Venting Disappear

[Pauperpills]

There's so much shit that has happened in my life that I wish I could just disappear. It sucks that there's no way to just not exist, you know? I feel like having an option like that would be so much easier than planning a way to ctb. I just don't wanna be alive. I'm trying to make my life better but I can't escape my fuck ups. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't wanna die, I just wanna fade away.

 

[maya2125!]

Sorry man. Life pushed you to the limits. For me also the same.

 

[ClownMe]

That sucks, but I can relate.

 

[Pauperpills]

Sorry man. Life pushed you to the limits. For me also the same.

I just wish there was an easy way to go. It's hard getting SN or N here in Asia.

That sucks, but I can relate.

I'm happy that I found this forum. Been tough coping especially during the pandemic.

 

[WornOutLife]

I can relate.

There are days on which sleeping is my only pleasure. You know, I'm not "here" anymore. I don't exist, or at least it looks like that and it's awesome.

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel the exact same way. I don't want to be here, but it is hard to die, I struggle with it as it requires courage and could go wrong. I would love to just drift off into an eternal sleep. I wish you the best.

 

[LansJ70]

Just disappearing would be awesome, or just to somehow never have existed at all even better.

 

[maya2125!]

I just wish there was an easy way to go. It's hard getting SN or N here in Asia.


I'm happy that I found this forum. Been tough coping especially during the pandemic.

Where are you from?

 

[Pauperpills]

Where are you from?

I'm from the Philippines. The only sources near me that sells SN is through China. It sucks not having options really.

I can relate.

There are days on which sleeping is my only pleasure. You know, I'm not "here" anymore. I don't exist, or at least it looks like that and it's awesome.

I know the feeling! I think its partly the reason why I stay in bed all day plus we literally can't leave the house here where I am.

I feel the exact same way. I don't want to be here, but it is hard to die, I struggle with it as it requires courage and could go wrong. I would love to just drift off into an eternal sleep. I wish you the best.

Same here. I've been doing attempts but I can't seem to get it right. I wish we had the choice to off ourselves legally so that we don't have to continue struggling.