druggedonsurvival
Student
- Feb 8, 2024
- 193
They say that depression skews our perspective, but just because we have a different perspective as people with depression doesn't mean that it's wrong. If we are to give credence to the chemical imbalance theory of depression, this point is the same. Maybe our brains have a different chemical composition than the neurotypical brain, but does that mean it is necessarily "imbalanced?" No, it's just different.
Perhaps people with depression simply have the ability to comprehend existence in a way that most "normal" people cannot. This is what the theory of "depressive realism" purports. We see reality, we see life for what it truly is... empty, full of suffering, etc. Thus suicide is the greatest rebellion against the mainstream, a reminder to society that life is not really so great, and indeed, is not really worth living.
I've been thinking about this recently because I have felt less of a desire to ctb, and I suspect that it may be a result of this new medication I'm on. Rather than give me a sense of relief, it makes me feel as though I'm being fooled into an empty existence through pacification (i.e., medication). It's stripping away my ability to see my life as it truly is. Maybe one day I will stop taking all my meds, to reaffirm what my mind in its most natural state perceives of my life.
Perhaps people with depression simply have the ability to comprehend existence in a way that most "normal" people cannot. This is what the theory of "depressive realism" purports. We see reality, we see life for what it truly is... empty, full of suffering, etc. Thus suicide is the greatest rebellion against the mainstream, a reminder to society that life is not really so great, and indeed, is not really worth living.
I've been thinking about this recently because I have felt less of a desire to ctb, and I suspect that it may be a result of this new medication I'm on. Rather than give me a sense of relief, it makes me feel as though I'm being fooled into an empty existence through pacification (i.e., medication). It's stripping away my ability to see my life as it truly is. Maybe one day I will stop taking all my meds, to reaffirm what my mind in its most natural state perceives of my life.