Discussion Depression since day 1 = One life utterly wasted..

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

25, Worked tons of different jobs, depressed since birth and i mean it, used to go crazy as a small kid and destroy things every day like a lunatic.

I have no idea what i want to do in the ("Good citizen sense") honestly i just wanna ctb, its all i can think about every minute of the day. We spend years of the one life we have learning things only for it to mean nothing, its only real use is to create a safe room filled with shit to keep you more sedated and "happy"

Everything has the damn age/time bubble around it and to me it's like fuck.. Can't just exist without there being some shit attached or reminding you that times wasting. I've noticed for me that as the years go by and my mind gets worse, the effects of brain fog have destroyed any kind of academic progress i had.

Things i knew really good have just melted away into nothingness, i can't remember dates or names, locations or anything. People question if i have even existed on this planet. wish i didn't ngl.

I don't really care that it's wasted anymore, just wanted to vomit out my thoughts to be honest, it's tiring this life thing aint it?

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly agree that existing here is tiring, I'm also always just wishing to be gone, simply just existing here makes the thought of non-existence sound so incredibly appealing.