Venting Depression made me stupid

[dayhell]

It's horrible how much my intellect has deteriorated after about 10 years of depression. I used to be smart, a fast learner, always got the best grades, and everyone thought I would go to university. But I got depressed in high school and couldn't continue my studies. Since then I've always been in too much pain to pay attention to the things happening around me or care about the people who love me and I don't know anything about them or the world. At this point I don't even understand basic things that everyone seems to get and I keep making mistakes and causing inconvenience at my minimum wage job because of how stupid I am. I always forget everything, constantly need help with something, often lose awareness of my surroundings, I'm slow and inefficient, and not even good company. I don't know the answer to the simplest of questions that come up in everyday conversation and it's really embarrassing. I wonder if my brain is just damaged after all this pain and suffering. I just want it all to end.

 

[Ch4in3dcr0w]

yeah i also relate to that heavly im not depressed as long as u are or it didnt affect me as much but i still felt the stagnation in my life. I feel like i wasted a lot of time i could use to learn and alot of opportunities have been permanently closed. Whatever u choose to do etheir it be CTB or recovery i wish u all the luck and remember u are not stupid u didnt chose to be depressed and feel so much pain that basic things are a trouble for u now. Much love and once again good luck on your journey whatever u choose to do going forward

 

[dayhell]

Thank you, I appreciate your support.