
Sleipnir95
Member
- Oct 13, 2025
- 6
This is my first post nice to meet everyone.
When I was 16 I remember like it was yesterday I first wanted to die. I had a few attempts even then. I truly believed in my mind I wouldn't live to be 21. Now 14 years later it's still an everyday thought. Even when life started to get better.
I suffer from social anxiety and depression since 16. My dreams torment me I get sleep paralysis at one point severally times a week for years. I just want out of this flesh honestly. Too scared of heights I'll probably go out with partially hanging because when I tried it before I didn't know you had to stop blood flow immediately so it doesn't feel like your eyes are literally going to explode. If not that I have a 30-30 lever action Winchester just need ammo.
When I was 16 I remember like it was yesterday I first wanted to die. I had a few attempts even then. I truly believed in my mind I wouldn't live to be 21. Now 14 years later it's still an everyday thought. Even when life started to get better.
I suffer from social anxiety and depression since 16. My dreams torment me I get sleep paralysis at one point severally times a week for years. I just want out of this flesh honestly. Too scared of heights I'll probably go out with partially hanging because when I tried it before I didn't know you had to stop blood flow immediately so it doesn't feel like your eyes are literally going to explode. If not that I have a 30-30 lever action Winchester just need ammo.