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fuewybfunsfoiceoi

fuewybfunsfoiceoi

life is short, make it shorter
Mar 3, 2024
93
For me, I think of daily life and ctb as a carrot and a stick.
Living is generally the stick, and ctb is the carrot that dangles in front of me.
In my head I think of a donkey with a fishing rod taped to its back with the carrot which is positioned in front of the donkey. It's similar to the light of an anglerfish.

Ctb is a warm hug, it's a fuzzy blanket, or a friend by my side.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,122
For me, I think it's almost a planned obsolescence. Like an appliance, I developed a 'fault' or rather- something horrible happened aged 10 that planted the CTB seed. Weirdly, I still believe in free choice. I'm not a great believer of predeterminism or destiny but, I think shit can happen in life that makes it much more likely we'll take this route.

As for what might promt me to do it (hopefully) some day- I'd point to the example many people have quoted here: The case of a person poised at the window frame at the top of a burning sky scraper. They're still terrified to jump but, the fire (representing their life) frightens them more.
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,211
I view choosing to ctb (cease to be) like stepping off a treadmill that you didn't ask to be on, where the incline keeps increasing and your legs are giving out. Some people manage to keep running, finding their rhythm or little rewards along the way. Others trip, fall, and scrape themselves repeatedly, trying to get back up. For some, the pain, exhaustion, or futility outweighs the chance of ever finding balance again.
 
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L'absent

L'absent

Banned
Aug 18, 2024
1,391
CTB is like a key left on a table in an empty room, an object that neither influences nor interferes, but exists as the inevitable consequence of a set of circumstances. It is not the key that determines the opening of the door, but the complexity of a path that made it necessary, like a cog in a mechanism moving toward its natural conclusion.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,803
Ctb is like the get out of jail card in monopoly. There's a chance that you could get this card but there's also a chance for you to get an even worse card instead. If you were to get lucky enough with the get out of jail card, you're completely free. If you aren't as lucky, you failed the attempt and are still stuck in jail but with worse consequences. You're inevitably going to leave the jail anyways since we all have to die anyway but wouldn't you want to get out of this jail even quicker? I certainly would
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
1,368
I am stuck in a torture chamber very achingly slowly bleeding to death and being humiliated and hurt by life itself. Maybe life will stop hurting me for a bit and I am okay for a bit but it will always come back to hurt me again. I just want to die so this suffering will end but I don't know how I can do that and if I try something I might be caught and have to be punished for trying to kill myself.
 
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Haematemesis

Haematemesis

Member
Jan 12, 2025
67
It is like money. You don't really desire money. You just can't be without it. Without it you are miserable but gaining it is also hard.
 
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idelttoilfsadness21

I need a moment right now
Jan 6, 2025
650
My ctb is like my signature, but more in depth relating regarding how life spuns at everything to make me endure torment, envy, horror, pain, misery, and suffering for me to exist. It's something I am forced to deal with, something to write grasps at, and something to change into, while my ctb is more freeing and liberating, will not change me, will not hurt me, will not abuse me, and equally will love me unconditionally, something that has sense and simplistic clarity, and all anyone wants is things to be both easily met and calm. My ctb means everything to me because it holds the power to me having power that I never had, as others have mentioned it being a key, this world being a chamber, an incline, an object to gravel at, mine settles more on the impact of owning your power back to giving yourself more freedom and structure, and to never be limited again…
 
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SilentSadness

SilentSadness

Absurdity is reality.
Feb 28, 2023
1,309
Crawling out through a hole in the barbed wire of a concentration camp.
 
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Valhala

Valhala

Arcanist
Jul 30, 2024
429
Shortcut. Given that death is certainly the only certain thing for us, CTB is just a shortcut to the inevitable end.
 
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soonnotkoei

soonnotkoei

got my foot in the grave
Sep 24, 2024
177
ctb is the "Quit game" button of the unimaginably unfair game of life. a game where you're locked on the hardest difficulty setting. the self doubts are the "Are you sure you want to quit the game?" dialogue box.
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
531
life is running a race while your opponents are olympians you are just a normal person and you are not even wearing shoes. Every step you take is painful and you get further and further behind. So so catching the bus is quitting the race you will never set up to win in the first place
 
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Jadeith

Experienced
Jan 14, 2025
262
It's a "power off" button on your remote when you watch extremely sad and embarrassing movie with yourself as a main character.
 

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