Disheartened

[Flick]

I'm currently weening off Concerta - I can't afford it.
and god, it is painful.
Withdrawal is awful for me at least, as I've been on it for 3-4 years continuously
I've had fallbacks and all

what's even more frustrating is that I have to pretend everything is fine. I get screamed at if I'm not at the 100% I'm meant to be.
It's already a pain as I feel I'm losing part of myself - I'm unable to be the mega high achiever I used to be.
Which makes me really wanna just go back to it :/

just feeling really alone I'm this process.

 

[Nicothe13th]

Why can't you be the mega high achiever?

 

[whywere]

You are NEVER EVER alone!! You have your global family here that loves, cares and supports you. I, too, have had to withdrawl from prescription drugs before and it is not much fun, BUT I made it and so can YOU!! I believe in you 100% and yes I, too, have had people judge/scream at me and I 1) walk away from them 2) advoid them as much as possible. Tell them, "it is easy to judge, hard to understand." All my love, empathy, kindness and support goes out to you!! Walter

 

[timf]

Your reference to a "high mega achiever" made me think of a video I saw recently that interviewed those mission control people that participated in the moon landing project. They described the all consuming years they spent on the project, and now looking back they all regretted the harm it caused their families. One might have at the time considered them "high achievers".

There is something to be said for "low achieving". Particularly in regard to what others expect of you. It is like what Richard Prior described from his experience in the golden gloves boxing competition. He said that when you were gut punched and your legs folded under you as you were lying on the canvas, someone would yell out from the crowd, "get up, get up". He would think, "forget you"

Withdrawal can be tricky and draw your attention away from things that might need your attention to help you keep more of a balance in life.

 

[Thegoldenapples]

I was on concerta for 8 years. You'll be better off it. You'll find yourself again. You lose yourself on it. I didn't get a massive withdrawal though. Always had the weekends off. Might of made a difference. Felt agitated for a while because you are essentially having speed but Magnesium was key for me. Can buy spray on the internet and spray all over your body, leave for 30 mins and then shower. Or have high dose epsom salt baths. Your body was tweaked out for ages. It'll taper off. You'll focus more when you clean the gut out. Parasite cleansing and take gluten, dairy and meat out. I had the best concentration when I did that. Helped more than anything.

 

[TriggerHappy]

withdrawal terrifies me. addiction is all i've known for 22 years: most people's lives are out of control when they using: i'm at my most psychotically-level - it's when i'm sober that somehow things get tricky (i crash cars / partnet ctb's / cross addict to sex & self-flagellation). by day 3 i literally feel like i'm losing my mind (withdrawal has led me to do some insane illegal stuff) to get high again. I promised my mom before she died I would sober up; everyday i struggle with that dissapointment. ugh. i hate feelings.

 

[xkonstantinexx]

I was diagnosed with severe depression, ADHD, BPD and mild bipolar disorder. I've had 3 talking sessions with my therapist and after being on Brintellix for 2 weeks, I was told to stop and switch to Concerta instead. I'm not a trained medical professional but I found it odd. When asked, he said it's to help me clear my mind and focus on what I need to do. Has anyone have a similar experience? It's my first day on it today and I do notice that my mind isn't as clouded.

I'm unable to be the mega high achiever I used to be.
Which makes me really wanna just go back to it :/

just feeling really alone I'm this process.

I'm sorry that you find yourself in this situation. I used to be a high achiever too but due to my mental state, I find difficulty in performing simple chores around the house. I used to have high hopes and ambitions but lately, they don't seem to matter much.

You lose yourself on it.

I've seen similar statements regarding ADHD medication around SS. Can you please share what do you mean when you said that you lose yourself on it?