Discussion Daydreaming absurd CTB?

[Omniscient Chasm]

There's times where I'll daydream the most absurd and downright insane CTB scenarios for myself.

One I commonly find myself with is a repeat of my last one. But more extreme and planned out where I intentionally draw a bunch of cops with guns drawn and give them all a reason to empty their clips. There's obviously more detail to such fantasies but I'd rather not detail it as it is...very detailed and makes me sound more insane than I already do whenever I type on this website.

Daydreamed about opening an airplane door once and just jumping out mid flight. Contemplated jumping off the stratosphere in Las Vegas. Causing a fuss on social media to enrage people into swatting me, and many many many more. These are just my funniest ones. (Not really, but to me they are.)


Again, daydreams. I know these are downright absurd, ridiculous, and straight up selfish as they tend to involve others.

Will I ever go through with an attempt that may harm/distress others? (In terms of dragging others into said attempt)
Absolutely fucking not. Never again. Because despite my lighthearted/joking statements paired with my seeming fixation on these methods.
I will never forget the very tangible distress I brought upon people who didn't deserve it, and it's why I seek to do my eventual CTB in a very clean and successful manner in an incredibly isolated area.


So I come to you all, do any of you have these moments where you just lie back and imagine the most vivid and possibly absurd ways to CTB?
Whether it be genuine contemplation or rather a dream of 'ah imagine if I did that crazy shit?" is up to you. I just enjoy these topics.
I think the above may be enjoyable to me particularly because I do like the imagined thrills.

 

[Dinozauria]

I do the exact same thing! I didn't know other people also did this, I thought I was just a bit weird. Sometimes, I also daydream about what could go wrong during an attempt (like surviving the fall, having someone forcibly stop me etc). Dunno why I daydream about that though, since both of those scenarios scare me a little, but it is what it is lol

 

[AmanSilvers]

I am totally in the same boat with the daydreams. Recently I was on a flight by an exit door to the wing, and I couldn't stop thinking about it. Sometimes I'll get a little distracted while driving because I'll imagine driving headfirst into an oncoming semi truck.

I can't come up with examples of more ridiculous ones I've thought. For me it is not enjoyable at all, it makes me very nervous, like my hands might stop listening to me and make a huge mess for someone else to clean up when I'm gone.

Part of my distress about it certainly is from the fact that I have decided I am not going to ctb unless some unlikely things happen, and I wish I could just stop thinking about. (Though clearly I am not trying that hard to stop, considering the website we're on. Hah.)

 

[d4isy]

i do this too! i used to fantasize about the cia assassinating me lmao.

 

[meatballlover]

There's times where I'll daydream the most absurd and downright insane CTB scenarios for myself.

One I commonly find myself with is a repeat of my last one. But more extreme and planned out where I intentionally draw a bunch of cops with guns drawn and give them all a reason to empty their clips. There's obviously more detail to such fantasies but I'd rather not detail it as it is...very detailed and makes me sound more insane than I already do whenever I type on this website.

Daydreamed about opening an airplane door once and just jumping out mid flight. Contemplated jumping off the stratosphere in Las Vegas. Causing a fuss on social media to enrage people into swatting me, and many many many more. These are just my funniest ones. (Not really, but to me they are.)


Again, daydreams. I know these are downright absurd, ridiculous, and straight up selfish as they tend to involve others.

Will I ever go through with an attempt that may harm/distress others? (In terms of dragging others into said attempt)
Absolutely fucking not. Never again. Because despite my lighthearted/joking statements paired with my seeming fixation on these methods.
I will never forget the very tangible distress I brought upon people who didn't deserve it, and it's why I seek to do my eventual CTB in a very clean and successful manner in an incredibly isolated area.


So I come to you all, do any of you have these moments where you just lie back and imagine the most vivid and possibly absurd ways to CTB?
Whether it be genuine contemplation or rather a dream of 'ah imagine if I did that crazy shit?" is up to you. I just enjoy these topics.
I think the above may be enjoyable to me particularly because I do like the imagined thrills.

Yes this has always been a thing for me and I would argue the ultimate start of me seriously considering suicide. The cop scenario is a strong one for me. Another one is shooting myself in class. I can outright admit, all the scenarios are attention seeking in one way or another because it always features witnesses (atleast in my case). But who cares