/want to 'do' and or 'experience' and or 'know' and or 'enjoy' and or 'learn' and or 'kNoW hOw tO dO' and or 'explore' and or 'aChIeVe' and or 'dEsIrE' and or 'wIsH' and or blahblahetcetc whatever other 'verb'|type of 'verb'|'action'|type of 'action' and or whatever the fucking damn fuck in general//want to 'experience'|'live'|'do'|'enjoy'|'know' about|'explore'|'discover' etc 'tHiNgS'/'sOmEtHiNg' iN gEnErAl wHaTeVer It Is wHaTeVeR iTs AbOuT wHaTeVeR tYpE iT iS bUt sOmEtHinG/'lifE'/'tHe WoRlD'/'eXiStEnCe'/'pLaNeT eArTh'/'cOnScIoUSneSs' and or blablaetcetc whatever the fck in general """"""""uNlEsS I DonT bEcAuSe Of "sUfFeRiNg"/"pAiN"/"dEpReSsIoN"/"bAd LiFe"/"nIhIlISm"/"aNtInAtAlIsM"/"eFiLiSm"/"eMpTiNeSs"/"uNsAtIsFaCtIoN"/"lOw sElFeSteEm"/"aNxIeTy"/"mEntAl iLlNeSsEs iN gEnErAl"/"pHySiCaL iLlNeSsEs"/"dIsAbIlItY"/"hOpElEsSnEsS"/"lOnElInEsS"/"bAd fAmIlY"/"mEaNiNgLeSsNeSs"/"uNhApPiNeSs"/"uNfUlFiLlMeNt"/"sElF hAtReD"/"aBuSe"/"tRaUmA"/"bUlLyInG"/"hOmElEsSnEsS"/"sHaMe"/"rEgReT"/"gUiLt"/"bAd cIrCuMsTaNcEs" aNd Or bEcAuSe oF BlAhBlAheTceTc AnY oThEr rEaSoN/rEaSoNs/cAuSeS iN gEnErAl wHaTeVer It Is wHaTeVeR iTs AbOuT/rElAtEd tO wHaTeVeR tYpE iT iS eTc bUt bEcAuSe oF a 'ReAsOn'/'rEaSoNs'/'cAuSeS' iN gEnErAl yEs Or YeS, tHeRe hAs To/tHeRe MuSt Be A rEaSoN/rEaSoNs WhY yEs Or YeS, iT cAnT bE wItHoUt aNy ReAsOn At AlL/fOr No ReAsOn At AlL, tHaTs 'iMpOsSiBlE'"""""""???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY FOR FUCK'S SAKE WHY THE FCKING FUCK DO "I" YES OR FCKING YES HAVE TO WANT TO/WANT TO WANT TO ""uNlEsS I DonT bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN"" JUST BECAUSE "I" HAD NO DAMN CHOICE BUT TO 'EXIST'/'BE' 'BORN'//"BE"|"BECOME" 'SOMETHING'/'SOMEONE' AND 'WAS' 'BROUGHT' "HERE" (i just fucking simply DONT want NOR want to want never at all have wanted absolutely literally never at all ever will no fcking 'matter' what etc and its NOT because of any damn fcking reason at all to 'be' 'brought'/'experience' etcetc ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT DAMN FCKING ALL FFS ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT 'ONLY' "HERE"/TO "THIS" WHATEVER/HOWEVER THE FCK "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC NEITHER WHAT TYPE/KIND/FORM/WAY ETCETC "IT" IS/CAN BE NEITHER WHAT 'HAPPENS'/CAN 'HAPPEN' NEITHER EHAT 'THERE IS'/'THERE CAN BE' AND A LOOOOOOOOOONG ETC, BUT BASICALLY LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ENTIRELY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL. ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE FFS. JUST FCKING DONT NEVER AT ALL WILL FFS!!!!!!!!! WHATEVER/HOWEVER TF "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETCETC OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM/KIND/SORT ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL, NO 'MATTER' WHAT/WHERE TF "ITS" FROM/ABOUT/RELATED TO/IN/OF/'ASSOCIATED WITH ETCETC A LOOONG ETC, NO 'MATTER' WHAT 'HAPPENS'/CAN 'HAPPEN', NO 'MATTER' 'HOW' "IT" 'WORKS'/CAN 'WORK', NO 'MATTER' 'WHAT' TF "ITS"/CAN BE "ABOUT", NO 'MATTER' WHAT 'THINGS'/TYPES OF 'THINGS' ETC AND OR WHATEVER THE DAMN FCK IN GENERAL 'THERE IS'/'THERE CAN BE' AND LITERALLY BASICALLY A LOOOOOOOOOOOONG ETC FFS SIMPLY FCKING ANYTHING IN TOTAL ABSOLUTE GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL AND THATS BASICALLY LITERALLY SIMPLY IT WITHOT ANY DAMN REASON IN GENERAL AT ALL FFS THERE SIMPLY FCKING ARENT ANY AT ALL NEVER AT ALL HAVE BEEN ANY AND NEVER AT ALL EVER FCKING WILL)?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY THE DAMN FKCING FCK CANT "I" FCKING SIMPLY FCKING BASICALLY FCKING LITERALLY TRULY or whatever tf all those 'words' mean lmao NOT/DONT FCKING 'WANT'/GIVE A DAMN SHIT ABOUT ETC NOR WANT TO 'WANT'/GIVE A DAMN SHIT ABOUT ETCETCETC {NOR ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL/ANY OTHER 'VERB'/TYPE OF 'VERB'/'ACTION'/TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL AT ALL} ABSOLUTELY COMPLETELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING IN FCKING DAMN GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER "IT" IS/CAN BE EHATEVER FCKING TYPE/WAY/KIND/FORM ETCETC "IT" IS ETCETC AND A LOOOOONG ETC AND THATS FCKING BASICALLY LITERALLY TRUKY SIMPLY SERIOUSLY FCKING IT WITHOUT LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANY SINGLE FCKING DAMN 'REASON'/'REASONS'/'CAUSES' NOR ANY OTHER FCKING CRAP SHIT LIKE THAT IN GENERAL IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE AT ALL FFS????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY TF AM "I" FCKING OBLIGATED/FORCED TO AND IF I DONT """iTs bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN/rEaSoNs/cAuSeS""" FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY??????!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY THE FCK THERE HAS TO BE A FCKING DAMN REASON YES OR YES FOR FUCKS FUCKING SAKE WHY????????!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE. FUCKING. SIMPLY. LITERALLY. BASICALLY. ABSOLUTELY. TRULY. SERIOUSLY. (Or whatever tf those 'words' fucking mean lmao) ARENT. ANY AND LITERALLY NEVER FUCKING WILL FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!]]]]]]]]


How "iMpOrTaNt"/"nEcEsSaRy" or whatever the fuck that means is 'fasting' for this method actually? Does not fasting means 'failure'? I 'think' there have been 'cases'/'reports' of 'people' dying with sn without the fasting, but apparently it took much longer... In my 'case' Ill prepare (if ill be 'able' to get it... which is so fucking hard because of the fucking 'customs') a second dose/glass of SN in case I 'vomit' the first one so i guess it should still work even if I dont 'fast'. Even if my 'stomach' isn't fully empty, there would be more than enough SN absorbed' there because id have taken 2 'glasses' of 20g-25g and that's a lot, and if i take it with 'propanolol', i guess Id lose 'consciousness' much faster and it wouldnt have "mattered" or whatever the fuck "matter" means that my 'stomach' wasnt totally empty because apparently the propanolol is also 'used' to 'potentiate' the sn drink and 'make' it more 'lethal', so the 'combination' of both would make me 'pass out'/'lose' 'consciousness' 'quicker', thatd happen 'whether' I had fasted or not. If i 'follow' the 'regimen'/take the 'pills' needed for the method it should still 'work' even if I havent done the fasting

 

[jakaka]

But what if I cant fast at all? (Unless its "night time"/'while' 'sleeping', but even at that time itd be extremely risky to attempt/"ctb" ["catch" the "bus" to ABSOLUTE TOTAL ETERNAL PLAIN PURE ENDLESS COMPLETE NOTHINGNESS/NONEXISTENCE. NOT TO "SOMETHING"/AN "AFTERLIFE"] i could get 'caught' anytime in the 'middle' of the 'attempt') In my case I just cant do that, it's very risky and suspicious and basically just impossible because I dont live alone and my 'parents' 'would' 'ask' me why i don't 'eat' anything and would suspect a lot and Id be forced to anyway, unless i make some 'excuse' but i dont know if itd work. I know 'fasting' is 'recommended' but i cant do it because it's risky, and at 'night time' while my parents are 'sleeping' is very risky too anyway and to attempt/try to "ctb" is 'extremely' risky and suspicious too so even if id have fasted, actually attempting WITHOUT getting 'caught' at all would be so fucking extremely hard and risky because 'vomiting' happens whether you take the 'antiemetic' or not and theyd 'hear' me immediately because my 'room' is right next to theirs and well, anyways if i 'succeeded' (i FCKING WISH lol or whatever the fuck "wish" means) my 'parents'/'family' would be the first ones who 'see'/'find' the 'dead body'/'remaining' 'flesh' and would get 'extremely' 'traumatized'/'shocked' and theyd be even more 'hurt'/'devastated' and their 'pain' would be mUcH 'wOrSe' and blaaahblaaahblaaaahetcetc all that and well, i 'guess' i dont want that for them/them to 'go through' that [but that doesnt mean ill never ctb/that i dont want to simply just die/not exist at all, someday i definitely will, its just that if i do it 'here' in my 'parents' 'house', theyd be the first ones who 'see'/'find' my 'body'/'dead body'/'carcass' and that would 'traumatize'/'hurt'/'shock' them 'immensely'/'extremely' 'a lot' or whatever tf all those 'words' mean, itd be 'too much' for them to 'see' the 'dead body' and would have at the same time to 'deal' with the 'loss'/the 'fact' that im dead and 'they' wont see "me" never again and blahblahblah all that. BUT I JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO HAVE TO FCKING 'WORK' AND 'WAIT' SO MANY FCKING 'YEARS' 'UNTIL' I FINALLY HAVE A FCKING 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT'/'PLACE' TO FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/FINALLY DIE AND NOT EXIST AT A "WITHOUT" ANY 'RISKS' "SUCCESSFULLY"/"RELIABLY" NO FFS THATD TAKE MANY FCKING YEARS FFS FFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKK BUT ITS EITHER THAT OR 'DO' IT 'HERE' AND 'RISK' IT 'A LOT' AND IF 'I' ATTEMPT "SUCCESSFULLY" {I FCKING WISH LOL, 'sorry' for them but i just dont want to 'exist' at all in general nor 'experience' etcetc in general ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING!!!!!!!! WHATEVER/HOWEVER TF "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC I SIMPLY JUST DONT FFS. i simply just dont give a damn shit about/dont 'want'/dont have any damn 'interest' for etcetc absolutely literally basically totally completely ANYTHING in general at all ffs i simply just fcking dont!!!!!!!!!! fucking sigh... WHAT THE DAMN FUCK I 'DO'!!!!!!!!!!! FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!} ILL 'TRAUMATIZE'/'SHOCK' MY 'PARENTS'/'FAMILY' AND BLAHBLAHETC ALL THAT CRAP. FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. THE FCKING 'INEVITABLE' "gUiLt" IS SO FUCKING DAMN FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!!!! (well its not actually "gUiLt" or whatever tf that means, but well, 'feeling' "bAd"/"sAd" for them because 'they' 'love'/'want' me a lot and blahblah and would be very 'devastated'/'hurt'/'shocked'/'traumatized' if I die and theyd 'cry/'suffer' a lot and blaaahblaaah all that, sigh...) I SHOULDNT JUST NOT GIVE A DAMN FUCK FOR FUCKS SAKE, AS "cRuEl"/"sElFiSh" or whatever tf that means AS THAT 'SOUNDS'!!!!!!!!!!!! im very 'sorry' for them but "this", 'regardless'/no fcking 'matter' 'what'/'how' etc the fck "it" is/can be, what 'type'/'way'/'kind'/'form' ETCETC and or whatever tf in general is/can be etcetc and a looooong etc in general SHOULDNT be an obligation for fuck's sake!!!!!!!!!!] BUT FOR FUCKS SAKE I JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO HAVE TO FCKING 'WORK' OR WHATEVER TF THAT FUCKING ""pOsItIvE"" GARBAGE BULLSHIT CRAP SHIT or whatever the fck those 'words' mean TO 'eArN'/'sAvE' 'mOnEy' OR WHATEVER TF THAT CRAP IS/MEANS FOR A DAMN FCKING 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' OR WHATEVER TF THAT IS/MEANS SO I COULD FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/"CTB"/'LEAVE' THE 'MEAT CARCASS'/FINALLY DIE/FINALLY NOT EXIST AT ALL "SUCCESSFULLY"/"RELIABLY"/"SAFELY" ""WITHOUT ANY"" 'RISKS' ETC NOR HAVE TO FCKING 'WAIT' FOR 'WHO' THE DAMN FCK 'KNOWS' HOW MANY 'YEARS' UNTIL I FCKING FINALLY HAVE 'eNoUgH' 'eArNeD'/'sAvEd' 'mOnEy' FOR THE FCKING 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' WHERE I COULD FINALLY ATTEMPT WITHOUT ANY 'WORRIES'/'RISKS' OF GETTING 'CAUGHT'/'FAILING'/'TRAUMATIZING'|'SHOCKING' MY 'PARENTS'|'FAMILY'/NOT HAVING 'ENOUGH' 'TIME' TO ATTEMPT 'SUCCESSFULLY' AND FINALLY DIE WITHOUT BEING FCKING 'INTERRUPTED' BY ANYONE NOR ANY OTHER 'RISKS' IN GENERAL AT ALL AND I'D FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO FCKING 'BUY'/'HAVE' A 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' TO FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/DIE/NOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR ENTIRELY COMPLETELY TOTALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR ALL LITERAL ABSOLUTE TOTAL PURE COMPLETE ETERNITY/NOT 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING ANYONE ANY DAMN 'WAY' ETC ANYWHERE ETCETC IN FCKING GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL "WITHOUT ANY" 'RISKS' ETC AND HAVING AS MUCH 'TIME' AS I 'WANT'/'NEED' or whatever tf those 'words'/'verbs' mean lmao TO 'pRoPeRlY' 'pRePaRe' THE ATTEMPT AND THE 'ATTEMPT' 'ITSELF' AND I WOULDNT HAVE TO FCKING 'WORRY' ABOUT BEING 'FOUND'/GETTING 'CAUGHT' BY MY 'PARENTS'/ANY OTHER 'FAMILY MEMBER' or whatever tf that means/'SOMEONE' IN GENERAL BUT JESUS FCKING CHRIST THAT WOULD FCKING TAKE MANY FCKING 'YEARS' OF FCKING 'WAITING' AND SO MUCH FCKING 'eFfOrT'/'mOtIvAtiOn'/'wIlL' AND ALL THAT FCKING """pOsItIvE""" BULLSHIT GARBAGE CRAP SHIT AND I JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO FFS I SIMPLY JUST DONT. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK WHY IS IT SO DAMN FCKING HARD TO FINALLY DIE/NOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR ENTIRELY COMPLETELY TOTALLY BASICALLY LITERALLY ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY WHY IS IT SO FCKING GODDAMN DAMN FCKING HARD WHY IS "THIS" AN OBLIGATION FOR FUCK'S SAKE WHY IS "LIVING"/"EXISTING"/"EXPERIENCING" ETCETC AND OR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL/"CARING ABOUT" IN GENERAL/"HAVING 'INTEREST' FOR"|"WANTING"|"LIKING"|"WISHING"|"DESIRING"/""WANTING TO 'DO' AND OR 'KNOW' AND OR 'ENJOY' AND OR WHATEVER THE FUCKING DAMN FUCK|ANY OTHER 'VERB'|TYPE OF 'VERB'|'ACTION'|TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETC AND OR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL"" or whatever tf all that crap fcking means IN GENERAL ETCETCETC AND OR WHATEVER TF AND WANTING TO YES OR FCKING YES ""uNlEsS i DoNt BeCaUsE oF a 'ReAsOn'/'rEaSoNs'/'cAuSeS'"" A FCKING OBLIGATION FFS WHY???????!!!!!!!!! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY TF DO "I" YES OR YES HAVE TO HAVE A FCKING 'REASON'/'REASON WHY'/'CAUSE'/'EXPLANATION' AND OR WHATEVER OTHER CRAP SHIT LIKE THAT????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ***"I" DIDNT 'ASK' TO 'EXIST'/'BE' 'BORN' OR WHATEVER TF THAT MEANS NOR 'BE' 'BROUGHT' ABSOLUTELY ANYWHERE/TO ANYTHING AT FCKING ALL NOR 'eXpErIeNcE'/'pArTiCiPaTe' iN/'lIvE'/'dO'/'cArE aBoUt'/'eNjOy'/'eXpLoRe"/'kNoW' aBoUt/'lEaRn' aBoUt/'dIsCoVeR'/'bE pArT' oF/'lIkE'/'vAlUe'/'sEe'/'pErCeIvE'/'aPpReCiAtE'/'iNhAbIt' NOR ETCETCBLAHBLAHBLAH ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER FCKING 'VERB'/TYPE OF 'VERB'/'ACTION'/TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETCETC NOR BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN FCKING GENERAL AT DAMN ALL/NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY DEFINITELY ENTIRELY 'UTTERLY' or whatever the fuck that means too lmao 'PRACTICALLY' ANYTHING IN ABSOLUTE FCKING TOTAL LITERAL GENERAL AT DAMN FCKING ALL NO 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW TF "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC, OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM/KIND ETC IN GENERAL AT ALL NOR LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE AT ALL, WHATEVER THE DAMN FCK "ITS"/"IT" CAN BE FCKING 'FROM'/'ABOUT'/'RELATED' TO/'ASSOCIATED' WITH NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENER NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING FCKING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL AND BASICALLY AN 'INFINITE' ETC/A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG ETC, BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING/WHERE FFS ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! **SO IF "I" SIMPLY JUST DONT FCKING 'WANT' NOR FCKING 'NEED' ETCETF [NOR FCKING WANT TO WANT TO!!!!!!!] NOR HAVE ABSOLUTELY ANY "dEsIrE" NOR "iNtErEsT" NOR "nEeD" NOR "cUrIoSiTY" NOR "aTtRaCtIoN" or whatever the fuck all that fucking crap shit means lmfao NOR BASICALLY LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER FCKING CRAP FUCK TRASH SHIT GARBAGE or whatever the fuck all those 'words' mean lmao LIKE THAT IN GENERAL 'FOR'|'ABOUT'|'IN' [NOR FCKING WANT TO 'HAVE' IT NOR WANT TO WANT TO FCKING HAVE IT] AND JUST FCKING SIMPLY DONT FCKING GIVE A GODDAMN FCKING SHIT ABOUT [NOR WANT TO!!!!] ETCETCETC AND SIMPLY FCKING LITERALLY FCKING ABSOLUTELY FCKING BASICALLY FCKING INTENTIONALLY FCKING TRULY FCKING SERIOUSLY or whatever the fcking goddamn damn fcking fck shit all those 'words' mean lmfaooooooo JUST FCKING SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT/NOT FCKING WANT TO 'EXPERIENCE'/'LIVE'/'DO'/'SEE'/'ENJOY'/'EXPLORE'/'DISCOVER'/'KNOW' ABOUT/'PERCEIVE'/'INHABIT'/'"BE" IN/'LIVE' IN/'EXIST' IN/'PARTICIPATE' IN/'BE PART' OF/'BELONG' TO/'BELONG' IN/'TAKE PART' IN or whatever tf all those 'verbs'/'words' fckinf mean lmao ETCETCETCBLAHBLAHBLAH NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL/NOR LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER 'VERB'/'ACTION' ETC OF ANY TYPE NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY COMPLETELY BASICALLY LITERALLY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN FCKING GENERAL AT DAMN ABSOLUTE TOTAL LITERAL ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER THE FCKING FCK "IT" IS/CAN BE NEITHER WHAT TYPE/KIND/FORM ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF 'THERE IS'/'THERE CAN BE' NOR WHATEVER TF 'HAPPENS'/CAN 'HAPPEN' NOR WHATEVER TF "ITS"/CAN BE "ABOUT" NOR HOWEVER TF FCKING "WORKS"/CAN "WORK" NOR BLAHBLAHETCETC A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG ETC AND THAT'S FCKING IT FFS SIMPLY FCKING BASICALLY LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY 'UTTERLY' EXACTLY PRACTICALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING AT DAMN ALL IN FCKING TOTAL ABSOLUTE GENERAL FFS SIMPLY FCKING ANYTHING AT ALL!!!!! I SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT NOR WANR TO WANT TO NEVER HAVE HAD AT ALL NEVER FCKING WILL AND THATS FCKING IT AND ITS ABSOLUTELY NOT BECAUSE OF ANY DAMN REASON AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY TYPE AT ALL NOR RELATED TO/ABOUT ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING FFS!!!!! I SIMPLY BASICALLY LITERALLY SERIOUSLY TRULY ACTUALLY HONESTLY INTENTIONALLY or whatever tf all those 'words' mean i just dont give a damn shit jfc lol, or whatever "lol" means too JUST FCKING DONT FCKINF 'WANT'/GIVE A FUCK SHIT ABOUT NOR FCKING WANT TO FCKING 'WANT'/GIVE A FCK SHIT ABOUT NOR ETCETCETC LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY COMPLETELY BASICALLY LITERALLY ANYTHING AT TOTAL DAMN ABSOLUTE ALL IN FCKING DAMN GENERAL AND THATS FCKING IT **I SIMPLY JUST FUCKING DONT [NOR WANT TO AT FCKING ALL AND NEVER WILL, WHY TF DO "I" FCKING HAVE TO YES OR FCKING YES FFS LET JUST NOT FUCKING WANT/GIVE A GODDAMN
FUCKING SHIT ABOUT ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING AT FCKING DAMN GODDAMN ALL IN FCKING GENERAL NO FUCKING 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW THE FCK "IT" IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/KIND/FORM ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL NOR A LOOOOONG ETC AND THATS FCKING IT WITHOUT ANY GODDAMN DAMN FCKING REASON/REASONS/CAUSES/EXPLANATIONS OR WHATEVER TF THAT CRAP SHIT MEANS NOR ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE BULLSHIT CRAP TRASH SHIT LIKE THAT IN GENERAL AT DAMN FCKING ALL OF ANY FCKING TYPE AT ALL IN GENERAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SHOULDN'T BE FCKING FORCED/OBLIGATED TO JUST BECAUSE OF THE 'FACT' THAT "I" HAD LITERALLY NO 'CHOICE' BUT TO 'EXIST'/'BE' 'BORN'/"BE"|"BECOME" IN GENERAL "sOmEtHiNg"/"sOmEoNe" AND 'WAS' "BROUGHT" "HERE"/TO "THIS" AND 'WAS' FORCED/'PUT' 'INSIDE' S 'HUMAN BODY'/'BODY'/'BRAIN'/'MIND' IN GENERAL OR WHATEVER TF THAT CRAP BULLSHIT FCKING IS /MEANS FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LITERALLY JUST FCKING SIMPLY DONT FCKING WANT ETC ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING AT ALL IN FCKING GENERAL NOR WANT TO AT ALL AND THATS FCKING IT FOR FUCK'S SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!] NEVER AT FCKINF ALL HAVE HAD NEVER AT DAMN ALL EVER FUCKING WILL AND THATS LITERALLY SIMPLY FCKING BASICALLY IT AND I FCKING SHOULDNT BE FCKING 'OBLIGATED'/'FORCED'/'PRESSURED' TO 'AGAINST' MY FUCKING 'WILL'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL ***THAT SHOULD ((MUST!!!!!!!!! AND I FCKING SHOULDNT HAVE TO FCKING 'GIVE' ANY FUCKING 'EXPLANATIONS', THERE ARENT ANY/I DONT FCKING HAVE ANY!!!!!!!! NOR HAVE ANY FCKING GODDAMN DAMN 'rEaSoNs' wHy/'cAuSeS' NOR LITERALLY ANY OTHER FCKING BULLSHIT GARBAGE SHIT CRAP FUCK LIKE THAT IN GENERAL!!!!!!!! THERE FCKING ARENT ANY AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY TYPE NOR 'RELATED TO'/'ABOUT'/'ASSOCIATED' WITH ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING IN FCKING GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL FFS!!!!!!!!!)) BE MORE THAN FUCKING 'ENOUGH' FOR 'ME TO COMPLETELY TOTALLY ENTIRELY LITERALLY HAVE THE ABSOLUTE TOTAL RIGHT TO DIE/NOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR COMPLETELY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY LITERALLY ENTIRELY ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR ALL LITERAL TOTAL ABSOLUTE 'ETERNITY'/FINALLY SIMPLY NOT FUCKING 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING NOR ANYONE ANY DAMN FCKING 'WAY'/'FORM'/'TYPE'/'SHAPE' ETCETC NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL ANYWHERE ETCETC IN ABSOLUTE TOTAL GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL ANYTIME/WHENEVER I WANT TO AND IF I SIMPLY LITERALLY BASICALLY JUST WANT TO AND THAT'S FCKING BASICALLY IT WITHOUT HAVING TO FCKING BE ANY GODDAMN FCKING 'REASON' NOR ANY 'CAUSE' NOR ANY FCKING 'EXPLANATION' NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE BULLSHIT CRAP LIKE THAT IN GENERAL IN GENERAL AT FCKING ALL OF ABSOLUTELY ANY
TYPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


[[[[[[[for fucks sake why is it so fucking hard to finally 'leave'/'get out' of/'ditch' the 'meat sack'/'flesh' and finally die/not exist at all/disappear entirely completely literally totally eternally forever and NOT 'be' absolutely literally basically totally completely ANYTHING nor ANYONE nor ANYWHERE etcetc in general at fcking all for fucks sake why is it so fcking hard????!!!!! Why is "this" a fcking obligation that i yes or yes have to 'want'/'care about'/be 'interested' of/'like' [[I NEITHER "LIKE"/"LOVE" NOR "DISLIKE"/"HATE" ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY BASICALLY ANYTHING/ANYONE ETC IN FCKING GENERAL AT ALL FFS I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A DAMN FUCK SHIT!!!!!!!!! I JUST DONT FUCKING WANT/DONT FCKING HAVE NEVER HAVE HAD NEVER FCKING WILL nor want to want/have it at all lmao why the fuck do i fucking have to jfc ANY FCKING 'DESIRE' NOR 'NEED' NOR 'INTEREST' NOR 'INTENTION' NOR ANY OTHER FCKING CRAP SHIT LIKE THAT TO 'LIKE' OR WHATEVER TF THAT MEANS NOR LITERALLY ANY OTHER 'VERB'|TYPE OF 'VERB'|'ACTION'|TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL. WHY THE FCK DO I HAVE TO/WANT TO WANT TO FFS. AS IVE 'SAID', I NEITHER "LIKE"/"LOVE" NOR "DISLIKE"/"HATE" ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING FOR FUCKS SAKE I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A SHIT FFS I LITERALLY JUST DONT!!!!!!!!! AND THATS BASICALLY SIMPLY FCKING IT AND ITS NOT BECAUSE OF ANY 'REASONS'/'CAUSES' AT ALL FFS]]/want to 'do' and or 'experience' and or 'know' and or 'enjoy' and or 'learn' and or 'kNoW hOw tO dO' and or 'explore' and or 'aChIeVe' and or 'dEsIrE' and or 'wIsH' and or blahblahetcetc whatever other 'verb'|type of 'verb'|'action'|type of 'action' and or whatever the fucking damn fuck in general//want to 'experience'|'live'|'do'|'enjoy'|'know' about|'explore'|'discover' etc 'tHiNgS'/'sOmEtHiNg' iN gEnErAl wHaTeVer It Is wHaTeVeR iTs AbOuT wHaTeVeR tYpE iT iS bUt sOmEtHinG/'lifE'/'tHe WoRlD'/'eXiStEnCe'/'pLaNeT eArTh'/'cOnScIoUSneSs' and or blablaetcetc whatever the fck in general """"""""uNlEsS I DonT bEcAuSe Of "sUfFeRiNg"/"pAiN"/"dEpReSsIoN"/"bAd LiFe"/"nIhIlISm"/"aNtInAtAlIsM"/"eFiLiSm"/"eMpTiNeSs"/"uNsAtIsFaCtIoN"/"lOw sElFeSteEm"/"aNxIeTy"/"mEntAl iLlNeSsEs iN gEnErAl"/"pHySiCaL iLlNeSsEs"/"dIsAbIlItY"/"hOpElEsSnEsS"/"lOnElInEsS"/"bAd fAmIlY"/"mEaNiNgLeSsNeSs"/"uNhApPiNeSs"/"uNfUlFiLlMeNt"/"sElF hAtReD"/"aBuSe"/"tRaUmA"/"bUlLyInG"/"hOmElEsSnEsS"/"sHaMe"/"rEgReT"/"gUiLt"/"bAd cIrCuMsTaNcEs" aNd Or bEcAuSe oF BlAhBlAheTceTc AnY oThEr rEaSoN/rEaSoNs/cAuSeS iN gEnErAl wHaTeVer It Is wHaTeVeR iTs AbOuT/rElAtEd tO wHaTeVeR tYpE iT iS eTc bUt bEcAuSe oF a 'ReAsOn'/'rEaSoNs'/'cAuSeS' iN gEnErAl yEs Or YeS, tHeRe hAs To/tHeRe MuSt Be A rEaSoN/rEaSoNs WhY yEs Or YeS, iT cAnT bE wItHoUt aNy ReAsOn At AlL/fOr No ReAsOn At AlL, tHaTs 'iMpOsSiBlE'"""""""???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY FOR FUCK'S SAKE WHY THE FCKING FUCK DO "I" YES OR FCKING YES HAVE TO WANT TO/WANT TO WANT TO ""uNlEsS I DonT bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN"" JUST BECAUSE "I" HAD NO DAMN CHOICE BUT TO 'EXIST'/'BE' 'BORN'//"BE"|"BECOME" 'SOMETHING'/'SOMEONE' AND 'WAS' 'BROUGHT' "HERE" (i just fucking simply DONT want NOR want to want never at all have wanted absolutely literally never at all ever will no fcking 'matter' what etc and its NOT because of any damn fcking reason at all to 'be' 'brought'/'experience' etcetc ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT DAMN FCKING ALL FFS ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT 'ONLY' "HERE"/TO "THIS" WHATEVER/HOWEVER THE FCK "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC NEITHER WHAT TYPE/KIND/FORM/WAY ETCETC "IT" IS/CAN BE NEITHER WHAT 'HAPPENS'/CAN 'HAPPEN' NEITHER EHAT 'THERE IS'/'THERE CAN BE' AND A LOOOOOOOOOONG ETC, BUT BASICALLY LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ENTIRELY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL. ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE FFS. JUST FCKING DONT NEVER AT ALL WILL FFS!!!!!!!!! WHATEVER/HOWEVER TF "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETCETC OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM/KIND/SORT ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL, NO 'MATTER' WHAT/WHERE TF "ITS" FROM/ABOUT/RELATED TO/IN/OF/'ASSOCIATED WITH ETCETC A LOOONG ETC, NO 'MATTER' WHAT 'HAPPENS'/CAN 'HAPPEN', NO 'MATTER' 'HOW' "IT" 'WORKS'/CAN 'WORK', NO 'MATTER' 'WHAT' TF "ITS"/CAN BE "ABOUT", NO 'MATTER' WHAT 'THINGS'/TYPES OF 'THINGS' ETC AND OR WHATEVER THE DAMN FCK IN GENERAL 'THERE IS'/'THERE CAN BE' AND LITERALLY BASICALLY A LOOOOOOOOOOOONG ETC FFS SIMPLY FCKING ANYTHING IN TOTAL ABSOLUTE GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL AND THATS BASICALLY LITERALLY SIMPLY IT WITHOT ANY DAMN REASON IN GENERAL AT ALL FFS THERE SIMPLY FCKING ARENT ANY AT ALL NEVER AT ALL HAVE BEEN ANY AND NEVER AT ALL EVER FCKING WILL)?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY THE DAMN FKCING FCK CANT "I" FCKING SIMPLY FCKING BASICALLY FCKING LITERALLY TRULY or whatever tf all those 'words' mean lmao NOT/DONT FCKING 'WANT'/GIVE A DAMN SHIT ABOUT ETC NOR WANT TO 'WANT'/GIVE A DAMN SHIT ABOUT ETCETCETC {NOR ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL/ANY OTHER 'VERB'/TYPE OF 'VERB'/'ACTION'/TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL AT ALL} ABSOLUTELY COMPLETELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING IN FCKING DAMN GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER "IT" IS/CAN BE EHATEVER FCKING TYPE/WAY/KIND/FORM ETCETC "IT" IS ETCETC AND A LOOOOONG ETC AND THATS FCKING BASICALLY LITERALLY TRUKY SIMPLY SERIOUSLY FCKING IT WITHOUT LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANY SINGLE FCKING DAMN 'REASON'/'REASONS'/'CAUSES' NOR ANY OTHER FCKING CRAP SHIT LIKE THAT IN GENERAL IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE AT ALL FFS????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY TF AM "I" FCKING OBLIGATED/FORCED TO AND IF I DONT """iTs bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN/rEaSoNs/cAuSeS""" FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY??????!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY THE FCK THERE HAS TO BE A FCKING DAMN REASON YES OR YES FOR FUCKS FUCKING SAKE WHY????????!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE. FUCKING. SIMPLY. LITERALLY. BASICALLY. ABSOLUTELY. TRULY. SERIOUSLY. (Or whatever tf those 'words' fucking mean lmao) ARENT. ANY AND LITERALLY NEVER FUCKING WILL FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!]]]]]]]]


How "iMpOrTaNt"/"nEcEsSaRy" or whatever the fuck that means is 'fasting' for this method actually? Does not fasting means 'failure'? I 'think' there have been 'cases'/'reports' of 'people' dying with sn without the fasting, but apparently it took much longer... In my 'case' Ill prepare (if ill be 'able' to get it... which is so fucking hard because of the fucking 'customs') a second dose/glass of SN in case I 'vomit' the first one so i guess it should still work even if I dont 'fast'. Even if my 'stomach' isn't fully empty, there would be more than enough SN absorbed' there because id have taken 2 'glasses' of 20g-25g and that's a lot, and if i take it with 'propanolol', i guess Id lose 'consciousness' much faster and it wouldnt have "mattered" or whatever the fuck "matter" means that my 'stomach' wasnt totally empty because apparently the propanolol is also 'used' to 'potentiate' the sn drink and 'make' it more 'lethal', so the 'combination' of both would make me 'pass out'/'lose' 'consciousness' 'quicker', thatd happen 'whether' I had fasted or not. If i 'follow' the 'regimen'/take the 'pills' needed for the method it should still 'work' even if I havent done the fasting

Oh lord. Dude I really don't understand your posts. They are not decipherable you make no sense. Clearly you are hurting but I can't help but let out a chuckle when I see your posts and all your ''''"""" '''''""""' ' ' " " absGbwP''''

it's ridiculous man and contributes nothing hah

If you need to vent I totally get it and maybe you're not even looking for a response from people. But if you write in a manner that isn't obnoxious there's plenty of people that will help and listen.

 

[gus.nixon]

But what if I cant fast at all? (Unless its "night time"/'while' 'sleeping', but even at that time itd be extremely risky to attempt/"ctb" ["catch" the "bus" to ABSOLUTE TOTAL ETERNAL PLAIN PURE ENDLESS COMPLETE NOTHINGNESS/NONEXISTENCE. NOT TO "SOMETHING"/AN "AFTERLIFE"] i could get 'caught' anytime in the 'middle' of the 'attempt') In my case I just cant do that, it's very risky and suspicious and basically just impossible because I dont live alone and my 'parents' 'would' 'ask' me why i don't 'eat' anything and would suspect a lot and Id be forced to anyway, unless i make some 'excuse' but i dont know if itd work. I know 'fasting' is 'recommended' but i cant do it because it's risky, and at 'night time' while my parents are 'sleeping' is very risky too anyway and to attempt/try to "ctb" is 'extremely' risky and suspicious too so even if id have fasted, actually attempting WITHOUT getting 'caught' at all would be so fucking extremely hard and risky because 'vomiting' happens whether you take the 'antiemetic' or not and theyd 'hear' me immediately because my 'room' is right next to theirs and well, anyways if i 'succeeded' (i FCKING WISH lol or whatever the fuck "wish" means) my 'parents'/'family' would be the first ones who 'see'/'find' the 'dead body'/'remaining' 'flesh' and would get 'extremely' 'traumatized'/'shocked' and theyd be even more 'hurt'/'devastated' and their 'pain' would be mUcH 'wOrSe' and blaaahblaaahblaaaahetcetc all that and well, i 'guess' i dont want that for them/them to 'go through' that [but that doesnt mean ill never ctb/that i dont want to simply just die/not exist at all, someday i definitely will, its just that if i do it 'here' in my 'parents' 'house', theyd be the first ones who 'see'/'find' my 'body'/'dead body'/'carcass' and that would 'traumatize'/'hurt'/'shock' them 'immensely'/'extremely' 'a lot' or whatever tf all those 'words' mean, itd be 'too much' for them to 'see' the 'dead body' and would have at the same time to 'deal' with the 'loss'/the 'fact' that im dead and 'they' wont see "me" never again and blahblahblah all that. BUT I JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO HAVE TO FCKING 'WORK' AND 'WAIT' SO MANY FCKING 'YEARS' 'UNTIL' I FINALLY HAVE A FCKING 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT'/'PLACE' TO FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/FINALLY DIE AND NOT EXIST AT A "WITHOUT" ANY 'RISKS' "SUCCESSFULLY"/"RELIABLY" NO FFS THATD TAKE MANY FCKING YEARS FFS FFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKK BUT ITS EITHER THAT OR 'DO' IT 'HERE' AND 'RISK' IT 'A LOT' AND IF 'I' ATTEMPT "SUCCESSFULLY" {I FCKING WISH LOL, 'sorry' for them but i just dont want to 'exist' at all in general nor 'experience' etcetc in general ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING!!!!!!!! WHATEVER/HOWEVER TF "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC I SIMPLY JUST DONT FFS. i simply just dont give a damn shit about/dont 'want'/dont have any damn 'interest' for etcetc absolutely literally basically totally completely ANYTHING in general at all ffs i simply just fcking dont!!!!!!!!!! fucking sigh... WHAT THE DAMN FUCK I 'DO'!!!!!!!!!!! FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!} ILL 'TRAUMATIZE'/'SHOCK' MY 'PARENTS'/'FAMILY' AND BLAHBLAHETC ALL THAT CRAP. FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. THE FCKING 'INEVITABLE' "gUiLt" IS SO FUCKING DAMN FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!!!! (well its not actually "gUiLt" or whatever tf that means, but well, 'feeling' "bAd"/"sAd" for them because 'they' 'love'/'want' me a lot and blahblah and would be very 'devastated'/'hurt'/'shocked'/'traumatized' if I die and theyd 'cry/'suffer' a lot and blaaahblaaah all that, sigh...) I SHOULDNT JUST NOT GIVE A DAMN FUCK FOR FUCKS SAKE, AS "cRuEl"/"sElFiSh" or whatever tf that means AS THAT 'SOUNDS'!!!!!!!!!!!! im very 'sorry' for them but "this", 'regardless'/no fcking 'matter' 'what'/'how' etc the fck "it" is/can be, what 'type'/'way'/'kind'/'form' ETCETC and or whatever tf in general is/can be etcetc and a looooong etc in general SHOULDNT be an obligation for fuck's sake!!!!!!!!!!] BUT FOR FUCKS SAKE I JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO HAVE TO FCKING 'WORK' OR WHATEVER TF THAT FUCKING ""pOsItIvE"" GARBAGE BULLSHIT CRAP SHIT or whatever the fck those 'words' mean TO 'eArN'/'sAvE' 'mOnEy' OR WHATEVER TF THAT CRAP IS/MEANS FOR A DAMN FCKING 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' OR WHATEVER TF THAT IS/MEANS SO I COULD FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/"CTB"/'LEAVE' THE 'MEAT CARCASS'/FINALLY DIE/FINALLY NOT EXIST AT ALL "SUCCESSFULLY"/"RELIABLY"/"SAFELY" ""WITHOUT ANY"" 'RISKS' ETC NOR HAVE TO FCKING 'WAIT' FOR 'WHO' THE DAMN FCK 'KNOWS' HOW MANY 'YEARS' UNTIL I FCKING FINALLY HAVE 'eNoUgH' 'eArNeD'/'sAvEd' 'mOnEy' FOR THE FCKING 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' WHERE I COULD FINALLY ATTEMPT WITHOUT ANY 'WORRIES'/'RISKS' OF GETTING 'CAUGHT'/'FAILING'/'TRAUMATIZING'|'SHOCKING' MY 'PARENTS'|'FAMILY'/NOT HAVING 'ENOUGH' 'TIME' TO ATTEMPT 'SUCCESSFULLY' AND FINALLY DIE WITHOUT BEING FCKING 'INTERRUPTED' BY ANYONE NOR ANY OTHER 'RISKS' IN GENERAL AT ALL AND I'D FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO FCKING 'BUY'/'HAVE' A 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' TO FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/DIE/NOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR ENTIRELY COMPLETELY TOTALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR ALL LITERAL ABSOLUTE TOTAL PURE COMPLETE ETERNITY/NOT 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING ANYONE ANY DAMN 'WAY' ETC ANYWHERE ETCETC IN FCKING GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL "WITHOUT ANY" 'RISKS' ETC AND HAVING AS MUCH 'TIME' AS I 'WANT'/'NEED' or whatever tf those 'words'/'verbs' mean lmao TO 'pRoPeRlY' 'pRePaRe' THE ATTEMPT AND THE 'ATTEMPT' 'ITSELF' AND I WOULDNT HAVE TO FCKING 'WORRY' ABOUT BEING 'FOUND'/GETTING 'CAUGHT' BY MY 'PARENTS'/ANY OTHER 'FAMILY MEMBER' or whatever tf that means/'SOMEONE' IN GENERAL BUT JESUS FCKING CHRIST THAT WOULD FCKING TAKE MANY FCKING 'YEARS' OF FCKING 'WAITING' AND SO MUCH FCKING 'eFfOrT'/'mOtIvAtiOn'/'wIlL' AND ALL THAT FCKING """pOsItIvE""" BULLSHIT GARBAGE CRAP SHIT AND I JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO FFS I SIMPLY JUST DONT. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK WHY IS IT SO DAMN FCKING HARD TO FINALLY DIE/NOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR ENTIRELY COMPLETELY TOTALLY BASICALLY LITERALLY ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY WHY IS IT SO FCKING GODDAMN DAMN FCKING HARD WHY IS "THIS" AN OBLIGATION FOR FUCK'S SAKE WHY IS "LIVING"/"EXISTING"/"EXPERIENCING" ETCETC AND OR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL/"CARING ABOUT" IN GENERAL/"HAVING 'INTEREST' FOR"|"WANTING"|"LIKING"|"WISHING"|"DESIRING"/""WANTING TO 'DO' AND OR 'KNOW' AND OR 'ENJOY' AND OR WHATEVER THE FUCKING DAMN FUCK|ANY OTHER 'VERB'|TYPE OF 'VERB'|'ACTION'|TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETC AND OR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL"" or whatever tf all that crap fcking means IN GENERAL ETCETCETC AND OR WHATEVER TF AND WANTING TO YES OR FCKING YES ""uNlEsS i DoNt BeCaUsE oF a 'ReAsOn'/'rEaSoNs'/'cAuSeS'"" A FCKING OBLIGATION FFS WHY???????!!!!!!!!! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY TF DO "I" YES OR YES HAVE TO HAVE A FCKING 'REASON'/'REASON WHY'/'CAUSE'/'EXPLANATION' AND OR WHATEVER OTHER CRAP SHIT LIKE THAT????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ***"I" DIDNT 'ASK' TO 'EXIST'/'BE' 'BORN' OR WHATEVER TF THAT MEANS NOR 'BE' 'BROUGHT' ABSOLUTELY ANYWHERE/TO ANYTHING AT FCKING ALL NOR 'eXpErIeNcE'/'pArTiCiPaTe' iN/'lIvE'/'dO'/'cArE aBoUt'/'eNjOy'/'eXpLoRe"/'kNoW' aBoUt/'lEaRn' aBoUt/'dIsCoVeR'/'bE pArT' oF/'lIkE'/'vAlUe'/'sEe'/'pErCeIvE'/'aPpReCiAtE'/'iNhAbIt' NOR ETCETCBLAHBLAHBLAH ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER FCKING 'VERB'/TYPE OF 'VERB'/'ACTION'/TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETCETC NOR BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN FCKING GENERAL AT DAMN ALL/NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY DEFINITELY ENTIRELY 'UTTERLY' or whatever the fuck that means too lmao 'PRACTICALLY' ANYTHING IN ABSOLUTE FCKING TOTAL LITERAL GENERAL AT DAMN FCKING ALL NO 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW TF "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC, OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM/KIND ETC IN GENERAL AT ALL NOR LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE AT ALL, WHATEVER THE DAMN FCK "ITS"/"IT" CAN BE FCKING 'FROM'/'ABOUT'/'RELATED' TO/'ASSOCIATED' WITH NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENER NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING FCKING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL AND BASICALLY AN 'INFINITE' ETC/A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG ETC, BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING/WHERE FFS ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! **SO IF "I" SIMPLY JUST DONT FCKING 'WANT' NOR FCKING 'NEED' ETCETF [NOR FCKING WANT TO WANT TO!!!!!!!] NOR HAVE ABSOLUTELY ANY "dEsIrE" NOR "iNtErEsT" NOR "nEeD" NOR "cUrIoSiTY" NOR "aTtRaCtIoN" or whatever the fuck all that fucking crap shit means lmfao NOR BASICALLY LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER FCKING CRAP FUCK TRASH SHIT GARBAGE or whatever the fuck all those 'words' mean lmao LIKE THAT IN GENERAL 'FOR'|'ABOUT'|'IN' [NOR FCKING WANT TO 'HAVE' IT NOR WANT TO WANT TO FCKING HAVE IT] AND JUST FCKING SIMPLY DONT FCKING GIVE A GODDAMN FCKING SHIT ABOUT [NOR WANT TO!!!!] ETCETCETC AND SIMPLY FCKING LITERALLY FCKING ABSOLUTELY FCKING BASICALLY FCKING INTENTIONALLY FCKING TRULY FCKING SERIOUSLY or whatever the fcking goddamn damn fcking fck shit all those 'words' mean lmfaooooooo JUST FCKING SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT/NOT FCKING WANT TO 'EXPERIENCE'/'LIVE'/'DO'/'SEE'/'ENJOY'/'EXPLORE'/'DISCOVER'/'KNOW' ABOUT/'PERCEIVE'/'INHABIT'/'"BE" IN/'LIVE' IN/'EXIST' IN/'PARTICIPATE' IN/'BE PART' OF/'BELONG' TO/'BELONG' IN/'TAKE PART' IN or whatever tf all those 'verbs'/'words' fckinf mean lmao ETCETCETCBLAHBLAHBLAH NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL/NOR LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER 'VERB'/'ACTION' ETC OF ANY TYPE NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY COMPLETELY BASICALLY LITERALLY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN FCKING GENERAL AT DAMN ABSOLUTE TOTAL LITERAL ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER THE FCKING FCK "IT" IS/CAN BE NEITHER WHAT TYPE/KIND/FORM ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF 'THERE IS'/'THERE CAN BE' NOR WHATEVER TF 'HAPPENS'/CAN 'HAPPEN' NOR WHATEVER TF "ITS"/CAN BE "ABOUT" NOR HOWEVER TF FCKING "WORKS"/CAN "WORK" NOR BLAHBLAHETCETC A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG ETC AND THAT'S FCKING IT FFS SIMPLY FCKING BASICALLY LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY 'UTTERLY' EXACTLY PRACTICALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING AT DAMN ALL IN FCKING TOTAL ABSOLUTE GENERAL FFS SIMPLY FCKING ANYTHING AT ALL!!!!! I SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT NOR WANR TO WANT TO NEVER HAVE HAD AT ALL NEVER FCKING WILL AND THATS FCKING IT AND ITS ABSOLUTELY NOT BECAUSE OF ANY DAMN REASON AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY TYPE AT ALL NOR RELATED TO/ABOUT ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING FFS!!!!! I SIMPLY BASICALLY LITERALLY SERIOUSLY TRULY ACTUALLY HONESTLY INTENTIONALLY or whatever tf all those 'words' mean i just dont give a damn shit jfc lol, or whatever "lol" means too JUST FCKING DONT FCKINF 'WANT'/GIVE A FUCK SHIT ABOUT NOR FCKING WANT TO FCKING 'WANT'/GIVE A FCK SHIT ABOUT NOR ETCETCETC LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY COMPLETELY BASICALLY LITERALLY ANYTHING AT TOTAL DAMN ABSOLUTE ALL IN FCKING DAMN GENERAL AND THATS FCKING IT **I SIMPLY JUST FUCKING DONT [NOR WANT TO AT FCKING ALL AND NEVER WILL, WHY TF DO "I" FCKING HAVE TO YES OR FCKING YES FFS LET JUST NOT FUCKING WANT/GIVE A GODDAMN
FUCKING SHIT ABOUT ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING AT FCKING DAMN GODDAMN ALL IN FCKING GENERAL NO FUCKING 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW THE FCK "IT" IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/KIND/FORM ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL NOR A LOOOOONG ETC AND THATS FCKING IT WITHOUT ANY GODDAMN DAMN FCKING REASON/REASONS/CAUSES/EXPLANATIONS OR WHATEVER TF THAT CRAP SHIT MEANS NOR ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE BULLSHIT CRAP TRASH SHIT LIKE THAT IN GENERAL AT DAMN FCKING ALL OF ANY FCKING TYPE AT ALL IN GENERAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SHOULDN'T BE FCKING FORCED/OBLIGATED TO JUST BECAUSE OF THE 'FACT' THAT "I" HAD LITERALLY NO 'CHOICE' BUT TO 'EXIST'/'BE' 'BORN'/"BE"|"BECOME" IN GENERAL "sOmEtHiNg"/"sOmEoNe" AND 'WAS' "BROUGHT" "HERE"/TO "THIS" AND 'WAS' FORCED/'PUT' 'INSIDE' S 'HUMAN BODY'/'BODY'/'BRAIN'/'MIND' IN GENERAL OR WHATEVER TF THAT CRAP BULLSHIT FCKING IS /MEANS FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LITERALLY JUST FCKING SIMPLY DONT FCKING WANT ETC ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING AT ALL IN FCKING GENERAL NOR WANT TO AT ALL AND THATS FCKING IT FOR FUCK'S SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!] NEVER AT FCKINF ALL HAVE HAD NEVER AT DAMN ALL EVER FUCKING WILL AND THATS LITERALLY SIMPLY FCKING BASICALLY IT AND I FCKING SHOULDNT BE FCKING 'OBLIGATED'/'FORCED'/'PRESSURED' TO 'AGAINST' MY FUCKING 'WILL'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL ***THAT SHOULD ((MUST!!!!!!!!! AND I FCKING SHOULDNT HAVE TO FCKING 'GIVE' ANY FUCKING 'EXPLANATIONS', THERE ARENT ANY/I DONT FCKING HAVE ANY!!!!!!!! NOR HAVE ANY FCKING GODDAMN DAMN 'rEaSoNs' wHy/'cAuSeS' NOR LITERALLY ANY OTHER FCKING BULLSHIT GARBAGE SHIT CRAP FUCK LIKE THAT IN GENERAL!!!!!!!! THERE FCKING ARENT ANY AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY TYPE NOR 'RELATED TO'/'ABOUT'/'ASSOCIATED' WITH ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING IN FCKING GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL FFS!!!!!!!!!)) BE MORE THAN FUCKING 'ENOUGH' FOR 'ME TO COMPLETELY TOTALLY ENTIRELY LITERALLY HAVE THE ABSOLUTE TOTAL RIGHT TO DIE/NOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR COMPLETELY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY LITERALLY ENTIRELY ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR ALL LITERAL TOTAL ABSOLUTE 'ETERNITY'/FINALLY SIMPLY NOT FUCKING 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING NOR ANYONE ANY DAMN FCKING 'WAY'/'FORM'/'TYPE'/'SHAPE' ETCETC NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL ANYWHERE ETCETC IN ABSOLUTE TOTAL GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL ANYTIME/WHENEVER I WANT TO AND IF I SIMPLY LITERALLY BASICALLY JUST WANT TO AND THAT'S FCKING BASICALLY IT WITHOUT HAVING TO FCKING BE ANY GODDAMN FCKING 'REASON' NOR ANY 'CAUSE' NOR ANY FCKING 'EXPLANATION' NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE BULLSHIT CRAP LIKE THAT IN GENERAL IN GENERAL AT FCKING ALL OF ABSOLUTELY ANY
TYPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


[[[[[[[for fucks sake why is it so fucking hard to finally 'leave'/'get out' of/'ditch' the 'meat sack'/'flesh' and finally die/not exist at all/disappear entirely completely literally totally eternally forever and NOT 'be' absolutely literally basically totally completely ANYTHING nor ANYONE nor ANYWHERE etcetc in general at fcking all for fucks sake why is it so fcking hard????!!!!! Why is "this" a fcking obligation that i yes or yes have to 'want'/'care about'/be 'interested' of/'like' [[I NEITHER "LIKE"/"LOVE" NOR "DISLIKE"/"HATE" ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY BASICALLY ANYTHING/ANYONE ETC IN FCKING GENERAL AT ALL FFS I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A DAMN FUCK SHIT!!!!!!!!! I JUST DONT FUCKING WANT/DONT FCKING HAVE NEVER HAVE HAD NEVER FCKING WILL nor want to want/have it at all lmao why the fuck do i fucking have to jfc ANY FCKING 'DESIRE' NOR 'NEED' NOR 'INTEREST' NOR 'INTENTION' NOR ANY OTHER FCKING CRAP SHIT LIKE THAT TO 'LIKE' OR WHATEVER TF THAT MEANS NOR LITERALLY ANY OTHER 'VERB'|TYPE OF 'VERB'|'ACTION'|TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL. WHY THE FCK DO I HAVE TO/WANT TO WANT TO FFS. AS IVE 'SAID', I NEITHER "LIKE"/"LOVE" NOR "DISLIKE"/"HATE" ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING FOR FUCKS SAKE I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A SHIT FFS I LITERALLY JUST DONT!!!!!!!!! AND THATS BASICALLY SIMPLY FCKING IT AND ITS NOT BECAUSE OF ANY 'REASONS'/'CAUSES' AT ALL FFS]]/want to 'do' and or 'experience' and or 'know' and or 'enjoy' and or 'learn' and or 'kNoW hOw tO dO' and or 'explore' and or 'aChIeVe' and or 'dEsIrE' and or 'wIsH' and or blahblahetcetc whatever other 'verb'|type of 'verb'|'action'|type of 'action' and or whatever the fucking damn fuck in general//want to 'experience'|'live'|'do'|'enjoy'|'know' about|'explore'|'discover' etc 'tHiNgS'/'sOmEtHiNg' iN gEnErAl wHaTeVer It Is wHaTeVeR iTs AbOuT wHaTeVeR tYpE iT iS bUt sOmEtHinG/'lifE'/'tHe WoRlD'/'eXiStEnCe'/'pLaNeT eArTh'/'cOnScIoUSneSs' and or blablaetcetc whatever the fck in general """"""""uNlEsS I DonT bEcAuSe Of "sUfFeRiNg"/"pAiN"/"dEpReSsIoN"/"bAd LiFe"/"nIhIlISm"/"aNtInAtAlIsM"/"eFiLiSm"/"eMpTiNeSs"/"uNsAtIsFaCtIoN"/"lOw sElFeSteEm"/"aNxIeTy"/"mEntAl iLlNeSsEs iN gEnErAl"/"pHySiCaL iLlNeSsEs"/"dIsAbIlItY"/"hOpElEsSnEsS"/"lOnElInEsS"/"bAd fAmIlY"/"mEaNiNgLeSsNeSs"/"uNhApPiNeSs"/"uNfUlFiLlMeNt"/"sElF hAtReD"/"aBuSe"/"tRaUmA"/"bUlLyInG"/"hOmElEsSnEsS"/"sHaMe"/"rEgReT"/"gUiLt"/"bAd cIrCuMsTaNcEs" aNd Or bEcAuSe oF BlAhBlAheTceTc AnY oThEr rEaSoN/rEaSoNs/cAuSeS iN gEnErAl wHaTeVer It Is wHaTeVeR iTs AbOuT/rElAtEd tO wHaTeVeR tYpE iT iS eTc bUt bEcAuSe oF a 'ReAsOn'/'rEaSoNs'/'cAuSeS' iN gEnErAl yEs Or YeS, tHeRe hAs To/tHeRe MuSt Be A rEaSoN/rEaSoNs WhY yEs Or YeS, iT cAnT bE wItHoUt aNy ReAsOn At AlL/fOr No ReAsOn At AlL, tHaTs 'iMpOsSiBlE'"""""""???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY FOR FUCK'S SAKE WHY THE FCKING FUCK DO "I" YES OR FCKING YES HAVE TO WANT TO/WANT TO WANT TO ""uNlEsS I DonT bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN"" JUST BECAUSE "I" HAD NO DAMN CHOICE BUT TO 'EXIST'/'BE' 'BORN'//"BE"|"BECOME" 'SOMETHING'/'SOMEONE' AND 'WAS' 'BROUGHT' "HERE" (i just fucking simply DONT want NOR want to want never at all have wanted absolutely literally never at all ever will no fcking 'matter' what etc and its NOT because of any damn fcking reason at all to 'be' 'brought'/'experience' etcetc ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT DAMN FCKING ALL FFS ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT 'ONLY' "HERE"/TO "THIS" WHATEVER/HOWEVER THE FCK "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC NEITHER WHAT TYPE/KIND/FORM/WAY ETCETC "IT" IS/CAN BE NEITHER WHAT 'HAPPENS'/CAN 'HAPPEN' NEITHER EHAT 'THERE IS'/'THERE CAN BE' AND A LOOOOOOOOOONG ETC, BUT BASICALLY LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ENTIRELY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL. ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE FFS. JUST FCKING DONT NEVER AT ALL WILL FFS!!!!!!!!! WHATEVER/HOWEVER TF "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETCETC OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM/KIND/SORT ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL, NO 'MATTER' WHAT/WHERE TF "ITS" FROM/ABOUT/RELATED TO/IN/OF/'ASSOCIATED WITH ETCETC A LOOONG ETC, NO 'MATTER' WHAT 'HAPPENS'/CAN 'HAPPEN', NO 'MATTER' 'HOW' "IT" 'WORKS'/CAN 'WORK', NO 'MATTER' 'WHAT' TF "ITS"/CAN BE "ABOUT", NO 'MATTER' WHAT 'THINGS'/TYPES OF 'THINGS' ETC AND OR WHATEVER THE DAMN FCK IN GENERAL 'THERE IS'/'THERE CAN BE' AND LITERALLY BASICALLY A LOOOOOOOOOOOONG ETC FFS SIMPLY FCKING ANYTHING IN TOTAL ABSOLUTE GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL AND THATS BASICALLY LITERALLY SIMPLY IT WITHOT ANY DAMN REASON IN GENERAL AT ALL FFS THERE SIMPLY FCKING ARENT ANY AT ALL NEVER AT ALL HAVE BEEN ANY AND NEVER AT ALL EVER FCKING WILL)?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY THE DAMN FKCING FCK CANT "I" FCKING SIMPLY FCKING BASICALLY FCKING LITERALLY TRULY or whatever tf all those 'words' mean lmao NOT/DONT FCKING 'WANT'/GIVE A DAMN SHIT ABOUT ETC NOR WANT TO 'WANT'/GIVE A DAMN SHIT ABOUT ETCETCETC {NOR ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL/ANY OTHER 'VERB'/TYPE OF 'VERB'/'ACTION'/TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL AT ALL} ABSOLUTELY COMPLETELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING IN FCKING DAMN GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER "IT" IS/CAN BE EHATEVER FCKING TYPE/WAY/KIND/FORM ETCETC "IT" IS ETCETC AND A LOOOOONG ETC AND THATS FCKING BASICALLY LITERALLY TRUKY SIMPLY SERIOUSLY FCKING IT WITHOUT LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANY SINGLE FCKING DAMN 'REASON'/'REASONS'/'CAUSES' NOR ANY OTHER FCKING CRAP SHIT LIKE THAT IN GENERAL IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE AT ALL FFS????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY TF AM "I" FCKING OBLIGATED/FORCED TO AND IF I DONT """iTs bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN/rEaSoNs/cAuSeS""" FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY??????!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY THE FCK THERE HAS TO BE A FCKING DAMN REASON YES OR YES FOR FUCKS FUCKING SAKE WHY????????!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE. FUCKING. SIMPLY. LITERALLY. BASICALLY. ABSOLUTELY. TRULY. SERIOUSLY. (Or whatever tf those 'words' fucking mean lmao) ARENT. ANY AND LITERALLY NEVER FUCKING WILL FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!]]]]]]]]


How "iMpOrTaNt"/"nEcEsSaRy" or whatever the fuck that means is 'fasting' for this method actually? Does not fasting means 'failure'? I 'think' there have been 'cases'/'reports' of 'people' dying with sn without the fasting, but apparently it took much longer... In my 'case' Ill prepare (if ill be 'able' to get it... which is so fucking hard because of the fucking 'customs') a second dose/glass of SN in case I 'vomit' the first one so i guess it should still work even if I dont 'fast'. Even if my 'stomach' isn't fully empty, there would be more than enough SN absorbed' there because id have taken 2 'glasses' of 20g-25g and that's a lot, and if i take it with 'propanolol', i guess Id lose 'consciousness' much faster and it wouldnt have "mattered" or whatever the fuck "matter" means that my 'stomach' wasnt totally empty because apparently the propanolol is also 'used' to 'potentiate' the sn drink and 'make' it more 'lethal', so the 'combination' of both would make me 'pass out'/'lose' 'consciousness' 'quicker', thatd happen 'whether' I had fasted or not. If i 'follow' the 'regimen'/take the 'pills' needed for the method it should still 'work' even if I havent done the fasting

So you're saying pizza is ok?

 

[TessB]

You don't need anything other than the SN and water. Everything else just makes the process smoother and possibly more peaceful.
Sometimes it doesn't even make a huge difference if you take all recommeded medications or nothing.

But what about an anti-emetic? I feel like throwing up is pretty likely swallowing something like that and then there's the risk the SN is just wasted. That would be a bummer.

 

[sadworld]

But what about an anti-emetic? I feel like throwing up is pretty likely swallowing something like that and then there's the risk the SN is just wasted. That would be a bummer.

It doesn't make a huge difference. People still throw up even with an antiemetic. Use it if you have it but it works without one as well.
If you throw up too fast you can still take another SN dose.

 

[D11FER]

I was meant to be going on the 21st of this month but I've made a promise to a friend to go to court to be a character reference on the 2nd March so had to put my plans off.
ive only got SN and water can't get the other bits so will just go for it and fingers crossed it works.

 

[Spitfire]

So you're saying pizza is ok?

I am actually having a slice of pizza as I type right now, Lol hahaha, so I hope so? Pizza for breakfast. I got three boxes of leftover pizza in my room and I think pizza is okay, if you ask me.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

But what if I cant fast at all? (Unless its "night time"/'while' 'sleeping', but even at that time itd be extremely risky to attempt/"ctb" ["catch" the "bus" to ABSOLUTE TOTAL ETERNAL PLAIN PURE ENDLESS COMPLETE NOTHINGNESS/NONEXISTENCE. NOT TO "SOMETHING"/AN "AFTERLIFE"] i could get 'caught' anytime in the 'middle' of the 'attempt') In my case I just cant do that, it's very risky and suspicious and basically just impossible because I dont live alone and my 'parents' 'would' 'ask' me why i don't 'eat' anything and would suspect a lot and Id be forced to anyway, unless i make some 'excuse' but i dont know if itd work. I know 'fasting' is 'recommended' but i cant do it because it's risky, and at 'night time' while my parents are 'sleeping' is very risky too anyway and to attempt/try to "ctb" is 'extremely' risky and suspicious too so even if id have fasted, actually attempting WITHOUT getting 'caught' at all would be so fucking extremely hard and risky because 'vomiting' happens whether you take the 'antiemetic' or not and theyd 'hear' me immediately because my 'room' is right next to theirs and well, anyways if i 'succeeded' (i FCKING WISH lol or whatever the fuck "wish" means) my 'parents'/'family' would be the first ones who 'see'/'find' the 'dead body'/'remaining' 'flesh' and would get 'extremely' 'traumatized'/'shocked' and theyd be even more 'hurt'/'devastated' and their 'pain' would be mUcH 'wOrSe' and blaaahblaaahblaaaahetcetc all that and well, i 'guess' i dont want that for them/them to 'go through' that [but that doesnt mean ill never ctb/that i dont want to simply just die/not exist at all, someday i definitely will, its just that if i do it 'here' in my 'parents' 'house', theyd be the first ones who 'see'/'find' my 'body'/'dead body'/'carcass' and that would 'traumatize'/'hurt'/'shock' them 'immensely'/'extremely' 'a lot' or whatever tf all those 'words' mean, itd be 'too much' for them to 'see' the 'dead body' and would have at the same time to 'deal' with the 'loss'/the 'fact' that im dead and 'they' wont see "me" never again and blahblahblah all that. BUT I JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO HAVE TO FCKING 'WORK' AND 'WAIT' SO MANY FCKING 'YEARS' 'UNTIL' I FINALLY HAVE A FCKING 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT'/'PLACE' TO FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/FINALLY DIE AND NOT EXIST AT A "WITHOUT" ANY 'RISKS' "SUCCESSFULLY"/"RELIABLY" NO FFS THATD TAKE MANY FCKING YEARS FFS FFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKK BUT ITS EITHER THAT OR 'DO' IT 'HERE' AND 'RISK' IT 'A LOT' AND IF 'I' ATTEMPT "SUCCESSFULLY" {I FCKING WISH LOL, 'sorry' for them but i just dont want to 'exist' at all in general nor 'experience' etcetc in general ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING!!!!!!!! WHATEVER/HOWEVER TF "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC I SIMPLY JUST DONT FFS. i simply just dont give a damn shit about/dont 'want'/dont have any damn 'interest' for etcetc absolutely literally basically totally completely ANYTHING in general at all ffs i simply just fcking dont!!!!!!!!!! fucking sigh... WHAT THE DAMN FUCK I 'DO'!!!!!!!!!!! FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!} ILL 'TRAUMATIZE'/'SHOCK' MY 'PARENTS'/'FAMILY' AND BLAHBLAHETC ALL THAT CRAP. FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. THE FCKING 'INEVITABLE' "gUiLt" IS SO FUCKING DAMN FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!!!! (well its not actually "gUiLt" or whatever tf that means, but well, 'feeling' "bAd"/"sAd" for them because 'they' 'love'/'want' me a lot and blahblah and would be very 'devastated'/'hurt'/'shocked'/'traumatized' if I die and theyd 'cry/'suffer' a lot and blaaahblaaah all that, sigh...) I SHOULD JUST NOT GIVE A DAMN FUCK FOR FUCKS SAKE, AS "cRuEl"/"sElFiSh" or whatever tf that means AS THAT 'SOUNDS'!!!!!!!!!!!! im very 'sorry' for them but "this", 'regardless'/no fcking 'matter' 'what'/'how' etc the fck "it" is/can be, what 'type'/'way'/'kind'/'form' ETCETC and or whatever tf in general is/can be etcetc and a looooong etc in general SHOULDNT be an obligation for fuck's sake!!!!!!!!!!] BUT FOR FUCKS SAKE I JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO HAVE TO FCKING 'WORK' OR WHATEVER TF THAT FUCKING ""pOsItIvE"" GARBAGE BULLSHIT CRAP SHIT or whatever the fck those 'words' mean TO 'eArN'/'sAvE' 'mOnEy' OR WHATEVER TF THAT CRAP IS/MEANS FOR A DAMN FCKING 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' OR WHATEVER TF THAT IS/MEANS SO I COULD FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/"CTB"/'LEAVE' THE 'MEAT CARCASS'/FINALLY DIE/FINALLY NOT EXIST AT ALL "SUCCESSFULLY"/"RELIABLY"/"SAFELY" ""WITHOUT ANY"" 'RISKS' ETC NOR HAVE TO FCKING 'WAIT' FOR 'WHO' THE DAMN FCK 'KNOWS' HOW MANY 'YEARS' UNTIL I FCKING FINALLY HAVE 'eNoUgH' 'eArNeD'/'sAvEd' 'mOnEy' FOR THE FCKING 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' WHERE I COULD FINALLY ATTEMPT WITHOUT ANY 'WORRIES'/'RISKS' OF GETTING 'CAUGHT'/'FAILING'/'TRAUMATIZING'|'SHOCKING' MY 'PARENTS'|'FAMILY'/NOT HAVING 'ENOUGH' 'TIME' TO ATTEMPT 'SUCCESSFULLY' AND FINALLY DIE WITHOUT BEING FCKING 'INTERRUPTED' BY ANYONE NOR ANY OTHER 'RISKS' IN GENERAL AT ALL AND I'D FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO FCKING 'BUY'/'HAVE' A 'HOUSE'/'APARTMENT' TO FINALLY BE 'ABLE' TO ATTEMPT/DIE/NOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR ENTIRELY COMPLETELY TOTALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR ALL LITERAL ABSOLUTE TOTAL PURE COMPLETE ETERNITY/NOT 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING ANYONE ANY DAMN 'WAY' ETC ANYWHERE ETCETC IN FCKING GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL "WITHOUT ANY" 'RISKS' ETC AND HAVING AS MUCH 'TIME' AS I 'WANT'/'NEED' or whatever tf those 'words'/'verbs' mean lmao TO 'pRoPeRlY' 'pRePaRe' THE ATTEMPT AND THE 'ATTEMPT' 'ITSELF' AND I WOULDNT HAVE TO FCKING 'WORRY' ABOUT BEING 'FOUND'/GETTING 'CAUGHT' BY MY 'PARENTS'/ANY OTHER 'FAMILY MEMBER' or whatever tf that means/'SOMEONE' IN GENERAL BUT JESUS FCKING CHRIST THAT WOULD FCKING TAKE MANY FCKING 'YEARS' OF FCKING 'WAITING' AND SO MUCH FCKING 'eFfOrT'/'mOtIvAtiOn'/'wIlL' AND ALL THAT FCKING """pOsItIvE""" BULLSHIT GARBAGE CRAP SHIT AND I JUST DONT FCKING WANT TO FFS I SIMPLY JUST DONT. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK WHY IS IT SO DAMN FCKING HARD TO FINALLY DIE/NOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR ENTIRELY COMPLETELY TOTALLY BASICALLY LITERALLY ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY WHY IS IT SO FCKING GODDAMN DAMN FCKING HARD WHY IS "THIS" AN OBLIGATION FOR FUCK'S SAKE WHY IS "LIVING"/"EXISTING"/"EXPERIENCING" ETCETC AND OR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL/"CARING ABOUT" IN GENERAL/"HAVING 'INTEREST' FOR"|"WANTING"|"LIKING"|"WISHING"|"DESIRING"/""WANTING TO 'DO' AND OR 'KNOW' AND OR 'ENJOY' AND OR WHATEVER THE FUCKING DAMN FUCK|ANY OTHER 'VERB'|TYPE OF 'VERB'|'ACTION'|TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETC AND OR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL"" or whatever tf all that crap fcking means IN GENERAL ETCETCETC AND OR WHATEVER TF AND WANTING TO YES OR FCKING YES ""uNlEsS i DoNt BeCaUsE oF a 'ReAsOn'/'rEaSoNs'/'cAuSeS'"" A FCKING OBLIGATION FFS WHY???????!!!!!!!!! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY TF DO "I" YES OR YES HAVE TO HAVE A FCKING 'REASON'/'REASON WHY'/'CAUSE'/'EXPLANATION' AND OR WHATEVER OTHER CRAP SHIT LIKE THAT????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ***"I" DIDNT 'ASK' TO 'EXIST'/'BE' 'BORN' OR WHATEVER TF THAT MEANS NOR 'BE' 'BROUGHT' ABSOLUTELY ANYWHERE/TO ANYTHING AT FCKING ALL NOR 'eXpErIeNcE'/'pArTiCiPaTe' iN/'lIvE'/'dO'/'cArE aBoUt'/'eNjOy'/'eXpLoRe"/'kNoW' aBoUt/'lEaRn' aBoUt/'dIsCoVeR'/'bE pArT' oF/'lIkE'/'vAlUe'/'sEe'/'pErCeIvE'/'aPpReCiAtE'/'iNhAbIt' NOR ETCETCBLAHBLAHBLAH ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER FCKING 'VERB'/TYPE OF 'VERB'/'ACTION'/TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETCETC NOR BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN FCKING GENERAL AT DAMN ALL/NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY DEFINITELY ENTIRELY 'UTTERLY' or whatever the fuck that means too lmao 'PRACTICALLY' ANYTHING IN ABSOLUTE FCKING TOTAL LITERAL GENERAL AT DAMN FCKING ALL NO 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW TF "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC, OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM/KIND ETC IN GENERAL AT ALL NOR LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE AT ALL, WHATEVER THE DAMN FCK "ITS"/"IT" CAN BE FCKING 'FROM'/'ABOUT'/'RELATED' TO/'ASSOCIATED' WITH NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENER NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING FCKING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL AND BASICALLY AN 'INFINITE' ETC/A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG ETC, BASICALLY ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING/WHERE FFS ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! **SO IF "I" SIMPLY JUST DONT FCKING 'WANT' NOR FCKING 'NEED' ETCETF [NOR FCKING WANT TO WANT TO!!!!!!!] NOR HAVE ABSOLUTELY ANY "dEsIrE" NOR "iNtErEsT" NOR "nEeD" NOR "cUrIoSiTY" NOR "aTtRaCtIoN" or whatever the fuck all that fucking crap shit means lmfao NOR BASICALLY LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER FCKING CRAP FUCK TRASH SHIT GARBAGE or whatever the fuck all those 'words' mean lmao LIKE THAT IN GENERAL 'FOR'|'ABOUT'|'IN' [NOR FCKING WANT TO 'HAVE' IT NOR WANT TO WANT TO FCKING HAVE IT] AND JUST FCKING SIMPLY DONT FCKING GIVE A GODDAMN FCKING SHIT ABOUT [NOR WANT TO!!!!] ETCETCETC AND SIMPLY FCKING LITERALLY FCKING ABSOLUTELY FCKING BASICALLY FCKING INTENTIONALLY FCKING TRULY FCKING SERIOUSLY or whatever the fcking goddamn damn fcking fck shit all those 'words' mean lmfaooooooo JUST FCKING SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT/NOT FCKING WANT TO 'EXPERIENCE'/'LIVE'/'DO'/'SEE'/'ENJOY'/'EXPLORE'/'DISCOVER'/'KNOW' ABOUT/'PERCEIVE'/'INHABIT'/'"BE" IN/'LIVE' IN/'EXIST' IN/'PARTICIPATE' IN/'BE PART' OF/'BELONG' TO/'BELONG' IN/'TAKE PART' IN or whatever tf all those 'verbs'/'words' fckinf mean lmao ETCETCETCBLAHBLAHBLAH NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL/NOR LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER 'VERB'/'ACTION' ETC OF ANY TYPE NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY COMPLETELY BASICALLY LITERALLY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN FCKING GENERAL AT DAMN ABSOLUTE TOTAL LITERAL ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER THE FCKING FCK "IT" IS/CAN BE NEITHER WHAT TYPE/KIND/FORM ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF 'THERE IS'/'THERE CAN BE' NOR WHATEVER TF 'HAPPENS'/CAN 'HAPPEN' NOR WHATEVER TF "ITS"/CAN BE "ABOUT" NOR HOWEVER TF FCKING "WORKS"/CAN "WORK" NOR BLAHBLAHETCETC A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG ETC AND THAT'S FCKING IT FFS SIMPLY FCKING BASICALLY LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY 'UTTERLY' EXACTLY PRACTICALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING AT DAMN ALL IN FCKING TOTAL ABSOLUTE GENERAL FFS SIMPLY FCKING ANYTHING AT ALL!!!!! I SIMPLY JUST FCKING DONT NOR WANR TO WANT TO NEVER HAVE HAD AT ALL NEVER FCKING WILL AND THATS FCKING IT AND ITS ABSOLUTELY NOT BECAUSE OF ANY DAMN REASON AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY TYPE AT ALL NOR RELATED TO/ABOUT ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING FFS!!!!! I SIMPLY BASICALLY LITERALLY SERIOUSLY TRULY ACTUALLY HONESTLY INTENTIONALLY or whatever tf all those 'words' mean i just dont give a damn shit jfc lol, or whatever "lol" means too JUST FCKING DONT FCKINF 'WANT'/GIVE A FUCK SHIT ABOUT NOR FCKING WANT TO FCKING 'WANT'/GIVE A FCK SHIT ABOUT NOR ETCETCETC LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY COMPLETELY BASICALLY LITERALLY ANYTHING AT TOTAL DAMN ABSOLUTE ALL IN FCKING DAMN GENERAL AND THATS FCKING IT **I SIMPLY JUST FUCKING DONT [NOR WANT TO AT FCKING ALL AND NEVER WILL, WHY TF DO "I" FCKING HAVE TO YES OR FCKING YES FFS LET JUST NOT FUCKING WANT/GIVE A GODDAMN
FUCKING SHIT ABOUT ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY ANYTHING AT FCKING DAMN GODDAMN ALL IN FCKING GENERAL NO FUCKING 'MATTER' WHAT/HOW THE FCK "IT" IS/CAN BE OF ANY TYPE/KIND/FORM ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL NOR A LOOOOONG ETC AND THATS FCKING IT WITHOUT ANY GODDAMN DAMN FCKING REASON/REASONS/CAUSES/EXPLANATIONS OR WHATEVER TF THAT CRAP SHIT MEANS NOR ABSOLUTELY ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE BULLSHIT CRAP TRASH SHIT LIKE THAT IN GENERAL AT DAMN FCKING ALL OF ANY FCKING TYPE AT ALL IN GENERAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SHOULDN'T BE FCKING FORCED/OBLIGATED TO JUST BECAUSE OF THE 'FACT' THAT "I" HAD LITERALLY NO 'CHOICE' BUT TO 'EXIST'/'BE' 'BORN'/"BE"|"BECOME" IN GENERAL "sOmEtHiNg"/"sOmEoNe" AND 'WAS' "BROUGHT" "HERE"/TO "THIS" AND 'WAS' FORCED/'PUT' 'INSIDE' S 'HUMAN BODY'/'BODY'/'BRAIN'/'MIND' IN GENERAL OR WHATEVER TF THAT CRAP BULLSHIT FCKING IS /MEANS FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LITERALLY JUST FCKING SIMPLY DONT FCKING WANT ETC ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING AT ALL IN FCKING GENERAL NOR WANT TO AT ALL AND THATS FCKING IT FOR FUCK'S SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!] NEVER AT FCKINF ALL HAVE HAD NEVER AT DAMN ALL EVER FUCKING WILL AND THATS LITERALLY SIMPLY FCKING BASICALLY IT AND I FCKING SHOULDNT BE FCKING 'OBLIGATED'/'FORCED'/'PRESSURED' TO 'AGAINST' MY FUCKING 'WILL'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL ***THAT SHOULD ((MUST!!!!!!!!! AND I FCKING SHOULDNT HAVE TO FCKING 'GIVE' ANY FUCKING 'EXPLANATIONS', THERE ARENT ANY/I DONT FCKING HAVE ANY!!!!!!!! NOR HAVE ANY FCKING GODDAMN DAMN 'rEaSoNs' wHy/'cAuSeS' NOR LITERALLY ANY OTHER FCKING BULLSHIT GARBAGE SHIT CRAP FUCK LIKE THAT IN GENERAL!!!!!!!! THERE FCKING ARENT ANY AT ALL IN GENERAL OF ANY TYPE NOR 'RELATED TO'/'ABOUT'/'ASSOCIATED' WITH ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING IN FCKING GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL FFS!!!!!!!!!)) BE MORE THAN FUCKING 'ENOUGH' FOR 'ME TO COMPLETELY TOTALLY ENTIRELY LITERALLY HAVE THE ABSOLUTE TOTAL RIGHT TO DIE/NOT EXIST AT ALL/DISAPPEAR COMPLETELY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY LITERALLY ENTIRELY ETERNALLY FOREVER FOR ALL LITERAL TOTAL ABSOLUTE 'ETERNITY'/FINALLY SIMPLY NOT FUCKING 'BE' ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING NOR ANYONE ANY DAMN FCKING 'WAY'/'FORM'/'TYPE'/'SHAPE' ETCETC NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL ANYWHERE ETCETC IN ABSOLUTE TOTAL GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL ANYTIME/WHENEVER I WANT TO AND IF I SIMPLY LITERALLY BASICALLY JUST WANT TO AND THAT'S FCKING BASICALLY IT WITHOUT HAVING TO FCKING BE ANY GODDAMN FCKING 'REASON' NOR ANY 'CAUSE' NOR ANY FCKING 'EXPLANATION' NOR ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANY OTHER FCKING GARBAGE BULLSHIT CRAP LIKE THAT IN GENERAL IN GENERAL AT FCKING ALL OF ABSOLUTELY ANY
TYPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


[[[[[[[for fucks sake why is it so fucking hard to finally 'leave'/'get out' of/'ditch' the 'meat sack'/'flesh' and finally die/not exist at all/disappear entirely completely literally totally eternally forever and NOT 'be' absolutely literally basically totally completely ANYTHING nor ANYONE nor ANYWHERE etcetc in general at fcking all for fucks sake why is it so fcking hard????!!!!! Why is "this" a fcking obligation that i yes or yes have to 'want'/'care about'/be 'interested' of/'like' [[I NEITHER "LIKE"/"LOVE" NOR "DISLIKE"/"HATE" ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY BASICALLY ANYTHING/ANYONE ETC IN FCKING GENERAL AT ALL FFS I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A DAMN FUCK SHIT!!!!!!!!! I JUST DONT FUCKING WANT/DONT FCKING HAVE NEVER HAVE HAD NEVER FCKING WILL nor want to want/have it at all lmao why the fuck do i fucking have to jfc ANY FCKING 'DESIRE' NOR 'NEED' NOR 'INTEREST' NOR 'INTENTION' NOR ANY OTHER FCKING CRAP SHIT LIKE THAT TO 'LIKE' OR WHATEVER TF THAT MEANS NOR LITERALLY ANY OTHER 'VERB'|TYPE OF 'VERB'|'ACTION'|TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETC ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY ANYTHING IN GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL. WHY THE FCK DO I HAVE TO/WANT TO WANT TO FFS. AS IVE 'SAID', I NEITHER "LIKE"/"LOVE" NOR "DISLIKE"/"HATE" ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING FOR FUCKS SAKE I SIMPLY JUST DONT GIVE A SHIT FFS I LITERALLY JUST DONT!!!!!!!!! AND THATS BASICALLY SIMPLY FCKING IT AND ITS NOT BECAUSE OF ANY 'REASONS'/'CAUSES' AT ALL FFS]]/want to 'do' and or 'experience' and or 'know' and or 'enjoy' and or 'learn' and or 'kNoW hOw tO dO' and or 'explore' and or 'aChIeVe' and or 'dEsIrE' and or 'wIsH' and or blahblahetcetc whatever other 'verb'|type of 'verb'|'action'|type of 'action' and or whatever the fucking damn fuck in general//want to 'experience'|'live'|'do'|'enjoy'|'know' about|'explore'|'discover' etc 'tHiNgS'/'sOmEtHiNg' iN gEnErAl wHaTeVer It Is wHaTeVeR iTs AbOuT wHaTeVeR tYpE iT iS bUt sOmEtHinG/'lifE'/'tHe WoRlD'/'eXiStEnCe'/'pLaNeT eArTh'/'cOnScIoUSneSs' and or blablaetcetc whatever the fck in general """"""""uNlEsS I DonT bEcAuSe Of "sUfFeRiNg"/"pAiN"/"dEpReSsIoN"/"bAd LiFe"/"nIhIlISm"/"aNtInAtAlIsM"/"eFiLiSm"/"eMpTiNeSs"/"uNsAtIsFaCtIoN"/"lOw sElFeSteEm"/"aNxIeTy"/"mEntAl iLlNeSsEs iN gEnErAl"/"pHySiCaL iLlNeSsEs"/"dIsAbIlItY"/"hOpElEsSnEsS"/"lOnElInEsS"/"bAd fAmIlY"/"mEaNiNgLeSsNeSs"/"uNhApPiNeSs"/"uNfUlFiLlMeNt"/"sElF hAtReD"/"aBuSe"/"tRaUmA"/"bUlLyInG"/"hOmElEsSnEsS"/"sHaMe"/"rEgReT"/"gUiLt"/"bAd cIrCuMsTaNcEs" aNd Or bEcAuSe oF BlAhBlAheTceTc AnY oThEr rEaSoN/rEaSoNs/cAuSeS iN gEnErAl wHaTeVer It Is wHaTeVeR iTs AbOuT/rElAtEd tO wHaTeVeR tYpE iT iS eTc bUt bEcAuSe oF a 'ReAsOn'/'rEaSoNs'/'cAuSeS' iN gEnErAl yEs Or YeS, tHeRe hAs To/tHeRe MuSt Be A rEaSoN/rEaSoNs WhY yEs Or YeS, iT cAnT bE wItHoUt aNy ReAsOn At AlL/fOr No ReAsOn At AlL, tHaTs 'iMpOsSiBlE'"""""""???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY FOR FUCK'S SAKE WHY THE FCKING FUCK DO "I" YES OR FCKING YES HAVE TO WANT TO/WANT TO WANT TO ""uNlEsS I DonT bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN"" JUST BECAUSE "I" HAD NO DAMN CHOICE BUT TO 'EXIST'/'BE' 'BORN'//"BE"|"BECOME" 'SOMETHING'/'SOMEONE' AND 'WAS' 'BROUGHT' "HERE" (i just fucking simply DONT want NOR want to want never at all have wanted absolutely literally never at all ever will no fcking 'matter' what etc and its NOT because of any damn fcking reason at all to 'be' 'brought'/'experience' etcetc ABSOLUTELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE IN GENERAL AT DAMN FCKING ALL FFS ANYTHING AT ALL IN GENERAL!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT 'ONLY' "HERE"/TO "THIS" WHATEVER/HOWEVER THE FCK "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETC NEITHER WHAT TYPE/KIND/FORM/WAY ETCETC "IT" IS/CAN BE NEITHER WHAT 'HAPPENS'/CAN 'HAPPEN' NEITHER EHAT 'THERE IS'/'THERE CAN BE' AND A LOOOOOOOOOONG ETC, BUT BASICALLY LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY COMPLETELY ENTIRELY ANYTHING/ANYWHERE ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL. ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE FFS. JUST FCKING DONT NEVER AT ALL WILL FFS!!!!!!!!! WHATEVER/HOWEVER TF "IT" IS/CAN BE ETCETCETC OF ANY TYPE/WAY/FORM/KIND/SORT ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL, NO 'MATTER' WHAT/WHERE TF "ITS" FROM/ABOUT/RELATED TO/IN/OF/'ASSOCIATED WITH ETCETC A LOOONG ETC, NO 'MATTER' WHAT 'HAPPENS'/CAN 'HAPPEN', NO 'MATTER' 'HOW' "IT" 'WORKS'/CAN 'WORK', NO 'MATTER' 'WHAT' TF "ITS"/CAN BE "ABOUT", NO 'MATTER' WHAT 'THINGS'/TYPES OF 'THINGS' ETC AND OR WHATEVER THE DAMN FCK IN GENERAL 'THERE IS'/'THERE CAN BE' AND LITERALLY BASICALLY A LOOOOOOOOOOOONG ETC FFS SIMPLY FCKING ANYTHING IN TOTAL ABSOLUTE GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL AND THATS BASICALLY LITERALLY SIMPLY IT WITHOT ANY DAMN REASON IN GENERAL AT ALL FFS THERE SIMPLY FCKING ARENT ANY AT ALL NEVER AT ALL HAVE BEEN ANY AND NEVER AT ALL EVER FCKING WILL)?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY THE DAMN FKCING FCK CANT "I" FCKING SIMPLY FCKING BASICALLY FCKING LITERALLY TRULY or whatever tf all those 'words' mean lmao NOT/DONT FCKING 'WANT'/GIVE A DAMN SHIT ABOUT ETC NOR WANT TO 'WANT'/GIVE A DAMN SHIT ABOUT ETCETCETC {NOR ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE IN GENERAL AT ALL/ANY OTHER 'VERB'/TYPE OF 'VERB'/'ACTION'/TYPE OF 'ACTION' ETCETC NOR WHATEVER TF IN GENERAL AT ALL} ABSOLUTELY COMPLETELY LITERALLY BASICALLY TOTALLY ANYTHING IN FCKING DAMN GENERAL AT FCKING DAMN ALL WHATEVER/HOWEVER "IT" IS/CAN BE EHATEVER FCKING TYPE/WAY/KIND/FORM ETCETC "IT" IS ETCETC AND A LOOOOONG ETC AND THATS FCKING BASICALLY LITERALLY TRUKY SIMPLY SERIOUSLY FCKING IT WITHOUT LITERALLY ABSOLUTELY ANY SINGLE FCKING DAMN 'REASON'/'REASONS'/'CAUSES' NOR ANY OTHER FCKING CRAP SHIT LIKE THAT IN GENERAL IN GENERAL AT ALL OF ANY TYPE AT ALL FFS????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY TF AM "I" FCKING OBLIGATED/FORCED TO AND IF I DONT """iTs bEcAuSe Of A rEaSoN/rEaSoNs/cAuSeS""" FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY??????!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY THE FCK THERE HAS TO BE A FCKING DAMN REASON YES OR YES FOR FUCKS FUCKING SAKE WHY????????!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE. FUCKING. SIMPLY. LITERALLY. BASICALLY. ABSOLUTELY. TRULY. SERIOUSLY. (Or whatever tf those 'words' fucking mean lmao) ARENT. ANY AND LITERALLY NEVER FUCKING WILL FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!]]]]]]]]


How "iMpOrTaNt"/"nEcEsSaRy" or whatever the fuck that means is 'fasting' for this method actually? Does not fasting means 'failure'? I 'think' there have been 'cases'/'reports' of 'people' dying with sn without the fasting, but apparently it took much longer... In my 'case' Ill prepare (if ill be 'able' to get it... which is so fucking hard because of the fucking 'customs') a second dose/glass of SN in case I 'vomit' the first one so i guess it should still work even if I dont 'fast'. Even if my 'stomach' isn't fully empty, there would be more than enough SN absorbed' there because id have taken 2 'glasses' of 20g-25g and that's a lot, and if i take it with 'propanolol', i guess Id lose 'consciousness' much faster and it wouldnt have "mattered" or whatever the fuck "matter" means that my 'stomach' wasnt totally empty because apparently the propanolol is also 'used' to 'potentiate' the sn drink and 'make' it more 'lethal', so the 'combination' of both would make me 'pass out'/'lose' 'consciousness' 'quicker', thatd happen 'whether' I had fasted or not. If i 'follow' the 'regimen'/take the 'pills' needed for the method it should still 'work' even if I havent done the fasting

holy shit, i aint reading that