death by boredom

[Niko]

just a note: i know life is really hard and painful for a lot of people and a lot of us here, but I don't think the painful or sad stuff are why I'd like to ctb. Frankly, I think it's just an extreme form of boredom that makes me want to get out of this place.

so fucking bored with myself and my life and the world. Nothing to do, nothing to look forward to, no one to interact with. Everyday isn't traumatic or awful, I'm not being abused or attacked. It's just the plain old sameness of each day that's grating on me, coupled with the sense that nothing I try to do to fix this boredom ever works.

Again I'm not saying this applies to everybody. I'm sure a lot of people on this forum are truly suffering an intense form of pain, and a lot of times my emotions do fall sway to sadness or loneliness or even sometimes joy. but I feel like one of the strongest drivers for me to ctb is the (seemingly) innocuous state of boredom.

are any of you guys out-of-your-skull bored??

 

[Empty RN]

I can completely relate. I'm not interested in doing anything nor do I look forward to any event. I wish Holidays weren't so close because then you're surrounded by a ton of people who are thrilled with life. I could spend days just in bed and not care what's going on outside or the world around me. I'm 25, and often look at other people who are much older and wonder how they made it to that age

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

This is my method of choice too. I suffer from my various conditions but am also very bored. I am basically just existing within a vacuum I have engineered for myself. I'm okay with that because it beats the alternative, like having a stressful job or whatever, but ultimately it's no way to live. I think there is a kind of depressive inertia that can shorten people's lives, often happens to the elderly, but fingers crossed I can be that 30-something anomaly.

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

I can relate to this a lot. I feel this pressure on me to enjoy life and have exciting experiences, but I just don't. Nothing is deeply enjoyable to me and the loneliness just makes it worse with both issues feeding of off each other.

Being mostly in my room all day often bores me too, but I wonder if I could enjoy it more if there was nothing at the back of my head that told me that I'm doing this whole life thing wrong.

 

[worldexploder]

Boredom can be incredibly painful indeed. Many people don't understand this.

 

[Sasha]

Me rn, before I used to look forward to everything. Even the things others would find boring would interest me. Now I feel empty, nothing seems interesting anymore. I really want to get out of this dumb world.

 

[Xerxes]

I'm tired of living life with an expectation from society. Like I owe them for my existence. Why not just take myself out of the equation? No can't do that, society needs a cog in the machine to keep things going no matter if you're suffering or have an illness. Happiness comes with a consequence in my life.

 

[ChickenAndPotatoes]

Yeah I'm deadly bored too. I don't work and haven't worked in 3 years as I'm on disability. I have a payee (aka fiduciary) who gives me $450/month. But I still end up broke before the month is out. I don't have a tv or a laptop. Just my phone and a car. But I am deadly bored. I enjoy reading which I haven't done in over a week, haven't been in the mood to read. Been to antsy/unhappy to read. All I have to do: knitting, reading, watching YouTube, surfing the internet. It is definitely, most definetly, a prime factor in my desire to ctb. I could cry I'm so bored. No friends to chat or hang out with. No pets. No gaming system with tv. Just 4 walls. But I was thinking of starting Culinary school in February. But I don't think I could hold off on ctb that long. I ought to count my blessings though, I could be NOT on disability and homeless.

 

[OkTotti]

this first post pretty much crystallizes my thoughts for weeks now.. if you could die from boredom, i would have died weeks ago. I've done nothing this past week and no motivation to do anything. This Thanksgiving will be especially painful, i wonder if i could keep my mask up....

 

[TAW122]

I'm bored a good deal of the time and most of the day I often stew in my negative thoughts and torment of the situation that I'm in. Sometimes I stare at the ceiling for hours before I can fall asleep and when I'm not bored, I just play video games and/or browse YouTube, SS, and what not.

As far as people dying solely because of boredom, I'm not sure (physically) if that is possible by boredom alone, but the shortening of the lifespan due to the symptoms from boredom, I think that is more likely to happen (e.g. higher chance of heart disease, stroke, and what not).

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

The more bored I am = the more I'm depressed.

 

[Final Escape]

just a note: i know life is really hard and painful for a lot of people and a lot of us here, but I don't think the painful or sad stuff are why I'd like to ctb. Frankly, I think it's just an extreme form of boredom that makes me want to get out of this place.

so fucking bored with myself and my life and the world. Nothing to do, nothing to look forward to, no one to interact with. Everyday isn't traumatic or awful, I'm not being abused or attacked. It's just the plain old sameness of each day that's grating on me, coupled with the sense that nothing I try to do to fix this boredom ever works.

Again I'm not saying this applies to everybody. I'm sure a lot of people on this forum are truly suffering an intense form of pain, and a lot of times my emotions do fall sway to sadness or loneliness or even sometimes joy. but I feel like one of the strongest drivers for me to ctb is the (seemingly) innocuous state of boredom.

are any of you guys out-of-your-skull bored??

What makes u not bored? What were times where u were like omg this is so exciting I could pee lol!

 

[Niko]

What makes u not bored? What were times where u were like omg this is so exciting I could pee lol!

That's a good question. I guess when I was with my friends I had a lot of fun, although they've all moved away now so that kinda sucks. Playing music used to mean a lot to me but, I'm not sure why, I've been too apathetic to work on anything anymore. I still like exercising honestly so that's alright.

the problem I have these days is that I just don't have the drive to make my life 'unboring', to go out and do things. I feel like I've tried all that stuff already and never got much to show for that effort. maybe I'm just being lazy, that could very much be the case.

 

[Sundayafternoon]

Being mostly in my room all day often bores me too, but I wonder if I could enjoy it more if there was nothing at the back of my head that told me that I'm doing this whole life thing wrong.

That! Is the problem.

Once I lock my apartment door behind myself, I try to imagine no one else exist. Hence, no one to judge me and my sloth like tendencies.

 

[pokethemartyr]

i feel this a lot. i feel like all my energies are sucked up from work that i don't find joy in living anymore. everything bores me because i'm too tired to be interested i don't know if that makes sense