Discussion Did you know anyone in your life who has ctb?

[TheSuicidalLlama]

I just realized that, if successful, I will be the only person I know in my life who has ctb.

 

[R_N]

Close to me? Not quite.
But i knew some people that ctb'd and one of them was a relative.

 

[hardtruth]

Dad, uncle, friend and a few people at my previous workplace.

 

[Lost_my_soul]

My best friend hung himself due to being bullied at school, I miss him a lot, he would forever be the most nicest person I have ever met in my life.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Mental illness runs in my family. My Dad was schizophrenic and hung himself.
I used to hate him for doing this when I was younger, but now I understand him.
I don't blame him for ctb, because I'm going to ctb myself in the near future.

 

[Lost_my_soul]

Mental illness runs in my family. My Dad was schizophrenic and hung himself.
I used to hate him for doing this when I was younger, but now I understand him.
I don't blame him for ctb, because I'm going to ctb myself in the near future.

And also I believe that most of the people who have suicidal tendencies seem happy and mostly act like pro-lifers although they are dead inside. Atleast, this is what I have observed in my experience.

 

[R_N]

Dad, uncle, friend and a few people at my previous workplace.

Mental illness runs in my family. My Dad was schizophrenic and hung himself.
I used to hate him for doing this when I was younger, but now I understand him.
I don't blame him for ctb, because I'm going to ctb myself in the near future.

Do you guys think that those suicides pushed you in the same direction to a certain degree?

This is a thing that worries me when my time comes.

 

[hardtruth]

There is research that shows suicide is genetic somehow.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Do you guys think that those suicides pushed you in the same direction to a certain degree?

This is a thing that worries me when my time comes.

I guess it has affected me on a subconscious level.
I began suffering from clinical depression age 7. My Dad ctb when I was 9.
But, a lifetime of depression, and bipolar 1are my main reasons to ctb.

And also I believe that most of the people who have suicidal tendencies seem happy and mostly act like pro-lifers although they are dead inside. Atleast, this is what I have observed in my experience.

A lot of suicidal people seem happy because they are committed to ending their lives, therefore they feel a great sense of relief that the end of suffering is in sight.
I'm most definitely dead inside, I died a long time ago, and can't exist for much longer.

 

[LonelyFerret]

One of my classmate's dad drowned himself while we were in elementary school. They lived in my neighborhood and that's all anybody talked about for a long time. I've never had someone close to me CTB.

 

[Gonnerr]

No but you never know that some death might be accident disguise in suicide or murder.

 

[gardenfairy]

my uncle ctb by hanging and wound up brain-dead in the hospital for a week before they shut his life support off. i had a lot of guilt about my own suicidal thoughts after seeing how it affected my dad. it's heartbreaking.

 

[absolutelyyou]

My mother. Life has been better since then if I'm being honest but its cause I no longer have to concern myself with the pain that was her abusive nature towards me.

 

[ddn.ctb]

Two. One hanged himself the other she burned herself in a car.

 

[vampire2002]

only one that i knew personally. he was my uncle. he was a good guy but (obviously) had a lot of issues. my mom was an emotional wreck for many years after his death and it really affected her ability to take care of my brother and i (not blaming anyone, just stating)

 

[StellaSomnus]

Nope but let me be the first one within my family and relatives