It's like being an cyborg and getting infected with some sort of virus..
Yesterday you felt perfectly fine but the next day you slowly begin to loose all your will to live.
Others say that "it's just a phase", "you'll be fine" and "you just make things up to get attention" but the reality is that it's not something that you "just made up".
It's just hard to continue the live the life like this, specially if you have to pretend like everything's fine but it isn't.
Even the hassle for me of ordering my Antidepressants from that online market, where I had to get invited first and then let some random guy help me find the right thing for me, is really annoying.
Luckily for me, I was good enough of hiding everything and my method of hiding things was really great so far. Maybe because I'm shy and a bit of an introvert.
I just don't want to be treated like someone who cannot live by it's own, I also don't want anyone to putting a fake façade around me, only because the way I am. The last thing I need, are some fake friends who are nice around me but too scared to be hones in fear of upsetting me or something.