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I_just_cba
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- Mar 27, 2021
- 40
I was last here in around May / June. April was probably the lowest point of my life where I bought SN, browsed this forum every day and daydreamed about suicide all the time.
And then my life turned around. I really enjoyed the Euros (football), I changed job and I didn't think I'd ever have these thoughts again. It was actually this forum and buying SN that turned it around as I always 'had the option'.
But now I'm back. All the thoughts have come rushing back. I think about killing myself every day, I feel so empty inside and life has no meaning.
Stupid bloody cycle.
And then my life turned around. I really enjoyed the Euros (football), I changed job and I didn't think I'd ever have these thoughts again. It was actually this forum and buying SN that turned it around as I always 'had the option'.
But now I'm back. All the thoughts have come rushing back. I think about killing myself every day, I feel so empty inside and life has no meaning.
Stupid bloody cycle.