Describe how you feel rn through a poem or a quote.

[Silent_cries]

Haven't seen anyone else do it so far so there you go. You can write multiple too if you want. There are no limits really. Just don't spam and be considerate.

Figured this would be a nice way to vent for y'all.

Also I love quotes and poetry tbh. Especually ones I relate to.

 

[Tesha]

"I always like walking in the rain, so no one can see me crying." - Charlie Chaplin

 

[lacrimosa]

Alone, lost, broken transmissions float into the empty space of static non-existence.

Calm but paranoid that this is my last chance to say something, anything. I talk to myself in the dark. Power cells are drained and nothing's changed. Not since communications were cut.

No signal, no replies. I lie to myself saying everything will be okay.

Panic sets in as I try to rest and close my eyes. I squeeze them shut tight but sleep makes no difference to this endless night.

I miss sharp corners and falling to the ground. If I could only stub my toe I would weep tears of joy.

Out here, there are no echoes, no sounds of Mother Nature, no saviours or alien entities, just the repetitive behaviour of filling out logs and endless journal entries.

It feels like I've been adrift for centuries. What a gift it would be to lift my spirits so I drink vodka that I smuggled on this derelict ship, taking sips through a cold metal straw to numb these feelings as I float up towards the ceiling once more. Floating gently like I'm in an endless ocean with no shore.

Swallow pills to sleep and then rinse and repeat. Beeps warn of my impending doom as I lie suspended like a child in its dead mother's womb.

I can relate to this ship. The empty, hollow passageways and corridors have become my friends.

Madness set in long ago.

The end has to happen eventually. So, I open the airlock door and as the air escapes I smile because this was my fate and I will join the billions whom have already left as I wait for death to welcome me home.

 

[Mirrory Me]

"There is nothing more helpless and irresponsible then man in the depths of ether binge...".

Jk. Trying to figure one for a picture...

 

[ryba]

iirc, this is a translated ancient Greek poem in a book by Will Durant:

"Not to be born never to see the sun;
No worldly blessing is a greater one!
The next best is swiftly to die,
And lapt beneath a load of earth to lie."

hopefully i did not butcher the translation/source, but the spirit of the poem is there.

 

[Silent_cries]

I'm starting to give up. I don't see the point of going on anymore because no matter what I do I just end up hurting people.


I'm so tired of my constant anxieties and overthinking, I just wish I could shut down my brain permanently.

No matter what I do I just feel like I'm walking into the same wall over and over again. I'm not making progress ever. I'm stuck in a bad cycle I can't get out of and I feel so hopeless for not being able to get out of it.

Maybe going for recovery was a mistake, maybe I should have just ended it already.

 

[eatantz]

 

[derpyderpins]

Sometimes I lie awake at night and think 'where did I go wrong?'

Then a voice says to me: 'this is going to take more than one night...'

- Charlie Brown

 

[flunkky]

"I'm in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you"
-John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

 

[Silent_cries]

Demons. Kill, kill! They are controlling me! I need to kill! Here we go again...

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Taking CBD,
I'd rather CTB.
Fuck anxiety,
I wish that I were free
What does she see?
Why can't I be,
Someone other than me?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

"The strong do what they will and the weak suffer what they must".

Right now I am the weak

 

[spiraloutdeath]

I thought I was an alive until i got ill then realised i would give anything to live.
I cant turn back the sands of time, oh how i prayed every night
Then it makes me wonder why am i here
Suffering
CBT is the door, but to where?

 

[Paradise]

"Having the right to fail is your reward for trying"

 

[samdocheon]

"When I die, fuck it, I wanna go to hell
'Cause I'm a piece of shit, it ain't hard to fuckin' tell
It don't make sense, goin' to heaven with the goodie-goodies
Dressed in white, I like black Timbs and black hoodies
God'll prob'ly have me on some real strict shit
No sleepin' all day, no gettin' my dick licked
Hangin' with the goodie-goodies, loungin' in paradise
Fuck that shit, I wanna tote guns and shoot dice
All my life I been considered as the worst
Lyin' to my mother, even stealin' out her purse
Crime after crime, from drugs to extortion
I know my mother wish she got a fuckin' abortion
She don't even love me like she did when I was younger
Suckin' on her chest just to stop my fuckin' hunger
I wonder, if I died, would tears come to her eyes?
Forgive me for my disrespect, forgive me for my lies
My baby mother's eight months, her little sister's two
Who's to blame for both of them?
I swear to God I want to just slit my wrists and end this bullshit
Throw the Magnum to my head, threaten to pull shit
And squeeze until the bed's completely red
I'm glad I'm dead, a worthless fuckin' buddha head
The stress is buildin' up, I can't— I can't believe
Suicide's on my fuckin' mind, I wanna leave
I swear to God I feel like death is fuckin' callin' me
But nah, you wouldn't understand
You see it's kinda like the crack did to Pookie in New Jack
Except when I cross over, there ain't no comin' back
Should I die on the train track like Ramo in Beat Street"

- Notorious Big

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

It's quiet,
It storms,
I'm so cold,
Ice forms,

It rushes,
It blows,
It crushes,
It destroys,

It's all around,
It's inside,
It fills me,
It quiets down,

I'm tired,
Hope thrown aside,
Only thoughts,
Of suicide,

Of ending,
I'm empty,
I'm calm,
It tempts me,

It whispers,
It calls,
They're right there,
Echoeing between these very walls,

Find us, grab us,
Squeeze us, combine us,
Grind us, dissolve us,
Mix us, swallow us,

Swallow us, swallow us,

We will end your pain,
We will end your suffering,
You have nothing left to lose,
And everything to gain,

We will express your music,
We will warm your veins,
We will quicken your heart,
We will silence the complaints,

We will make you nauseous,
We might make you throw up,
But we will finish your song,
If you finish this cup,

We will show you the universe,
We will release your soul,
Don't be nervous,
We will make you feel whole,

Your throat may burn,
Your stomach may churn,
But this will soon be over,
We will provide you with closure,

You can be at peace,
Your breathing halting,
Your heart faltering,
Your oxygen levels plummeting,

Your mouth will be agape,
Gasping for air,
Your eyes will be wide,
But no longer seeing whats there,

Everyone else will see pain,
But you, you only feel the soft rain,

The rain you long for,
It always calms you down,
It used to ease your suffering,
It trickles down your pale skin now,

It cools your essence,
Caresses your soul,
Dripping dripping, down blue fingers,
Tickling your mind,
It lingers, making you feel,
Alive,

Your body awaiting,
Turned loose,
Set free,
Breaking,

You will see the light,
You will feel no discomfort,
Body twitching, moving in vain,
Unaware, It knows not yet it's dead,
But it will, soon now,
Eyes blank, A lifeless stare,
The world opens up,
You look down at your remains,

But that's not you,

You will not feel this pain,
You will not feel any sorrow,
Your body is not you anymore,
We will explain,

You will take flight,
You will soar,
You will be happy,
You will be no more,

You will dissolve in light,
In fire, In darkness,
A pyre, A boat,
Engulfed in flames,
Set upon us,

Everything will make sense,
You will simply float along,
The relief immense,
No more wrong,

You have waited so long,
You have fought so hard,
You have done your best,
You are allowed to depart,
You will finally belong,

Take us, take us,
They whisper,
TAKE US TAKE US,
They scream,

Let us gift you this dream,
Let us stop the nightmares,
Those during the day and those at night,
Let us stop this despair,

Take us take us
Gather us break us,
Swallow us swallow us,
We will keep our word,
We won't let you down,

Take uss, ake usss, ake sssss, k ss
It echoes, choess, ooss
We promise, omise,

Take us






(oh my, I've reached the moment I'm wondering whether this is too much, even for on here. It's not an encouragement of any kind, but rather meant as a view on the struggle to keep living)

 

[Silent_cries]

It's quiet,
It storms,
I'm so cold,
Ice forms,

It rushes,
It blows,
It crushes,
It destroys,

It's all around,
It's inside,
It fills me,
It quiets down,

I'm tired,
Hope thrown aside,
Only thoughts,
Of suicide,

Of ending,
I'm empty,
I'm calm,
It tempts me,

It whispers,
It calls,
They're right there,
Echoeing between these very walls,

Find us, grab us,
Squeeze us, combine us,
Grind us, dissolve us,
Mix us, swallow us,

Swallow us, swallow us,

We will end your pain,
We will end your suffering,
You have nothing left to lose,
And everything to gain,

We will express your music,
We will warm your veins,
We will quicken your heart,
We will silence the complaints,

We will make you nauseous,
We might make you throw up,
But we will finish your song,
If you finish this cup,

We will show you the universe,
We will release your soul,
Don't be nervous,
We will make you feel whole,

Your throat may burn,
Your stomach may churn,
But this will soon be over,
We will provide you with closure,

You can be at peace,
Your breathing halting,
Your heart faltering,
Your oxygen levels plummeting,

Your mouth will be agape,
Gasping for air,
Your eyes will be wide,
But no longer seeing whats there,

Everyone else will see pain,
But you, you only feel the soft rain,

The rain you long for,
It always calms you down,
It used to ease your suffering,
It trickles down your pale skin now,

It cools your essence,
Caresses your soul,
Dripping dripping, down blue fingers,
Tickling your mind,
It lingers, making you feel,
Alive,

Your body awaiting,
Turned loose,
Set free,
Breaking,

You will see the light,
You will feel no discomfort,
Body twitching, moving in vain,
Unaware, It knows not yet it's dead,
But it will, soon now,
Eyes blank, A lifeless stare,
The world opens up,
You look down at your remains,

But that's not you,

You will not feel this pain,
You will not feel any sorrow,
Your body is not you anymore,
We will explain,

You will take flight,
You will soar,
You will be happy,
You will be no more,

You will dissolve in light,
In fire, In darkness,
A pyre, A boat,
Engulfed in flames,
Set upon us,

Everything will make sense,
You will simply float along,
The relief immense,
No more wrong,

You have waited so long,
You have fought so hard,
You have done your best,
You are allowed to depart,
You will finally belong,

Take us, take us,
They whisper,
TAKE US TAKE US,
They scream,

Let us gift you this dream,
Let us stop the nightmares,
Those during the day and those at night,
Let us stop this despair,

Take us take us
Gather us break us,
Swallow us swallow us,
We will keep our word,
We won't let you down,

Take uss, ake usss, ake sssss, k ss
It echoes, choess, ooss
We promise, omise,

Take us






(oh my, I've reached the moment I'm wondering whether this is too much, even for on here. It's not an encouragement of any kind, but rather meant as a view on the struggle to keep living)

I think this is really good tbh. I feel like ligatures tempts me like that too tbh. Sure wish I had access to any opiods, n or sn though :/ You're so darn lucky if you do! I only have my clothes and 1 measly anchor point...

 

[Nephy]

"A final step into the darkness, to find the light.
The price for peace?
Everything I was.
But finally, finally, the pain ends."

- quote by myself

 

[sugarb]

Haven't seen anyone else do it so far so there you go. You can write multiple too if you want. There are no limits really. Just don't spam and be considerate.

Figured this would be a nice way to vent for y'all.

Also I love quotes and poetry tbh. Especually ones I relate to.

I have somewhere to be. A wide open place by a long lonely highway, with gun in hand and the wind in my face. But for tonight, I'll settle for the wind.

- me, rn


3. For Paul Laurence Dunbar

Born of the sorrowful of heart
Mirth was a crown upon his head;
Pride kept his twisted lips apart
In jest, to hide a heart that bled.

- Four Epitaphs by Countee Cullen


Not how I currently feel but it's one of my favorite poems:

There is an autumn sadness upon me,
A sadness of bared trees,
And mist and delicate death of flowers.
There is an autumn sadness upon me,
A falling of leaves in my soul.

There is an autumn sadness upon me,
A dreamfulness in my heart,
And a wistful sense of longing.
There is faint moaning music
Like cries of departing birds.

There are trembling hands on my eyelids,
A dim foreknowledge of tears
And dreams, patterning ultimate slumber.
There is an autumn sadness upon me,
A falling of leaves in my soul.

- Before Sleep by Elsa Gidlow

 

[Dead Horse]

The City
By C. P. Cavafy
Translated by Edmund Keeley and Philip Sherrard

You said: "I'll go to another country, go to another shore,
find another city better than this one.
Whatever I try to do is fated to turn out wrong
and my heart lies buried like something dead.
How long can I let my mind moulder in this place?
Wherever I turn, wherever I look,
I see the black ruins of my life, here,
where I've spent so many years, wasted them, destroyed them totally."

You won't find a new country, won't find another shore.
This city will always pursue you.
You'll walk the same streets, grow old
in the same neighborhoods, turn gray in these same houses.
You'll always end up in this city. Don't hope for things elsewhere:
there's no ship for you, there's no road.
Now that you've wasted your life here, in this small corner,
you've destroyed it everywhere in the world.

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

I think this is really good tbh. I feel like ligatures tempts me like that too tbh. Sure wish I had access to any opiods, n or sn though :/ You're so darn lucky if you do! I only have my clothes and 1 measly anchor point...

Thank you, that means a lot to me!

Yeah I know, I'd prefer N over anything else but..

I'm sorry to hear that!
I wish it wasn't so difficult to give yourself a peaceful ending instead of having to resort to less ideal ways..

 

[nux_walpurgis]

I hope the exit is joyful and I jope never to return
-- Frida Kahlo

 

[Silent_cries]

People say depression is lonely witch is true, but I don't think anybody realises just how lonely severe anxiety is.

-Me

 

[acetone..]

Living itself is the source of sin. As long as I can make them laugh, it doesn't matter how, I'll be alright. If I succeed in that, the human beings probably won't mind it too much if I remain outside their lives. The one thing I must avoid is becoming offensive in their eyes: I shall be nothing, the wind, the sky. - Dazai Osamu

 

[Steff1337]

"I stayed in my head too much, and went insane." - E.A. Poe

 

[YearZero]

I want my own abortion of self, my doctor was useless.

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

"I stayed in my head too much, and went insane." - E.A. Poe

I love this one! Very relatable

 

[Ironborn]

Then out spake brave Horatius,
The Captain of the gate:
'To every man upon this earth
Death cometh soon or late.
And how can man die better
Than facing fearful odds,
For the ashes of his fathers,
And the temples of his Gods,

'And for the tender mother
Who dandled him to rest,
And for the wife who nurses
His baby at her breast,
And for the holy maidens
Who feed the eternal flame,
To save them from false Sextus
That wrought the deed of shame?

'Hew down the bridge, Sir Consul,
With all the speed ye may;
I, with two more to help me,
Will hold the foe in play.
In yon strait path a thousand
May well be stopped by three.
Now who will stand on either hand,
And keep the bridge with me?

Then out spake Spurius Lartius;
A Ramnian proud was he:
'Lo, I will stand at thy right hand,
And keep the bridge with thee.'
And out spake strong Herminius;
Of Titian blood was he:
'I will abide on thy left side,
And keep the bridge with thee.'

'Horatius,' quoth the Consul,
'As thou sayest, so let it be.'
And straight against that great array
Forth went the dauntless Three.
For Romans in Rome's quarrel
Spared neither land nor gold,
Nor son nor wife, nor limb nor life,
In the brave days of old.

Then none was for a party;
Then all were for the state;
Then the great man helped the poor,
And the poor man loved the great:
Then lands were fairly portioned;
Then spoils were fairly sold:
The Romans were like brothers
In the brave days of old.

Now Roman is to Roman
More hateful than a foe,
And the Tribunes beard the high,
And the Fathers grind the low.
As we wax hot in faction,
In battle we wax cold:
Wherefore men fight not as they fought
In the brave days of old

-'Horatius' by Thomas Babington Macaulay