I wish I were a cat
Sleep is good, death is better.
- Apr 14, 2023
- 67
Never really felt like belonged in this world. Even if I wasn't aware that I was an accidental baby, I'd still feel this way.
Being deeply depressed ruins relationships, friendships..everything. I've been depressed for a long time, almost 15 years and yes I have good days every now and then but deep down I'm am suffering greatly.
I have no real passions, no energy for life. It's just eat sleep work repeat.
Sleep is my happy place but I can hardly get a decent sleep to begin with.
I fantasize about suicide a lot, but fear of failure stops me going ahead...I do not want to end up as a vegetable. There's only so much suffering I can take though, so maybe one day I'll just act on impulse and hopefully succeed.
I'm so tired, so absolutely exhausted. Permanently run down.
I wish I wasn't born. I truly wish that I wasn't born.
Honestly might just spend Christmas alone (just with my cat). I don't have the energy to be around my family, the people who matter to me most.
Being deeply depressed ruins relationships, friendships..everything. I've been depressed for a long time, almost 15 years and yes I have good days every now and then but deep down I'm am suffering greatly.
I have no real passions, no energy for life. It's just eat sleep work repeat.
Sleep is my happy place but I can hardly get a decent sleep to begin with.
I fantasize about suicide a lot, but fear of failure stops me going ahead...I do not want to end up as a vegetable. There's only so much suffering I can take though, so maybe one day I'll just act on impulse and hopefully succeed.
I'm so tired, so absolutely exhausted. Permanently run down.
I wish I wasn't born. I truly wish that I wasn't born.
Honestly might just spend Christmas alone (just with my cat). I don't have the energy to be around my family, the people who matter to me most.