Despair

[tartvinegar]

Today was suppose to be the day I ctb, I have all my stuff prepared except for benzos (which I couldn't get) and SN (still stuck in transit)

My plan was to ctb before the 28th which is when I'm officially fired. I'm mad at USPS for throwing a wrench in that plan.

I'm just tired, depressed and in pain. I already had 2 suicide attempts, unsuccessful. I just want to find peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting to be at peace, I also feel so tired of suffering in this existence, to be permanently at peace from this cruel, painful existence and never suffer ever again is all I hope for, I hope that you find the relief you search for.

 

[Worndown]

Not your best day. Is delivery expected soon? Are there benzo alternatives?
Take the extra time to track down your last supply.

 

[tartvinegar]

Benzos are tightly regulated where I am, I could only get beta blockers.

 

[CravingPeace]

Ugh, I'm sorry that your SN has still not arrived yet. I just reached out to DMC about my package being stuck at a certain step of transportation and they basically said "it's been 5 days bro chill out" in kinder words.

I hope yours gets there by the end of the day. Sending good mojo your way!

 

[tartvinegar]

It's weird that all our packages made it to the US but then got stuck at the sorting facility. It makes me think they've caught on and we're going to get a welfare check any minute now

 

[Skylar6]

Today was suppose to be the day I ctb, I have all my stuff prepared except for benzos (which I couldn't get) and SN (still stuck in transit)

My plan was to ctb before the 28th which is when I'm officially fired. I'm mad at USPS for throwing a wrench in that plan.

I'm just tired, depressed and in pain. I already had 2 suicide attempts, unsuccessful. I just want to find peace.

Same. I can't face the problems I have. Am supposed to be gone today. Thought I had figured out how, but could not get it right no matter how many times I tried. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up.

 

[tartvinegar]

They just announced my firing, I was hoping to avoid this humiliation by ctb before then.

It's just so tiring and such a battle. Nothing but bad things and bad news happens. It's just time to go.