Discussion Desires for suicide

[derwikinger]

I am 70 years old and I am tired of living. I have wanted to suicide all my life but I do not have the balls to do it. I am looking for a relatively painless way, or if it is painful, then very quickly.

I said I wanted to commit suicide, but I never seem to do so — why? Every night when I go to sleep I dream about ways to end my life. However, I have fears concerning it that I cannot seem to work my way through. Some say it is a coward's way out. Try doing it some time. It takes a lot of guts. I am not afraid to die. What am I afraid of?

1. That my attempt will partially succeed, leaving me a vegetable.

2. That my attempt will succeed but that something will go wrong and it will take me hours to die slowly and painfully.

3. That I will be discovered part way in my suicide and be saved from it to spend the rest of my life in an insane asylum.

4. That my wife will not recover from my death and either suicide herself or become mentally or emotionally unbalanced.

Looking for advise and suggestions.

 

[HelensNepenthe]

Our community cannot tell you what to do, only you can choose your path and actions. What I can say is that you're definitely within the age group to join a group such as Exit International or VAD* organizations like Dignitas or Pegasos.

Copies of Exit International's Peaceful Pill handbook exist on here. I would encourage fact checking as emails listed in those books could be altered by scammers. The Peaceful Pill Handbook should give you the answers that you're looking for.

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VAD: Voluntary Assisted Dying

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Hello and welcome to this dark corner of the internet.
Being 70 years old you are very likely can apply for voluntary euthanasia through Pegasos or Dignitas but it costs money (ten thousand euros+travel costs). This would eliminate 3 out of 4 concerns you have.
Also there's Exit International organisation, they provide info on peaceful method to end one's life to those who are older than 50, they have a forum but you need to pay a fee.

This very place have plenty of information. Please just look around. There's also resources thread available on the top of the page.

 

[_Minsk]

Hello and welcome to this dark corner of the internet.
Being 70 years old you are very likely can apply for voluntary euthanasia through Pegasos or Dignitas but it costs money (ten thousand euros+travel costs). This would eliminate 3 out of 4 concerns you have.
Also there's Exit International organisation, they provide info on peaceful method to end one's life to those who are older than 50, they have a forum but you need to pay a fee.

This very place have plenty of information. Please just look around. There's also resources thread available on the top of the page.

wooow... ten thousand euros for some nebutal and assistance?

 

[Soul]

Hello @derwikinger. I reckon everyone here is very familiar with more than one of the fears you've laid out so succinctly. It's unfortunate that society requires us to do such risky hard things instead of providing the means for a quick and effective exit.

The Resource Compilation near the top of the forum includes miles of educational links. And as others have said, you may wish to look up Exit International to see if they're a good fit for you.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

wooow... ten thousand euros for some nebutal and assistance?

Including assessment and cremation

 

[derwikinger]

I have been considering partial suspension hanging. I have good strong rafters in my garage, and it is closed off in a way that only my wife or the police can discover my corpse. I just wish that my wife would not have to discover me. Suggestions?

 

[HelensNepenthe]

I'm afraid that someone will have to identify the body. Your wife could willingly practice her right to not confirm the body and have someone else do it. In the case that the police have identified your body, your wife could spend time at the morgue with you while she is grieving.

True love is accepting someone's mortality. If your wife had wanted to go, you would be sad, but also supporting in her own decision. Have you spoken about looking into VAD organizations to your wife? The upfront costs are quite expensive. These are perfectly legal ways of going peacefully without any fear. An overdose of nembutal that you drink and you'll be drifting into a deep coma.

I wold read more into Exit or VAD organizations. You most certainly fit the demographic of all these organizations. Perhaps this could be an intimate way that your wife and you could bond with. When the times are rough, we have options to go peacefully without the fear of becoming a vegetable.

 

[derwikinger]

I could put my drivers license in my shirt pocket maybe passport in my trousers. Do you think then my wife would have to identify me?