Do anyone feel like in their mind suicide is logical step but cry when thinking on that?

[WinterIsComing]

I know is logical but for some reason i cry, maybe deep down i think i have some hope......

 

[thrwaway99]

Nothing wrong with crying as suicide is a sad subject. Sometimes just melancholy can make people cry.

 

[Lennox]

It's a very sad state of affairs, I think it's normal to cry. I cry because I despair and wish things were different. I cry because I feel sorry for myself.

 

[RedPanda]

I have cried and wet my entire pillow thinking about ending it and purposely cutting my life short. Reaching this point and this dark pit is sad, very sad.

P.S. i like your profile picture, i look forward to playing Death Stranding. One of the last games i hope to enjoy before i go.

 

[pole]

yeah, but i dont cry because i think theres hope. I just cry in self pity, and just think like wow, im really gonna be dieing so young, its really gotten to this point? sort of like disbelief kicking in. that last step to set a date and go through with it is the hardest thing to do.

 

[dysphoria]

I despair, but don't cry so much any more. Still sometimes, because I wish it could be different, but always by myself . Crying is just likely to attract attention from people who would send me to a mental hospital rather than have a reasonable discussion about my quality of life. I would never abuse suicide for attention, because that's immoral.

After coming as close to death as is possible and being revived, I have hardened as a person, although I was pretty much dead inside to begin with. I still wish there was some hope for change, and it's hard to pass the days coming to terms with death... again. Probably in the near future. It's absolutely logical for me, and the sad thing is no one will ever really understand why. I'm done with writing lengthy suicide notes. Whenever I do go, I'll leave behind nothing but a mess for people to clean up. Really just worn out with the whole ordeal.

 

[Lifeisatrap]

Yes, never out of hope though but out of fear of failure and the possibility of never being able to leave.

 

[LifeOver]

I cry because I know I want to suicide, but I could not actually go through with it. I tried hanging myself multiple times and cried when I couldn't pass out. I also cry when I look at my SN wanting to eat it but just couldn't get the courage to do so, especially since I'm still missing my meto.

 

[HGL91]

I cry because I used to have hope as a kid and didn't think about my mortality. At 27, all I can think about is how if I don't die now, I'll die eventually anyway, so what's the point of waiting for life to get worse?

 

[paintedhouse]

Yes, it feels like it's the only solution and then I start wishing that I was never born

 

[DeathImminent]

I am so emotionally numb that i cant cry even if i try i am chemically not able to

 

[akita]

I wish I could cry again

 

[Rocksandsand]

Sometimes... it's more related to feeling sorrow about leaving my brother and father with so much grief. I feel trapped between staying here to prevent that pain and tolerating my own. That sometimes makes me cry.

 

[Hel]

Me. I think about suicide, research about methods and then I cry and cry because I don't have the guts to do it, I can't find the perfect method for me and I feel I'm trapped here forever.

 

[suffering]

I'm out of tears. Logically I know suicide is the answer, but my survival instinct is a bitch and keeps me trapped.

 

[Futility]

Suicide is the most logical solution, I don't cry about that in itself, but I sometimes cry about how I am forced to go through with it alone because my dignity doesn't mean shit to anyone as long as I'm not dead.

 

[justanotherday]

Me. I think about suicide, research about methods and then I cry and cry because I don't have the guts to do it, I can't find the perfect method for me and I feel I'm trapped here forever.

I am in the exact same boat!

 

[hadenough]

I feel the same way, want to exit but don't know how courageous I am. I can't see the point in living anymore but that small glimmer of hope keeps me going - for now

 

[woxihuanni]

Nobody goes laughing all the way to the bus stop, of course you feel sad/cry if you still can.

 

[thedutchguy]

Crying is a normal response in the lonely road of CTB, that road is sad. I cryed my eyes out, not because of hope left. But because all hope has faded through the years, where i could be strong the years before, it all toke his toll. So I think it's a normal reaction.

No one is growing up the thing they want to do is CTB as young as possible.

 

[justanotherday]

Yes, in my case, because I survived an actual attempt, and then had an accident that should have killed me, I am so reluctant to try. I feel totally trapped here on this earth. I do not want to be here!

Yes, in my case, because I survived an actual attempt, and then had an accident that should have killed me, I am so reluctant to try. I feel totally trapped here on this earth. I do not want to be here!

 

[hadenough]

Yes, in my case, because I survived an actual attempt, and then had an accident that should have killed me, I am so reluctant to try. I feel totally trapped here on this earth. I do not want to be here!

I feel the same way, don't want to be here anymore but taking that final step is scary. I hope being here I can gain the courage.

 

[justanotherday]

What I am trying to say is that, I know because of my two experiences, that there is no such thing as a 100 percent guaranteed method to leave the planet! I am still here...

Sorry, here I go again having tech difficulties on this site for some reason. I did not mean to post my comments multiple times.

 

[Psychopath30]

It is normal for everyone to cry, when they are frustrated, upset or sad, the same thing happens to me, I spend hours crying in my room and then I leave as if nothing had happened to me, one way or another you let off steam.

 

[coma-baby]

I sometimes cry when thinking of my own suicide. Mainly when I consider that if I do actually CTB, I will rob my partner of happiness. I'd ruin his future. I'd send him deeper into his own depression shit.
When I feel like I'm close to acting on a plan, my brain will start showing me images of the life he has described us living together. Happy images. And I begin mourning. I weep. I don't want to steal those from him. He deserves to be happy.
I don't. I don't deserve a damn thing.
I'm in a really sticky situation. Where I feel like I'm ruining his life by being alive. I'm dead weight. I'm not contributing to the future he wants for us. I don't even pretend to be excited about it. I'm so scared of it. And all the uncertainties about struggling to get to that point where everything is pleasant and we're both happy. I just can't imagine myself achieving anything, let alone something so stable and ideal.
But I know for a fact that I would ruin his life by vanishing.
I feel like if I were to go through with it and CTB, he would be able to heal from that at least. He'd go through the mourning period and then he'd move on and keep living. Hopefully find someone else that makes him happy.
I don't know.
But this is why planning anything out drives me to choking pathetic sobs.