Venting didnt know where to put this but self harm urges n that yanno

[illbeinthegarage]

is it worth giving in to relapse just for the temporary release? like man its been nearly a year since i last hurt myself purposely (ignoring minor relapses) but goddamn its so fucking hard to shut my head up nowadays, is it worth to at least have some sort of feeling that i know will calm my head down for a short while? i feel so guilty for being preachy about it the other day to some people when im back in this rut again

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

What did you say when you feel you were being preachy?

I ask for a reason, and it's not to make you feel bad! Of course you don't have to say if you're uncomfortable. And heck, it's something to focus on for a moment other than the urge.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Self harm is an addiction for most. Like all addictions one is never enough. I'd say it's a slippery slope and if you've made it a year you should try to refrain from giving in.

 

[Nymph]

I SHed last year September to December, then I managed to stop urges till now recently. I started again I think...In June or something. After I relapsed my urges are stronger and sometimes it's very hard to suppress them. I'd say don't do it unless ur okay with continuing for a while because it's harder to stop when you started. Hope this makes sense I'm bad at talking.

 

[illbeinthegarage]

What did you say when you feel you were being preachy?

I ask for a reason, and it's not to make you feel bad! Of course you don't have to say if you're uncomfortable. And heck, it's something to focus on for a moment other than the urge.

i basically just went on a bit of a rampage on how its a pointless coping method that isn't worth becoming reliant on because you start a competition with yourself on how 'bad' you can make it and does nothing for you in the long run. i do believe this but i feel it was wrong of me to try and influence other peoples opinions and choices about it when i know the desperation you feel towards it.

I SHed last year September to December, then I managed to stop urges till now recently. I started again I think...In June or something. After I relapsed my urges are stronger and sometimes it's very hard to suppress them. I'd say don't do it unless ur okay with continuing for a while because it's harder to stop when you started. Hope this makes sense I'm bad at talking.

it makes sense, im sorry you fell back into it, its a horrible addiction. good luck if you ever choose to try and stop <3

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Brutal ngl, I'm trying not to do it but I hate myself so much I just want to grab a knife peel myself like a banana sometimes. Being around my family makes me scared of it because they get very angry over it, but at this point I'm thinking fuck it it's cope or rope.

You've done a good job holding back for a year tbh. If you can resist it I'd say definitely don't do it. It feels so addictive and gross and isn't a nice thing to be dealing with at all.

 

[illbeinthegarage]

but at this point I'm thinking fuck it it's cope or rope.

@Esc9434 thought you might appreciate.


but yes it fucking sucks man

 

[Sinai Silence]

I know its hard to resist the urge sometimes but you've done so great by going a year without it.

Have you ever tried stuff like flicking elastic bands or pinching yourself to cope? Or did you go full cold turkey with it?

Its ultimately your decision what you do but I'd never want anyone to relapse.

 

[illbeinthegarage]

I know its hard to resist the urge sometimes but you've done so great by going a year without it.

Have you ever tried stuff like flicking elastic bands or pinching yourself to cope? Or did you go full cold turkey with it?

Its ultimately your decision what you do but I'd never want anyone to relapse.

i tried a few 'coping' methods but the only thing that stopped me was getting piercings so now i have a fair few lol. so cold turkey mixed with getting stabbed i guess. <3

 

[Sinai Silence]

i tried a few 'coping' methods but the only thing that stopped me was getting piercings so now i have a fair few lol. so cold turkey mixed with getting stabbed i guess. <3

Same with me, not as much piercings (although I do want more) as tattoos though. I've got my next appointment in August and I couldn't be more excited.

Here's to getting stabbed

 

[illbeinthegarage]

Same with me, not as much piercings (although I do want more) as tattoos though. I've got my next appointment in August and I couldn't be more excited.

Here's to getting stabbed

ahhh enjoy !! i should be getting a few tats soon too :)

 

[Sinai Silence]

ahhh enjoy !! i should be getting a few tats soon too :)

Ooh nice! What are you planning on getting?

 

[illbeinthegarage]

Ooh nice! What are you planning on getting?

i have a few planned that i cant afford yet but im starting off with a few small ones to go over my shitty stick and pokes (just words and song lyrics i already poked into myself when i was 17). i design my own tattoos and since i work in a tattoo studio i have people to help me with designs and placements. i also promised if i made it to my next birthday staying clean, ill get scar coverups :) how about you?

 

[Sinai Silence]

i have a few planned that i cant afford yet but im starting off with a few small ones to go over my shitty stick and pokes (just words and song lyrics i already poked into myself when i was 17). i design my own tattoos and since i work in a tattoo studio i have people to help me with designs and placements. i also promised if i made it to my next birthday staying clean, ill get scar coverups :) how about you?

Thats awesome man! I hope you can find the strength to stay clean to your next birthday.

Thats really awesome that you work in a tattoo studio, I would love to see some of your designs.

Im currently getting a sleeve done on my left arm. I only got the linework done before lockdown happened. So when I go back it will be to fill it all in and cover my scars :)

 

[Thinking]

What helps me most is drawing on myself in red pen. Sometimes I will cover literally my entire body in red ink.

Good luck man. We're all routing for you