Death makes me happy

[EternalSleep]

Thinking about death makes my depression better.

I have done so many mistakes in my life. The only thing that will come close to wiping the slate clean is death. Once death happens, my brain and all its memories will be destroyed.

I won't feel anything anymore and that's a good thing.

I unfortunately can't kill myself for many reasons. So from now on whenever I feel bad I will think of death to cheer me up. Death is truly the ultimate freedom.

Do you find happiness in that this will all end?

 

[Jon86]

I find some calm in nihilism and the eventuality of death for everyone and everything.

It doesn't matter how much money you have, how beautiful your spouse is, how great your reputation is, at the end of the day you will die just like bum on the street or the man on death row.

Death is the ultimate equalizer or at least it appears to be.

I don't think much of what comes after death as I have no strong inclination beyond nothingness. It's like a dark abyss, what is there? I think of an end to my life as I know it, on Earth.

 

[NoOneKnows]

the thought of death also brings me calmness for couple of nanoseconds, until the reality comes to haunt me again. The ultimate feeling of bliss was when I discovered some reliable and accesible suicide method, unfortunatelly wasnt that easy eventually. But damn that blissful moment when you feel you can end it up anytime, nothing can beat that up

 

[wanttodie]

death makes me happy to

 

[Into The Wild]

Yeah...it gives me great comfort.

Whenever I think of my ex...who I still love with all my heart in bed with another man (well boy in his case really) then I think about it. It gives me pleasure to know those thoughts could stop in a moment if I prepare well enough. I just want those thoughts to stop. The drugs don't work.

When I think about how I have let my family down, or how much of a waste of space I am, then I think about it.

I think about it as I go to sleep (or try to) and hope that I will be one of those randoms who just don't wake up.

I think about how I don't have a job or a plan of any sort and fantasising about dying gives me a sort of plan. I haven't even started to work toward it fully yet, but there are a few ideas floating around in my head. The ultimate plan.

I completely understand you.

 

[Fucking loving it]

Death makes me calm.. so peaceful.

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

 

[Schopenhauer]

Thinking about death is very comforting. When I'm overwhelmed by life, I always contemplate death. And many days I can only sleep while wishing to never wake up again.

 

[Miro]

The thought of death and it's associated peace is comfortable.

 

[throwaway777]

death seems the only escape from my suffering .. being alive hurts and i feel trapped ... whenever i think about death, my heart feels so peaceful and free <3

 

[deathoverlife]

Thinking about death makes my depression better.

I have done so many mistakes in my life. The only thing that will come close to wiping the slate clean is death. Once death happens, my brain and all its memories will be destroyed.

I won't feel anything anymore and that's a good thing.

I unfortunately can't kill myself for many reasons. So from now on whenever I feel bad I will think of death to cheer me up. Death is truly the ultimate freedom.

Do you find happiness in that this will all end?

yes.. death facinates me and make me happy... when ever i feel overwhelmed..i just tell my self ..its all over...so dont bother..and it calms me.. the thought of death liberates me... just imagine how comforting death will be...
i used to cry my eyes out..melt into tears without any warning ..totally miserable.. from the time i decided on my exit date a.. i feel at peace... would not see next month... wow :)

 

[Maravillosa]

Death intrigues and scares me. I long for the release of death and the feeling of peace that I would experience at the moment of my death, but I am afraid that I will be forgotten. Of course, I tell myself that I will probably not care about my posthumous reputation once I am dead: either I will be in the afterlife and be beyond such petty worries as being remembered on Earth, or I will no longer have a conscious existence after death and be incapable of any worries.

 

[Trashcan]

The idea of nothingness brings me so much peace. I have made many mistakes in my life and often cringe when I look at the past. I have many painful memories. I despise how I look. I have no future and have mental disorders. The idea of all of that going away makes me feel peace. I know everyone will shit on me after I die, but knowing that I won't be able to care is also nice. Knowing that I won't care about my bad reputation or how I will be remembered (which will be in a negative light, let me tell you that much right now). The idea of not having to live another life. Never having to go to school again or work again. Never having to do anything again. Never having to suffer again.

 

[millefeui]

If I had any guarantees I will find nothingness after I die, I would feel more at peace with the idea of dying. But as of now, it still scares me. I am not scared of having a painful death or anything like that, it is the after that scares me. I just want to disappear, lose consciousness entirely.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

Like the others have said, the thought of death and dying calms me