SomewhereAlongThe
Arcanist
- May 17, 2024
- 462
Every since I entered the group home system I've had staff say to me, "I've read your file, your abuse is not as bad as x and z" However, I wish someone would walk a mile in my shoes and feel the pain and numbness I do. Even if it isn't as bad x and z. No, my dad didn't sexually abuse me, but he did abandon me as a baby. I know that's probably not as bad as it could be, but it hurts pretty damn bad. I just feel constantly invalidated. My mother hit me as a punishment, but others say their mothers hit them for no reason at all. Both suck pretty badly, but I keep hearing the criticism that one is worse than the other. My life has been horrible, the constant struggle with autism and recently being diagnosed with bipolar disorder has shook me to my core. Even now, I don't feel comfortable leaving my room, I feel confined to it. I've been crying a lot recently, I'm in pain, and soon I'm going to go. These rat races in life drive me to end of my life, who am I to have to compete with everyone?
