annxietty
“Is there no way out of the mind?”
- Mar 27, 2023
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Im hurting everyone around me, nobody smiles around me, my parents dont know what to do, Ive been asking for help so much, using different words, different methods... I have a post-it with the password to my phone where I wrote many of my thoughts, thinking that maybe one day I will die/kill myself and wanted to leave something behind... My anxietty is all over the place, cant eat, all I do is cry, happiness is not even an option and now not even peace, I want to live thats why Im like this, before when I wanted to die it was easier, I have something coming up in June something that will change my life, how can I build anything if I cant even walk my dogs without a panic attack... everything is so painful when you cant even trust yourself.
Im tired, this is my limit, anxiety has completely taken over my life, people just dont understand it, is so hard seeing everyone getting disappointed at you because you cant do what everyone else can, you are the reason everyone is sad, I have my parents telling me often that they only want me to be happy, its the only thing they say they fight for but Ive asked for help so many times so many times, asking for therapy for example... When I tried to kill myself I didnt once ask for help, because I wanted to die, now I want to live, I need help...
Thanks to anyone that reads this, Im not very active on this site because lately Ive just been completely broken... but this means a lot to me, that a place like this exists... thank you, Im scared but I will try to live, I just fear living a life full of despair and sadness...
I feel a little better after writing this.
Im tired, this is my limit, anxiety has completely taken over my life, people just dont understand it, is so hard seeing everyone getting disappointed at you because you cant do what everyone else can, you are the reason everyone is sad, I have my parents telling me often that they only want me to be happy, its the only thing they say they fight for but Ive asked for help so many times so many times, asking for therapy for example... When I tried to kill myself I didnt once ask for help, because I wanted to die, now I want to live, I need help...
Thanks to anyone that reads this, Im not very active on this site because lately Ive just been completely broken... but this means a lot to me, that a place like this exists... thank you, Im scared but I will try to live, I just fear living a life full of despair and sadness...
I feel a little better after writing this.