Mr. Incapable
Also inadequate, incompetent, weak & powerless
- Jun 21, 2022
- 175
Death is inevitable. Everyone dies. We will all have to confront death at some point in our lives, whether that's sooner or later, so why is it so hard to CTB now? Survival instinct, I know.. but you'd think mentally we would be able to logically and rationally get over it. Why are our brains hardwired to self preserve our lives even against ourselves? Why can we not just allow ourselves to die while were still considered young (I mean anyone under the age of like 65) and capable vs. elderly and riddled with sickness and ill health. How many people are really blessed in their old age to die naturally and peacefully in their sleep? Because I personally don't know anyone who has.. 3 of my grandparents have passed and they were all sick.. in pain and struggling the breathe in their final days. No quality of life. The same goes for my great grandparents. If I don't CTB soon I will suffer and struggle mentally, emotionally and financially throughout life until old age, for what? To continue festering in my depression until I grow old and likely die from sickness and disease? I may have good health now but I absolutely have no quality of life. No career. No relationships. No money. I don't even have the ability to feel happy or content ever because I'm perpetually overwhelmed by my depression and anxiety to the point I'm no longer able to go out and 'live life' or even try to. I would prefer to die now at the age of 32 as I've already suffered enough and I'm still capable than experience the approaching downward spiral my life is about the take. I mean I'm already at rock bottom, but I'm able to be dragged through the mud if I don't CTB soon.