dropdeadfred
Boarding the bus to Everlasting Dreamland ♡
- Oct 19, 2020
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I hate myself for it. It's been an off & on battle in my mind & with my body for over 20 years. I don't think I can truly give myself permission to go, but I find it to be logically necessary... before everything becomes worse & worse & worse. Everything began to spiral out of control a few months ago, almost seemingly out of nowhere.
Maybe I just need to accept the fact that I failed & die with it, instead of trying to push against it by attempting to convince myself of something else. I tried, but I failed.
Sometimes I wish I felt nothing.
Maybe I just need to accept the fact that I failed & die with it, instead of trying to push against it by attempting to convince myself of something else. I tried, but I failed.
Sometimes I wish I felt nothing.