Dealing with the guilt of leaving my friends

[Lily_bun]

I have SN and should be getting meto next week and I've been struggling to handle the guilt of leaving my friends. I see them as my family and I've tried to distance myself from them but they won't let me go. Idk what to do to try and make my CTB easier on them. I've already hurt them so much and I don't want to add to it. Any advice would be appreciated.

 

[Dingusguy]

If it was me I would begin writing a bunch of personalized notes to all of them and I would leave them somewhere people would find it once someone comes looking for me.

I am not sure if it would help your friends but I know I will leave notes when my time comes, purely to help provide whatever small amount of closure I can manage.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be a difficult situation to be in, if one wants to make ctb easier on others in my view one could write notes to act as an explanation for those left behind and to try and make them understand. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Lily_bun]

Yeah I wrote a 5 page note that explains in detail my feelings and why I went through with it. I just can't live with ptsd anymore and being trans is a constantly exhausting having people either hate me or fetishize me. I just hope that's enough for them to understand my stance.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Sounds like you have great friends. Could you all accomplish something together?