Help Daydream and a question

[LilyLaroux2000]

Im sitting in ekonomy class once more. Like allways Im reading a book.

Im so lost in fantasy I dont think I ever lived in the real world.

My thoughts are a mess and I jump from one to another.

It is so strange- I dont think Im actually daydreaming anymore. Its more of Im living in the daydream. I treat life as if its a dream. I mean- what if it is? I guess Im just delusional or my schizofrenia might be bad-

Sometimes I wake up for a little and it feels aweful. Maybe I've been dissasociating my whole life.

i dont need anyone to answer. But I wish someone is at least reading this. I cant explain it. I think I might feel more real.



Im shaking, with no idea of why. I feel like crying yet I dont feel.



I only have one question...
Is it okay to die of your own will?

 

[HazelTheGhost]

Maybe your experiencing a form of dissociation know as Maladaptive Daydreaming?

 

[LilyLaroux2000]

Maybe your experiencing a form of dissociation know as Maladaptive Daydreaming?

who knows qwq - thanks a lot for telling me! ^^

 

[deathisapanacea]

Daydreaming is awesome. I daydreamed my way out of depression. but now I am stuck in a perpetual cycle of daydreams

 

[LilyLaroux2000]

Daydreaming is awesome. I daydreamed my way out of depression. but now I am stuck in a perpetual cycle of daydreams

oh noooo you sure have a crazy life xd

 

[TheHolySword]

I only have one question...
Is it okay to die of your own will?

In my opinion, this is a personal question that can only be answered by the self. I believe in choice. But everyone has a different set of beliefs and morals that guide them.

 

[LilyLaroux2000]

In my opinion, this is a personal question that can only be answered by the self. I believe in choice. But everyone has a different set of beliefs and morals that guide them.

Thank you so much for answering :D

 

[JesiBel]

Life or the real world is a pain. Mixing it with daydreaming, dreamy places, or thoughts makes every day more bearable. It's a kind of safe place or protection.. until intrusive or negative thoughts also creep in. It's a constant war.

Regarding the last question... I suppose everyone will have a different answer. Deep down, what do you think would be right or desirable for you? (reflection, no need to answer) After all, our lives belong to us and no one else.

 

[LilyLaroux2000]

Life or the real world is a pain. Mixing it with daydreaming, dreamy places, or thoughts makes every day more bearable. It's a kind of safe place or protection.. until intrusive or negative thoughts also creep in. It's a constant war.

Regarding the last question... I suppose everyone will have a different answer. Deep down, what do you think would be right or desirable for you? (reflection, no need to answer) After all, our lives belong to us and no one else.

You thought about it huh? Thank you so much! And yes its our life- I honestly belive its our own choice.

 

[JesiBel]

You thought about it huh? Thank you so much! And yes its our life- I honestly belive its our own choice.

Sure, my answer would be:

Yes, of my own free will, I would choose when, how and where.. When I'm really ready, without doing it impulsively.

I don't think I've been to the deep bottom of the abyss yet, I'm trying to stay here a little longer... Maybe a little false hope is still keeping me going.

Hugs for you.