Story Do i belong here?

[FlankerSandwhich]

Hi all. I made this account last year in November/December when things were really dark. I had spent years with mental health problems, especially in school, and that was my breaking point. I was so sure I would CTB (am i saying that right?) then, I could feel it

Well, things definitely got better. Its weird since it kind of happened overnight, but I just kinda became fine. Except the shadows of struggles were still there. Now and then, I'd crack a little, but I'd mostly be fine

Today was one of those days. I think its a lot to do with upcoming exams, but I felt so guilty and wrong, and I was sure removing myself from the equation would solve everyone's problems.

I came to this forum after not being on here for over a year, and everyone is so kind and wonderful, but I can't help but feel wrong for being here. The people here have real struggles, life is hard for them. If they had even a fraction of what I had, they'd be so happy.

So I guess I'm just curious, am I allowed here? I don't want to mock the real struggles of real people, if you all hate me for being disingenuous, I'll leave. Promise. I just don't want to disrespect an amazing community

 

[ScaredCutter]

everyone has their own reasons for being suicidal. theres no competion of "who has it worse" and that "u must struggle with... to be here". theres nothing wrong with feeling suicidal over exams, honestly i hate any tests with my heart becaise i know ill fail so hard and i struggle a lot on them.

and, even though youve gotten better, it doesnt mean u arent suicidal anymore, i mean, u can think about it way less and live happier but u can also have it triggered from something and thats ok too.

ur reason is vaild, theres not really a "wrong" reason to want to CTB.

youll always be welcomed!

 

[FlankerSandwhich]

Thank you, that means a lot. Just being on here helps, since everyone is super cool and kind. Thank you!!!!!

 

[Aunty_Seuss]

Nobody here will mock you for writing up on this website, there's no rule saying you can't post if it's not "serious enough". We all understand here

 

[FlankerSandwhich]

Ty toy ty ty ty!!!!!!

 

[Rainbow Dash]

Literly only you can answer that question.
Do you belong here?
Do you want to stay and like it here?

I seen the replys and people seem to like you.

So will you stay...?
<3

 

[nitrogenous]

Hi all. I made this account last year in November/December when things were really dark. I had spent years with mental health problems, especially in school, and that was my breaking point. I was so sure I would CTB (am i saying that right?) then, I could feel it

Well, things definitely got better. Its weird since it kind of happened overnight, but I just kinda became fine. Except the shadows of struggles were still there. Now and then, I'd crack a little, but I'd mostly be fine

Today was one of those days. I think its a lot to do with upcoming exams, but I felt so guilty and wrong, and I was sure removing myself from the equation would solve everyone's problems.

I came to this forum after not being on here for over a year, and everyone is so kind and wonderful, but I can't help but feel wrong for being here. The people here have real struggles, life is hard for them. If they had even a fraction of what I had, they'd be so happy.

So I guess I'm just curious, am I allowed here? I don't want to mock the real struggles of real people, if you all hate me for being disingenuous, I'll leave. Promise. I just don't want to disrespect an amazing community

Hey mate, I just want to say you don't have to feel guilty for whatever you are feeling. There's no such thing as a "wrong" or "right" way to feel. I feel that the fact that you feel uncomfortable might have come from the fact that the world nowadays kind of make people feel ashamed of themselves when they don't feel like they fit in.

However, I'm so proud of your recovery and do remember that recovery isn't linear. I think without a doubt everyone here have their own level of recovery. Seeing posts like this for example, can make someone smile, giving them hope that things can get better. You are always welcomed here, and your kindness along, despite how far you are on your recovery journey, matters. We are all here to support one another and to be non-judgemental.