Discussion Dissapointing your younger self

[gg i guess]

Hey guys, do you sometimes think about how you all were young, happy and proud kids, that never ever suspected that the live in adult years could turn around so badly?

Personally to me it's crazy how I was proud of myself when I was a kid, I thought when I grow up I would be super succesful in most of the areas in life, however as I grew up (soon to be 24) I turned out to be a complete failure and it makes my heart hurt so much... Proud younger me would be so dissapointed in me..

Is there more people who feels that way?

(Sorry for bad english, it's not my first language)

 

[lemonbunny]

yeah, exactly this. i now realize that my life was just as shit in childhood, but i held onto the hope that things would get better once i was an adult and proved myself. well, i failed to prove myself...

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

Can't really relate cause my self esteem was always low growing up because of childhood abuse. But my early twenties self would be devastated

 

[sirciroc]

YEP! i think younger me would cry if they knew where i was now. sometimes i look at pictures of myself as a small kid (like 3-6) and just feel bad for that little person. they grew up to be so miserable and worthless

 

[nogoodfatautist]

Yeah my childhood and teen years sucked but I was hopeful that things would turn around once I was in adulthood but boy was I wrong. Got out into the adult world and realized all my problems that I had weren't going away and were getting worse. Found out Im autistic at 21 and the life I always dreamed of having is quite unrealistic with that factored in... Now I have no interest in living at all. I look back on my younger self with pity and lowkey wish I would've CTB then because it certainly did not pay off sticking around.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Yeah I'm a pretty big disappointment to all my younger selves. I can't even follow through on killing myself before I turn 30 yet due to procrastinating for too long.

 

[Argo]

I don't think it makes sense to judge my adult life from the perspective of a child. Children normally don't understand how hard and unfair life can be(most adults don't even seem to, or we'd live in a very different world). Either adults have to show children this or they have to realize it on their own that no one makes themselves or picks a life of struggle vs. "success".

What would your attitude be towards a child who was struggling with something and in pain? Disappointment? Frustration? Or something more kind, like patience and guidance? In some cases children can be wiser than adults but I don't think this is one.

 

[ZoloftSüchtig]

Hey guys, do you sometimes think about how you all were young, happy and proud kids, that never ever suspected that the live in adult years could turn around so badly?

Personally to me it's crazy how I was proud of myself when I was a kid, I thought when I grow up I would be super succesful in most of the areas in life, however as I grew up (soon to be 24) I turned out to be a complete failure and it makes my heart hurt so much... Proud younger me would be so dissapointed in me..

Is there more people who feels that way?

(Sorry for bad english, it's not my first language)

Yep I feel the same. Stupid me. I wish I could tell that stupid kid to not do that stupid mistake!

 

[Kerock]

My younger selves wouldn't be disappointed and expected it eventually to come, but they would be surprised by the circumstances that led up to it. They always had the idea I wasn't worth it and that eventually I would kill myself one way or another. I think the only regret they would have was not doing it earlier to avoid becoming who I am now and at least maintain some amount of dignity and self-respect. If my younger/past self saw who I would inevitably become, they definitely would've chosen death instead of maintaining any hope for a sane and normal future.

 

[indosoon]

If my 14yo saw me today, I would be a example to not follow. A pot nicotine junkie with no perspective

 

[gg i guess]

YEP! i think younger me would cry if they knew where i was now. sometimes i look at pictures of myself as a small kid (like 3-6) and just feel bad for that little person. they grew up to be so miserable and worthless

Yea I used to look at my younger pictures aswell, they always made me feel even more bad about current myself, thats why I avoid looking at them

 

[uzuf86]

When I think about my younger self, I feel like it was just a completely different person. I can't relate to my toddler or younger years anymore

 

[gg i guess]

Yeah my childhood and teen years sucked but I was hopeful that things would turn around once I was in adulthood but boy was I wrong. Got out into the adult world and realized all my problems that I had weren't going away and were getting worse. Found out Im autistic at 21 and the life I always dreamed of having is quite unrealistic with that factored in... Now I have no interest in living at all. I look back on my younger self with pity and lowkey wish I would've CTB then because it certainly did not pay off sticking around.

Damn Iam sorry... I feel bad for people who can't achieve their desirable life. And the worst part is that I believe most people on this forum don't really need much from life to be happy. We just got unlucky in one way or another and are unable to fix our problems.

Also what scares me the most is that when you are very young and know you will live a miserable life, you will have to cope with misery for 50+ more years, if you planning on dying of an old age. That scares me so much and it only gets worse with time...

 

[ZoloftSüchtig]

Yea I used to look at my younger pictures aswell, they always made me feel even more bad about current myself, thats why I avoid looking at them

Oh damn. Yes! Looking at pictures of myself as a kid, is just so sad. I struggled even back then but life was worth living. I had so many dreams and truly thought I could achieve them. Thinking about how I actually was that kid one day is so bizarre to me.