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LilyLaroux2000

LilyLaroux2000

fairy
May 5, 2024
62
Im sitting in ekonomy class once more. Like allways Im reading a book.

Im so lost in fantasy I dont think I ever lived in the real world.

My thoughts are a mess and I jump from one to another.

It is so strange- I dont think Im actually daydreaming anymore. Its more of Im living in the daydream. I treat life as if its a dream. I mean- what if it is? I guess Im just delusional or my schizofrenia might be bad-

Sometimes I wake up for a little and it feels aweful. Maybe I've been dissasociating my whole life.

i dont need anyone to answer. But I wish someone is at least reading this. I cant explain it. I think I might feel more real.



Im shaking, with no idea of why. I feel like crying yet I dont feel.



I only have one question...
Is it okay to die of your own will?
 
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HazelTheGhost

HazelTheGhost

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Aug 11, 2024
8
Maybe your experiencing a form of dissociation know as Maladaptive Daydreaming?
 
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deathisapanacea

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Mar 10, 2025
12
Daydreaming is awesome. I daydreamed my way out of depression. πŸ˜† but now I am stuck in a perpetual cycle of daydreams πŸ˜”
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
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I only have one question...
Is it okay to die of your own will?
In my opinion, this is a personal question that can only be answered by the self. I believe in choice. But everyone has a different set of beliefs and morals that guide them.
 
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LilyLaroux2000

LilyLaroux2000

fairy
May 5, 2024
62
In my opinion, this is a personal question that can only be answered by the self. I believe in choice. But everyone has a different set of beliefs and morals that guide them.
Thank you so much for answering :D
 
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JesiBel

JesiBel

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Dec 5, 2024
272
Life or the real world is a pain. Mixing it with daydreaming, dreamy places, or thoughts makes every day more bearable. It's a kind of safe place or protection.. until intrusive or negative thoughts also creep in. It's a constant war.

Regarding the last question... I suppose everyone will have a different answer. Deep down, what do you think would be right or desirable for you? (reflection, no need to answer) After all, our lives belong to us and no one else.
 
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LilyLaroux2000

fairy
May 5, 2024
62
Life or the real world is a pain. Mixing it with daydreaming, dreamy places, or thoughts makes every day more bearable. It's a kind of safe place or protection.. until intrusive or negative thoughts also creep in. It's a constant war.

Regarding the last question... I suppose everyone will have a different answer. Deep down, what do you think would be right or desirable for you? (reflection, no need to answer) After all, our lives belong to us and no one else.
You thought about it huh? Thank you so much! And yes its our life- I honestly belive its our own choice.
 
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JesiBel

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Dec 5, 2024
272
You thought about it huh? Thank you so much! And yes its our life- I honestly belive its our own choice.
Sure, my answer would be:

Yes, of my own free will, I would choose when, how and where.. When I'm really ready, without doing it impulsively.

I don't think I've been to the deep bottom of the abyss yet, I'm trying to stay here a little longer... Maybe a little false hope is still keeping me going.


Hugs for you.
 
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