Difficulty of existence

[Painless_end]

Living with neurological weakness that affects every moment of your existence and also at the same time keeps you from CTBing because of pain and survival instinct is a nightmare.

It is an existence like that of some modern abstract work of absurdist art that belongs to a novel or a painting, not real life.

Living nightmare.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

I am sorry to hear about you being in pain.

 

[TooConscious]

It is a horrific, corrupt, absurd being.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm sorry you are suffering like this. I hope somehow it gets better for you.

 

[AintNoWayOut]

damn, the way you worded that... i feel like i relate. im sure our pain is different, but dealing with chronic pain myself its stripped away the "pure" feeling of life from me... like, the way i felt before compared to now is like two different worlds. the way im unable to move freely like i used to without feeling tension and hearing my joints click, it doesnt feel like real life anymore, it feels like some sort of extremely cruel simulation. our bodies are supposed to just WORK, not have all these mechanical issues like machines... i barely feel human much of the time. this shit hit close to home.