Discussion Do good times highlight the bad?

[Nemo1004]

Hi

Recently some good stuff has happened to me but ended now, ironically my first thought was to end it all, it didn't end badly or anything if anything it was going to end eventually.

But now I'm back where I've started scared about the future, unsure about tomorrow more then I would normally be. Would you guys choose not to be happy at all since it would eventually end? Or still try?

 

[Forever Sleep]

I know what you mean. It's rare I have felt happy in life. Not for a prolonged period anyway. But- when it has happened, it's been accompanied by fear of falling back down.

I think because- feeling happier brought with it greater ambition and drive to do things that challenged me. My fear was that I would take these new things on, only to revert back to my more usual state and feel like I couldn't now cope with them.

Personally though now- I'm not even seeking happiness. I simply don't have the energy to ride that rollercoaster now. My preference would be calmness and effortless contentment. Which doesn't really happen all that much either. But- it's less of a step back and forth into melancholy, frustration etc. that way.

It's nice to still pursue moments of happiness but, I personally find the sustained kind too risky and too unlikely too. Plus, it's safer assuming life will be shit. It usually is one way and another. I think being happy tends to trick me into having too much (false) hope and too much belief in myself.