Discussion diphenhydramine - a very interesting drug that dissolves ego?

[snowman626]

diphenhydramine is basically a drug you find in sleeping pills like unisom, sleepeze D, etc.

i used to OD on that stuff, standard dose was 50mg but i took 400mg. the effects were really interesting which i wanna discuss.

kills the ego:

when i was tripping on it i felt like something had been stripped away from me, a protective layer gone, and i was vulnerable, very very vulnerable. my mind was sensitive, my body was sensitive, i had to constantly fight to retain some part of my ego which i think was what had been stripped away by the drug. the ego is like a shield that protects the mind.

so what did it feel like?

for example i would think of an event in the past that i regret, and on diphenhydramine i would feel that regret 1000000x harder. when i think about my life it's like i DIED and im looking at it from an afterlife's perspective, doing a life review or something. it is powerful stuff. i begin to appreciate things i never appreciated before, become grateful for things i was never grateful for before. i couldn't feel anger, just the desire for love. things i was mad at before i wasn't mad at anymore, that anger turned into the desire to resolve it in the most gentle and peaceful way. unfortunately after the drug wore off my ego returned and i stopped caring again and my anger returned.

listening to music:

another side effect of the drug is that music sounded really really good. i would sit in the dark listening to music and at some point there was an altered state of consciousness and its like i became the singer, every note and word i sung was so "zoomed in", it's like looking at a picture from far away your whole life never paying attention to it then suddenly it was right up your face and you could see everything and your whole perspective changes.

seeing spiders:

more side effects include dry mouth and hallucinations. i remember constantly seeing little spiders crawling everywhere, i knew they were hallucinations but they were so real that i was fooled almost every time. i even saw snakes once crawling out of my bed sheets. then one time i hallucinated my grandmother once who called out to me from outside the house and i went out to find nobody there.

masturbating:

part of the side effects of diphenhydramine is that it shrinks the penis, but its still possible to get it going if tried hard enough. masturbating on diphenhydramine was very interesting. seeing nude women and hearing the orgasm screams while my mind was so sensitive, it is an incredible experience. normally i watch porn and rub one out every night and its just boring, but on diphenhydramine everything is so sharp and clear and real and zoomed in and it almost feels real to some extent, like i was really having sex. or imagine masturbing for the first time ever.

x-ray vision:

and you may or may not believe this next part its up to you but im not making this up. one time i was tripping and closed my eyes and focused on the patterns behind my eyelids, suddenly the entire pattern zoomed in really fast and its like i was seeing through my eyelids, but it wasn't physical, it was like an alternate dimension of the physical. i brought my hand up to my face and i could see my hand, but my hand was like blue/purple and was made of light or something. i wasn't dreaming, i flexed my hand and i could see the blue/purple light hand flexing, it was my hand but it was my spiritual hand or something.

so thats my experience with diphenhydramine. i used to trip on that stuff all the time like 5-10 years ago. do you have experience with it and was your trips similar to mine?

 

[SlackJim]

sounds interesting, have you tried many other drugs? is there anything you would compare it to in particular? sounds like it shares some effects of ketamine. I'm not sure that the effects you described sound like "kills the ego", by my understanding of that term at least. When I have experienced ego death it has been complete ignorance of any of my life thus far and no comprehension of who I am or that I am residing in a human body. just pure consciousness, like the voice in your head is the only thing that exists, except it's not a voice, or thought, or anything. Is that a song prescription sleeping drug (im not familiar with the brands you mentioned)

Also I can definitely believe the x ray vision part, have had something similar on LSD/Mushrooms

 

[snowman626]

sounds interesting, have you tried many other drugs? is there anything you would compare it to in particular? sounds like it shares some effects of ketamine. I'm not sure that the effects you described sound like "kills the ego", by my understanding of that term at least. When I have experienced ego death it has been complete ignorance of any of my life thus far and no comprehension of who I am or that I am residing in a human body. just pure consciousness, like the voice in your head is the only thing that exists, except it's not a voice, or thought, or anything. Is that a song prescription sleeping drug (im not familiar with the brands you mentioned)

Also I can definitely believe the x ray vision part, have had something similar on LSD/Mushrooms

other drugs ive done are mushrooms, weed, and salvia. i think ive had ego death with mushrooms too. well with the diphenhydramine maybe ego death isnt the right term to describe it, but normally i cant forgive and let go of things but on the diphen trips my mind was just telling me to "let it go....release"

overall diphenhydramine dont give positive trips, very negative actually, but there is something very bittsweet with the experiences, it's like i get a new persepective on things which helps me look at things differently. unfortunately when i sober up i just go back to being normal though

 

[Somebodylied]

I recently heard about someone od'ing on 50 diphenhydramine pills, its confusing how some people can ctb with pills , and others survive using the same method.

 

[Mr2005]

It needs to be put in our water supply