
LilyLaroux2000
fairy
- May 5, 2024
- 62
Im sitting in ekonomy class once more. Like allways Im reading a book.
Im so lost in fantasy I dont think I ever lived in the real world.
My thoughts are a mess and I jump from one to another.
It is so strange- I dont think Im actually daydreaming anymore. Its more of Im living in the daydream. I treat life as if its a dream. I mean- what if it is? I guess Im just delusional or my schizofrenia might be bad-
Sometimes I wake up for a little and it feels aweful. Maybe I've been dissasociating my whole life.
i dont need anyone to answer. But I wish someone is at least reading this. I cant explain it. I think I might feel more real.
Im shaking, with no idea of why. I feel like crying yet I dont feel.
I only have one question...
Is it okay to die of your own will?
Im so lost in fantasy I dont think I ever lived in the real world.
My thoughts are a mess and I jump from one to another.
It is so strange- I dont think Im actually daydreaming anymore. Its more of Im living in the daydream. I treat life as if its a dream. I mean- what if it is? I guess Im just delusional or my schizofrenia might be bad-
Sometimes I wake up for a little and it feels aweful. Maybe I've been dissasociating my whole life.
i dont need anyone to answer. But I wish someone is at least reading this. I cant explain it. I think I might feel more real.
Im shaking, with no idea of why. I feel like crying yet I dont feel.
I only have one question...
Is it okay to die of your own will?